Thank you for the nice advices, swiftstarz! And thanks everybody for supporting me! I'm sorry for having delayed so much my writing, but I had to organize a party for my eighteenth birthday (and this was pretty nice, but very tiring too…). After that I had problems with internet and I had been on vacation….SORRY!

The school hall was as big as always and full of guys as Sana remembered. Their eyes were fixed on her pale face. Carrying her big backpack with effort, she tried to watch forward without caring of them. Someone said hello, a group of girls started to whisper just in front of her, two or three desperate fans ran towards the nursery trying to stop their nose-bleeding.

Sana felt happy and sad at the same time. Her beloved school, her dear friends, the future friends she could meet, the part of her life she liked best was there. On the other hand, fear, weakness and that feeling of loath… anxiety, the difficulty to begin again, the power of life coming towards her…

'Don't be ridiculous! What's the matter with you?'she thought as sheentered her first class.

Mr Hamayashi greeted her with a faked smile: "Nice to see you, Kurata-san. What's happened to make you come to school?"

Sana watched around without answering the teacher and finally saw a free chair near Tsuyoshi. She sat down smiling at him and prepared herself to pay attention to the lesson. Everybody was staring at her, and that was a little embarrassing. Sana was not in her everyday mood, she felt weak and fearful and thought everybody was noticing that. In fact Tsuyoshi felt a strong difference in her behaviour, that was far more quiet than always, but he could understand part of her feelings.

"So, Kurata-san, may you come to the blackboard and repeat to the class the first trigonometric theorem?"

Hamayashi perfectly knew that Sana was out of school the day he demonstrated the theorem, and obviously she didn't know it. Since she was not able to answer, he asked Tsuyoshi, who perfectly demonstrated it. Sana was totally upset, math had never been her favourite subject, but she studied hard at least to learn the theory, even if when it came to exercises she didn't understand so much: it was really depressing not to know so simple a theorem, and the teacher should know she wasn't at school when he demonstrated it. She began to fear school life should became difficult with such a teacher, but when she rose her head up from her desk she saw the smiling faces of her school mates supporting her against the unfair behaviour of the teacher. Sana felt reassured and finally calm.

'She is at school, I guess, she is here, I'm gonna see her in minutes…wow, my stomach is clutching, am I SO in love with her? I saw her last night, it's not a long time since I stayed with her, what's so exciting in seeing her?

And we have to be just friends: how will I keep kissing her beautiful lips and… yes, and taking her by hand, by her soft hand (aargh, how romantic of me.). Strange of me being so much worried, do I really physically want her so much? she is so an un-sexy little girl! I always thought my love was platonic… well I'm not gonna think about her anymore'

"Hayama-san what are you thinking about? Please pay attention to the lesson!"

"Ok"

"He is weird today, isn't he?" whispered Fuka

"Is it possible he was thinking about Sana-chan?" answered Aya in the same way.

"I'm sure he was, he had something like a tender look in his usually cool eyes, I saw only when he was with Sana during her doll-syndrome."

"Truly enough they are going to be together again…"

"I hope, but we don't know anything"

At break everybody went to the garden.

Sana wasn't feeling really well: she hadn't eaten her dinner the day before and she only drank a glass of milk that morning. When she got up from her desk she felt her legs heavy and her head light and she immediately fall down on her seat, becoming gradually paler. Tsuyoshi saw all and couldn't help asking her if she needed help. Sana seemed not to hear him, because she was thinking about her illness and about Hayama: she feared she would never be able to heal without his support. But when she noticed Tsuyoshi's gentle question, she smiled at him and accepted his help.

They went out of the classroom his arm on her shoulders and so they went to the garden. Tsuyoshi didn't ask her anything, but now he was really worried, becoming to fear there was something more Akito didn't know about Sana; a very big problem.

Not seeing Tsuyoshi, Aya decided to search him. She saw him with Sana, but they didn't see her. She didn't say anything and returned to the garden from another passage. What was happening to her dear boyfriend? What was happening to Sana? She didn't dare asking anything, and suspect become to rose into her: Sana was really beautiful, so thin, so soft and in the same time so strong, a terrible rival…

In the garden Sana and Tsuyoshi met Fuka and Aya who were chatting together, Sana understood Aya was behaving weirdly, but she just thought the girl was ill humoured.

Akito was listening to music and seemed not to notice Sana's presence.

'Please make him not turn towards me, please, please, please…' thought Sana.

'I have to pretend I didn't notice her, I have to, I HAVE' thought Akito.

"Hey Aki! What are ya doin' all alone with your headcuffs! Come here, idiot!" Fuka yelled to her friend.

Akito pretended not to hear her, but Fuka went straight in front of him and took down his headcuffs: "Your friends are all here waiting for you and you're listening to music, what's the matter with ya, guy" Akito, as always, surrounded to her fury and sit down near Tsuyoshi and in front of the girls.

But Fuka soon understood the reason of his staying alone, for as soon as Akito reached the group Sana started talking with an evidently faked liveliness, without stopping a minute, with her bright smile of convenience printed on her beautiful face. And she avoided to look at Akito. On the other hand Akito didn't give out a word. At all. And his eyes were just as stubbornly as Sana's ones fixing something unknown in front of him.

Fuka didn't understand at all, but she felt something was very wrong between them.

During her chemistry class, Sana felt so weak she asked to go to the nursery. The nurse was an old woman who liked children and had a big experience of their problems: as soon as she saw Sana she understood the girl was mostly out of her usual mood. And she knew perfectly well that health of mind is important for the health of body. She leave Sana on a little white bed letting her choose her favourite music to listen to and hoping a little relax could be able to calm her down.

Sana tried to sleep but she felt every part of her body aching with pain, and couldn't help turning continuously from one side to the other. She tried to avoid thinking about the only thing was in her mind at the moment: Akito. She repeated in her mind a script she already new by hearth. The thought wasn't giving her rest. She tried to think about something funny to do with her friends, but Akito was there too. And finally she surrounded, she started imagining Akito, his face, his gestures, his smile, his hair, his deep voice…a pleasure so deeply connected with pain…she knew imagining him was the worst thing to do in her situation, she knew she was just feeding her love, adding wood to the fire inside her…but the feeling was so sweet.

When Akito entered the room, during one of his tour around the school, he saw the pretty girl asleep, a slight smile on her beautiful features.

He swear badly in his mind, but couldn't turn away: his eyes glued on her sweet smile.

The kiss was really light, a gentle brush on her lips, but she awoke. And remained still without opening her eyes. Akito ran away.

'Ok, Hayama is crazy, and I was right not to show him I woke up. Yes, I was!' but she had to bite her lips hard, for she was so sad and all her body was covered in chills. She didn't want to admit she liked it.

At lunch Sana asked Tsuyoshi to help her with math, so they didn't have lunch. Anyway she didn't understand a lot.

At the end of the day, Fuka went straight to Akito and started talking with him. She hoped she could find out what was the matter between her two friends, but she feared talking with Sana, who looked so far away from her old friend.

Tsuyoshi was very worried and he started walking Sana home. But Aya saw him and without saying a word she took him from an arm and he was forced to live Sana alone. Sana, having seen, Aya's angry face, smiled between herself thinking about her friends' strong love and their jealousy…

She continued walking, but she didn't feel as wanting to go home. She feared her face was perfectly showing her illness…

Alone. Nobody was with her in this difficult period. Tsuyoshi understood her problems, but he still had a girlfriend to look after, and Aya seemed completely unaware of Sana. Fuka, her best friend, seemed not in the mood of talking every time they see each other, at the radio programme and at the telephone: was she worried about Sana or she just didn't understand?. Sana was really sad about Fuka. She felt betrayed. And Akito…oh, he was perfectly aware of the situation, and still he had lost his control not longer than four hours ago…

Tired. This was the feeling, she didn't have the strength to smile. But still she felt her weakness was so useless, and so stupid…

Maybe her friend were just totally confused…

And then she saw only the dark…