Old Crushes Die Hard Chapter 1: If I Could Turn Back Time, a lizzie mcguire fanfic

A/N: I do not own "Lizzie McGuire" or any of the characters from the show and/or film. I also do not own the song "If I Could Turn Back Time" by Cher.

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Chapter One: If I Could Turn Back Time

Lizzie stomped out of Dolce in her Prada heels, head held high in the air. She pulled her car keys out of her clutch and pushed the button that unlocked her Ferrari. Its lights blinked in the distance.

"Lizzie, babe!" a voice from behind her called out. "Don't end it like this, please!"

Lizzie just kept walking. She got to her car, opened the door, and shouted back, "I don't believe I was the one who ended it." She sat down and closed the door. Turning the key in the ignition, she felt unfazed. Breakup number five in two years. This one's name was Patrick, he was 26, in advertising, and they had lasted three months. He was a nice guy and a good kisser, but not Lizzie's idea of 'the right guy'. She didn't like to admit it, but she was looking for the right guy. Patrick wasn't it. In fact, if he hadn't dumped her tonight before the main course was brought out, she would've done it herself. She was a lot stronger than she was after that first breakup with Ronnie Jacobs back in the eighth grade. Now, breakups meant nothing to her. They didn't make her wallow up and cry.

But she always did anyway.

It was a complicated thing. Every time she broke up with a guy, she thought of the worst day of her life, the day she broke up with the love of her life, ending an 8-year relationship that was supposed to last forever.

She got hysterical thinking about breaking up with Gordo.

-If I could turn back time, if I could find a way, I'd take back those words that hurt you and you'd stay-

Tears welled up in Lizzie's eyes as she drove out of the Dolce parking lot. This was how it went down:

After touring Italy with Isabella the summer before high school (with Gordo at her side, after he came to Rome to win her love back), Lizzie decides that she doesn't want the record deal. Instead, she makes the song "My Apology" a duet with Isabella on her upcoming album. It goes to number 1 in twenty countries. Even though she's now mega-rich and mega-famous, she goes back to California and leads a normal life. She and David Gordon, a.k.a. Gordo, begin dating. They date throughout high school. When they graduate, Gordo goes to NYU to study film and Lizzie decides to do another duet with Isabella and goes on tour all over Europe with her. Four years later, she graduates from UCLA with a degree in performing arts. She and Gordo have kept their relationship going strong. She goes to his graduation in New York, where she finds out that he had gotten very close to another girl. They never went out, but Gordo's roommate makes the mistake of telling Lizzie that Gordo and this girl spent a lot of time alone in their dorm, but he leaves out that they were just working on a project. Lizzie and Gordo have a huge fight and break up.

So bottom line: Gordo screwed up, but Lizzie blew it out of proportion (A/N: sound familiar?).

As Lizzie drove through the streets of downtown L.A., tears spilled down her cheeks. She never spoke to Gordo after that. It was because she couldn't say she was sorry and because she missed him. A lot.

-I don't know why I did the things that I did. I don't know why I said the things that I said-

Lizzie turned onto the highway. It was a short ride to get to the Hillridge exit. Lizzie didn't live there; she had her own apartment in L.A., but her parents were away, so she was house-sitting. She didn't want to be in Hillridge; it brought back too many memories.

She turned onto the Hillridge exit. Headlights cutting through the darkness of evening, the radio D.J. announced to listeners that he was going to play a "new old favorite" of his. Lizzie smashed her palm on the volume button to shut it off when "What Dreams are Made Of" began playing. The song reminded her so much of Gordo that it was scary. She hadn't been able to listen to it in two years.

Every time she broke up with a guy, the pain from her breakup with Gordo became sharper. Why they broke up was stupid. He didn't cheat on her, but she had had yelled and screamed at him. She was way out of line.

-Pride's like a knife; it can cut deep inside. Words are like weapons; they wound sometimes-

After they called it quits, Lizzie thought that maybe her intention deep down for breaking it off after eight years was that she felt tied down and wanted to meet new people. After Joey and Tom, though, it became evident that that wasn't the answer.

She turned onto her street. She wanted to pick up the phone a thousand times and apologize, but she couldn't do it. It was too hard.

-I didn't really mean to hurt you. I didn't want to see you go. I know I made you, but baby-

Lizzie pulled into the driveway. She got out of the car and slammed the door, ashamed of herself, deciding she would drown her sorrows in wine, chocolate, and her three favorite movies: "Sleepless in Seattle", "Grease", and "Monty Python and the Holy Grail." Gordo loved "The Grail." She hoped she would fall asleep before getting to it.

-If I could turn back time, if I could find a way, I'd take back those things that hurt you and you'd stay-

Lizzie got into her pajamas and raided the pantry for candy. She pulled the DVDs out and started "Sleepless in Seattle." She cried the first half hour of it.

-If I could reach the stars, I'd give them all to you and you'd love me, love me, like you used to do… if I could turn back time-

Lizzie remembered their last date. Spring break, 2011, Miami. Gordo took her to a nice Japanese restaurant. Lizzie was so sure he was going to propose. She was disappointed when he didn't. She would've said yes. She would've married him on the spot.

-My world was shattered. I was torn apart, like somewhere took a knife and drove it deep in my heart-

When "Sleepless in Seattle" was done, Lizzie pulled out the wine and put on "Grease." It was 11:39 by that time. The beach scene in the beginning of the movie practically made her screech. She ran into the bathroom and locked the door, as if expecting Gordo to try to come in and make her feel better. She stayed in there until she heard the end of "Summer Nights."

-You walked out that door. I swore that I didn't care, but I lost everything, darling, then and there-

It began to rain around midnight. Lizzie had drank a whole bottle of a cheap copy of Chardonnay, which made her throw up all over the kitchen floor. Patrick had called her cell phone six times. She never picked up. She just lied on her back on the couch and listened to the movie.

Another thing that killed her was the fact that Gordo probably hated her guts. He wasn't like Patrick; he never called once. He probably got a new girlfriend, one that didn't get mad at nothing and turn it into something. He probably loved her more than he ever loved Lizzie.

Most of all, Lizzie wished she could apologize, tell Gordo that she was truly sorry. She was. And not only that, but she still loved him.

-Too strong to tell you I was sorry. Too proud to tell you I was wrong. I know that I was blind, and darling-

Lizzie stupidly tossed the empty wine bottle across the room, aiming for the trashcan. Glass shattered on the floor. Lizzie didn't even notice. She was concentrating on Danny was willing to be a jock to get Sandy back. Gordo had done nothing. Lizzie made no difference at all.

And it was all Lizzie's fault.

-If I could turn back time, if I could find a way, I'd take back those things that hurt you and you'd stay-

Matt called from school. He had forgotten their parents were away. Lizzie didn't feel like talking. She just said, "I have to go," in the middle of his sentence and hung up the phone. She noticed the shards of glass across the cold floor. She couldn't find the broom and dustpan so she just pushed it all aside with her slipper. That's when her legs gave out and her knees caved in. She fell to the floor and was unable to regain strength. She just sat on the floor and cried like an infant. Never, EVER, had the Gordo-aftermath of a breakup been this bad.

-If I could reach the stars, I'd give them all to you and you'd love me, love me, like you used to do… if I could turn back time-

After ten minutes of crying, Lizzie was forced to get a tissue. She got up slowly and wobbled like an unstable wheelbarrow to the bathroom. She pulled a Kleenex out of the box and her eyes met with a tiny bar of soap in a clear, plastic box. Lizzie and Gordo had stupidly carved "LM + DG" in a little heart in it instead of a tree like regular saps. They wanted to save it. Lizzie picked it up and threw it against the wall, the plastic smashing in two. Lizzie began to cry again as she slid down the wall. Why was Gordo haunting her like this? Would he ever let her be?

-If I could turn back time… if I could turn back time… if I could turn time, oh baby-

Eventually, she got up and again wobbled into the kitchen. Wanting to wash everything off of her, she opened the window and let the rain in. It cooled her face. Her lips curved into a smile. The rain could sometimes ease troubles, and Gordo was giving her plenty of trouble.

-I didn't really mean to hurt you. I didn't want to see you go. I know I made you cry, but, oh-

Lizzie heard the "Hand Jive" in the other room. She went back and sat down on the couch, relieved that she could still count on the healing powers of the rain. Then she remembered that she left the kitchen window open and ran to close it. She did it with ease, wishing she could shut Gordo and all memory of him out of her life that easily.

-If I could turn back time, if I could find a way, I'd take back those things that hurt you and you'd stay. If I could reach the stars, I'd give them all to you and you'd love me, love me, like you used to do-

Lizzie went back into the living room and skipped a few scenes to get to the end of the movie, eher favorite part. She was tired and she didn't want to miss "Monty Python" (A/N: BTW, if there is anyone out there who has not seen this movie or even heard of it, RENT IT RIGHT NOW. IT IS THE FUNNIEST MOVIE EVER MADE).

'Maybe I'm on the road to recovery,' she thought hopefully. 'Maybe I can get through this.'

She didn't know that her life was about to change.