Justify
A/N : Kadaj was inspiring to me during Advent Children. I just felt like writing something small through his eyes. This poem is one of my firsts, so please, don't judge it too much.
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Existence needs justification.
I'm sure that he has it, from friends, from family, from the so called justice he fights so hard to achieve.
Myself. I cannot see the end, not now, not when I am so far away. I fight for it, yes. I cry for it, yes. I scream for it.
When my attempts seem in vain.
I try to care for them, around me, always around me. Maybe part of me wants to be like him. And because I am not, maybe it means I never will be.
But she is there. As the humans say, "In spirit," and when I look into the gleaming silver of the gun and sword, I see her face. She begs me to carry this out. She begs me to finish this. And, because of those gleaming eyes, I cannot refuse her.
Even if she obtained human form, even if I could, and maybe even the being within myself, I still would feel the ache, the ache of what horrible futures lay ahead.
I walk through life with my mind set. And that is all.
I see this world in black and white. Not only, but I also see it as a target through my torment.
And as I think I wander alone, I see them with me, hair as silver as my own. And then, I remember, my mind realizes…
I am not alone. They are with me as well. Searching, Fighting, running, all towards the same goal.
But I am not them. I am myself.
And I am not him. I am me.
I am the only one who can see my soul.
But, I see them as justification, not only she.
Justification for my existence.
A/N - Ahh, My feelings are out. I am thinking of writing some more things for FF. However, my time is being eaten away by the monster called ' High School.'
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