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God-Damned - Thanks for the tip, I had a line but it went away when I uploaded, but I fixed it.

So this is Draco's POV set like immediately after the first chapter.

Title: Breakfast Musings

Oh shit. He caught me staring. Why do I always have to stare at him? Why can't I hate the adorable bastard? Not adorable, abominable, I meant abominable.

Wait… he's smiling at me… he's not pissed. What… face muscles don't smile back…. must maintain appearances. Damn it, I smiled. But he looks so happy now… not that I care if he is happy.

But I do.

I just can't bear to see him so sad. I wish I still hated him. It was easier then. Of course I was still idolizing my father at that point in time. Seriously, I don't think anything can make that man happy. So I gave up trying.

He laughed, the Weasel made him laugh, bloody bastard. I should be the one making Potter laugh…. or moan….. No I should be making him cry. Yes, if I keep telling myself I hate him… I'll hate him again, I'm sure of it.

Potions is next. Potions with Potter, that doesn't make me happy. I hate that Snape has partnered together this week, I do, I swear.

I wonder what Potter would think if he knew I went to Dumbledore. Hate the old bastard but he can keep me safe from Daddy Dearest. Lucius wasn't too happy when I ran away from that silly initiation.

I'm walking slow, avoiding seeing him. Crabbe and Goyle didn't make NEWT Potions so I'm on my own. Well Blaise is there but I'm not sure about the boy, he seems a little whacked. Crazy Italians.

Shit. I'm here. I have to sit next to him.

Play it cool, play it cool.

But he's smiling, and he looks so happy and cute. Wait… I just smiled back again.

What the hell is wrong with me?

Focus on the potion. Focus on the potion. A variation of the Draught of Living Death… that's not hard, not hard at all. This should be a breeze. I send Potter to get the supplies, so I can collect my cool. I can't act like a bloody schoolgirl with a crush. It isn't befitting of a Malfoy, and I haven't been disowned, yet. So I must keep up appearances.

If only he wasn't grinning shyly at me like that.

OH BLOODY HELL!

I just blushed at Potter…. I've officially lost it… off to St. Mungo's with me.

But he isn't a bad guy. So he tends to kick my ass at Quidditch and he has over-bearing amount Gryffindor qualities. Well bravery and compassion are good, right? And I do like an athletic build. Still it's more than that.

He just keeps going. He won't quit. I mean life has kicked him in the balls many many times and he just gets back up. I'm aware of the manner in which he was treated by his horrid muggle relatives. But he isn't bitter and vengeful towards muggles. Unlike a certain half-witted, half-blooded Dark Lord who's been prancing about.

How can any person be so good? It doesn't make sense. Shit… he just asked me a question and all I can do is stare blankly. He repeats himself.

I roll my eyes…. and respond. Of course you crush the wormwood. How did that boy make it into NEWT levels potions? Dumbledore probably interfered, not that I mind; I get to see him more this way….

Which is a horrible terrible thing.

Merlin help me, I've lost my mind.

I care about Potter. I don't want to see him hurting. I want to smack his friends upside the head till they realize that he is in pain. I want to hold him as he cries.

Fuck… fuck fuck fuck….

I'm screwed. I care about Potter, I'm a lost cause. I should have never started staring, but he grew up so well over the summer.

Time to turn down the flame on the cauldron. Three stirs counter-clockwise.

Potter seems to be off in his own little world. I wonder what he's thinking about. Does he think about me? Of course not, I'm just a thorn in his side, not even a rival really.

But he smiled at me. Why did he have to smile at me?

Now my world has been turned upside down. I can't handle it.

He's looking at me, a faint smile on his lips.

Maybe an upside down world is okay. If Harry smiles at me, I can handle it.

I smile back and turn my attention back to the potion.

fin

A/N: I think Draco is really out of character… I tried to keep him in cannon but the descriptions of him are so vague. Please let me know what you think. Thanks!