Hi… I had to edit the other note thingy cause I had a schizo attack while I was writing it so it was really weird. And consequently, I did not want to scare all of you guys so I had to get rid of it! ^^;;
Okay, here's the 12th chapter, I looked up roman numerals so I can write up to 1000 in them so no fear! I know what I'm doing!
Since I don't want to have to deal with another "schizo attack" I shall not mention anything of what happened this week that really pissed me off and made me want to FREAKING KILL MYSELF!! (read as: her)
….they are trying to come out again, but I held them in! I even made it sound like I was talking about myself and not "her" which is actually what my dark side refers to me as. (did that make sense??)
Anyways! Here it is! I hope its okay, I'm not particularly fond of it, I don't like it actually… I really messed up everyone. They are so strange, they all sound like my clones (cept the semi normal ones)
I must possess no skills whatsoever.. IN WHICH I APOLOGIZE TO EVERYONE!!
My issues: I apologize for everything (occasionally I've been known to apologize for my existence, isn't that pathetic?) I have an inferiority complex (a bit, I cant tell what one really is so I'm not sure if I have one, all I know is I am a pathetic loser and ya) I'm a schizo, I have split personalities and there are voices in my head. (I swear I thought it was just me until I started to argue with them, told them to "shut up" and one time some other voice yelled at the mean one and said "shut up and stop calling her that!" I said this out loud when my friend Dana was here. She said "SCARY!"
Am I scary?? I'M SORRY! Sorry… sorry!
Okay I'm done! Here it is before I drive everyone away! SORRY!
Unexpected Surprises
Author: Aera-chan
Date: 01-11-04 (2 days after supposed update ^^;;;)
Series: Yugioh!
Rating: R
Chapter XII: I hate you for this feeling…
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Joey pulled the hood of his rain jacket over his head.
It was still raining. The whole sky was filled with it.
He felt his face, his hands cold, his body frozen.
So many silent tears, coming so fast.
Dark tears speckling the carpet, staining it red in color…
He slung his bag over his shoulder and opened the door. He paused before he left.
No, he didn't dare. Nothing was different. His dad didn't love him. It was still the same.
"I hate you! Just get out!"
With that he left.
"Some goodbyes are forever!"
Tears falling.
The door slamming. Shaking…
Silence…
Goodbye… mother…
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He walked up to the doors of the school. He hadn't seen any of his friends or Kaiba yet.
'Strange.. Maybe they are here already.' he thought as he checked around inside of the school.
Finding no one he gave up his search.
He growled as he looked out the windows.
The worst part about his school was that some of the classrooms were built outside of the regular building. Some of his classrooms.
"Stupid architects…" he grumbled as he changed his shoes and put the other ones in his locker.
He bounced off to his classroom, quite literally, receiving many odd looks from the few early students and staff.
Bounce, bounce, bounce.
He jumped and bounced along. He didn't really know why, he wasn't that happy after all. Maybe it was boredom that caused him to act so strange.
He hopped over all the white tiles and landed on the blue ones.
"Hey Joey, what are you doing?" Ryou called as he ran up to him. Joey stopped and turned around letting the boy catch up.
"Oh I dunno, just jumping from tile to tile. Kinda bored I guess."
"Oh, can I join you? Then you wont be so bored or lonely." Ryou asked smiling cutely.
"Oh, I guess if you really want to!" Joey said laughing while he rubbed the back of his head out of embarrassment. He felt rather stupid being caught doing something so childish. But on the other hand, Ryou was pretty cute and childish himself so maybe he wouldn't care so much as others would.
Joey looked back again at Ryou who was still smiling. He really was cute.
Joey turned around and blushed.
'Cheating are we now?' his inner dialogue mocked. 'No, just looking, not cheating, just looking. That's okay right?'
He started to hop tiles again, trying to ignore his inner voices. Conscience.
Ryou followed him, but since he had shorter legs than Joey it was slightly more difficult for him.
"Ah! Missed another one!" Ryou shouted tripping slightly. In an attempt to regain his balance he stepped right into a puddle of some rainwater that had gotten into the hallway somehow, and slid into some lockers. "GAH!!"
Joey stopped abruptly and turned around. "Ryou?" He ran over to Ryou's side. "Are you okay?"
Ryou rubbed his sore butt. "I'm okay. I guess I'm a little clumsy!" he added with a laugh.
Joey smiled as he reached down for Ryou's hand. Ryou grabbed it with hesitation.
"I'm really sorry about all this!"
Nervous laughter. Insecurity.
"I'm such a fool falling down! I mean, what kind of idiot does a 360 into a locker anyways? I guess that's me.. but hey…"
Joey quirked an eyebrow.
"I cant believe I did that!"
More laughter, more empty hollow laughter.
Joey pulled at Ryou's hand trying to pull him up. Their hands slipped apart. Ryou landed down on his wrist hard.
"Oh man! I'm so sorry Ryou! Are you okay?" Joey asked trying to help him up again.
Ryou waved his hands at Joey, laughing while trying to hide his injury. "I'm okay! See. No damage!" He crawled onto his knees and used most of the strength in his legs to push himself up. To prove that he was okay he used both his hands also, despite the sharp pains in the hurt one.
He stood up and smiled wide as he put his hands on his hips. "See, I'm okay! No need to worry about me!"
Joey smiled. "Okay, if you're sure."
They stood in silence for a bit. Joey kicked at the ground as Ryou rocked back and forth on the balls of his feet nervously. He didn't know what to say to Joey.
Slowly as not to be too obvious he slid his hands behind his back and rubbed his wrist. It hurt so much. He gasped sharply when he hit a particular painful spot. He regretted that when Joey looked up.
"Are you okay?"
"Just remembered something! Sorry to alarm you! Don't worry so much." he said smiling.
Joey raised an eyebrow. Back to silence.
"Can I see it?" Joey asked quietly after a few moments of more silence.
Ryou blinked up at him, his voice had startled him out of his thoughts. Joey noticed his confused look.
"Your wrist, can I see it?"
Ryou's eyes grew. "Why?"
Joey stepped closer. "I want to see if you're hurt."
"No, I'm okay!" Ryou said waving his good hand at him.
"Come on, I'm just worried okay." Joey said as he stepped closer.
He shook his head. "N-no, okay. I'm fine!" Ryou turned around and started to leave when Joey started to get closer. "I have to go okay, bye-"
Ryou jumped when he felt Joey's arms encircle his waist.
"Ryou, I wont hurt you, just let me see, then you can go okay." Joey said in his ear, his breath blowing across his cheek.
Ryou did nothing but stare ahead as he lifted his arm. Joey took the arm and rolled up his sleeve.
Joey was silent for a moment.
"Ryou…"
Ryou closed his eyes tightly.
"…did you do this..?"
Kaiba drew the dark leather gloves over his hands. His stupid worthless hands. He growled, his voice low and angry, while he readjusted his head bandage.
He loosely swiped his hair over his face. He was so embarrassed. He hadn't meant for it to be this way. He didn't mean to just snap like that. But he did.
He stepped out of his limo and walked up the steps to the school. He opened the door slowly.
Looking up, his eyes narrowed.
'I guess he was joking then…' He looked down at his feet. 'I really am that dumb I guess… I'm such an idiot..'
He looked up again, his eyes sad. No anger filled their depths.
'How can I be angry when I'm the one who was so stupid to believe… to believe such an obvious lie…what a fool. I am such a fool..'
He sighed and turned away from the two boys down the hall. He walked over to his locker and changed his shoes. He looked up again.
'He doesn't even see me.. He doesn't care that I exist… or that I'm alive. He doesn't care.. I don't care… I think Mokuba could care less, he's so busy with those games of his, I could drop off the face of the earth and nobody would…' He paused his thoughts. He felt his eyes burning. 'What is wrong with you, you pathetic idiot?! Quit feeling sorry for yourself! You're such a big crybaby! Did you actually consider crying at school? You cry at everything! You are such a loser!'
He shoved his books into his locker and grabbed his English text book and a few notebooks. He slammed his locker and stalked off to class.
'Loser! Idiot! Crybaby! Pathetic fool! Moron! Insignificant, worthless, useless, idiotic-'
"Kaiba!"
He didn't turn around.
'The world doesn't need you. Actually it would be better off with out you, after all, all you do is take up space, use up air, food, water. The world-'
"Kaiba hey!" Joey ran up to the other boy. "Kaiba! Are you angry? He asked, his voice shaking slightly.
Kaiba continued walking swiftly, his head down, his eyes far away.
'-it hates you! You don't mean anything!'
"Kaiba please let me explain! Please don't be angry! Its not what it looked like! I like you, not Ryou! Please Kaiba! Just let me explain." he grabbed Kaiba's arm trying to stop him to explain.
'They only pity you! That's why you are still alive! They pity you! But you don't deserve that pity now do you?'
"..no…" he mumbled quietly.
Joey's eyes fell. He stopped walking. Kaiba's body stopped progressing forward as Joey still clung to his arm.
"Kaiba… you don't understand…Ryou-"
"…I don't deserve it…"
Joey paused to listen to Kaiba.
'Everyone hates you, just give up already. Just do it.'
"…yes, that's true…I will soon… I cant…" he continued quietly.
Joey tugged at Kaiba's arm. "..K-Kaiba? Are you..okay?" Who was he… talking to?
"…take it. Stupid! I hate you! Shut up! Stop it! Just stop it!" Kaiba said angrily to the air.
Joey noticed the vacant look in the eye free from the bandages.
No fire burned in it. It was like frosted glass, as good as dead.
Like before.
"Kaiba! Hey you! Kaiba wake up!" He shook Kaiba quickly, his heart beating fast, he was afraid. Afraid for him.
Kaiba blinked and stared at Joey.
Joey stopped moving. He met the stare.
Kaiba blinked again. "..puppy..?"
"Kaiba!" Joey cheered latching to Kaiba. Kaiba threw him off roughly.
"What the hell! Don't touch me! God! Fleas!"
Joey stood up quickly and grabbed Kaiba by the collar. "Hey pal! Don't abuse me! I'm your boyfriend and if you do that again I'll go to the police or something and turn you in!"
Maybe Kaiba didn't see.
Kaiba glared at him. "I don't see why you are so intent on keeping me as yours when you seem to have quite a few other ones."
"What do you mean by that?"
"Oh, I would think that you would know. You seem to be quite the player Mr. Wheeler. Maybe you just like to flirt with as many guys as you can. First pointy head, then Yugi, then me, then whitey, and maybe that dice boy next. But I wouldn't know since you seem to like to keep me in the dark. I guess I just have to find out these kind of things for myself." Kaiba said heatedly.
"Kaiba! Like I've been saying, you don't understand!"
Kaiba's eyes narrowed. "You never said that, and why would I believe you anyways. And let go of me!"
Joey said nothing for a minute. His grip remained in tact much to the other boy's discomfort.
"You…don't remember me saying something like that?"
"Hell! I don't even know where the heck you popped up from! I just turn around and there's your stupid idiotic face!"
Joey stood quietly. "…you… don't know then?"
"Know what? That you were cheating on me with R-whatever?! Yes I know that!"
"..no, you.. didn't know I was there..? At all? You didn't hear my voice?"
"What the hell are you talking about??! And stop touching me!!" Kaiba yelled squirming under Joey's touch.
Joey tightened his hold and used his body to push Kaiba up against the wall. Kaiba squirmed around beneath him.
"Stop it! Get the hell away from me! Joey Wheeler, stop it right now or else-"
"Or else what?"
Kaiba grew silent.
"..Kaiba, do you… need medicine?" Joey asked worriedly.
"No, why?! Now get off!" Kaiba yelled.
"Kaiba! Seriously! Do you need some kind of medication? Do you need the nurse? Are you okay?"
"I'm fine!" Kaiba blurted looking to the side.
Joey loosened his grip. They stood there quietly.
"Kaiba… what happened to your face?"
"None of your business."
"Oh…"
Kaiba was quiet. "Please let go of me." he whispered.
Joey released him. Kaiba straightened his collar.
"..no thank yous?"
Kaiba glared at him.
Joey sighed and kicked at the ground. "Next time…"
Kaiba looked up at him.
"..I'll make you, make me."
"What?"
"Nothing, just thinking out loud." Joey said smiling.
"Whatever." Kaiba said passing by Joey, shoving into his shoulder roughly.
"Whatever? Fuck that!" Joey chirped jumping on Kaiba's back. He squealed like an excited little girl while he choked him.
Kaiba coughed. "What..are you doing?"
Joey smiled. "Annoying you. What do you want me to do?"
"Leave me alone."
"Tough! I like annoying you! Its so much fun!" Joey jumped off him and walked by his side. He put his hand to his mouth like he had a secret. He whispered. "Too bad you have to be yourself or you could do it too." He playfully punched Kaiba in the shoulder. "Oh well! I'll just annoy you ten times more so you don't feel bad!"
Kaiba smirked. "And how will this make me feel better?"
"Oh I don't know, all I know is that it will make me feel a hell'ova lot better! Maybe you'll just get sick of being so damn snooty and maybe you'll finally start to lighten up. Maybe you'll even smile for once."
Kaiba pushed Joey into the wall and continued walking. "I'm not snooty, dear puppy."
"Hey! You jerk!" Joey said nailing him square in the back with his fist. Kaiba jumped. "That's not nice! Now-" He pulled his fist back. "-die!!"
Kaiba easily dodged his fake punch and whacked him in the side with his books.
Joey rubbed his shoulder. "No fair, you never said we could use weapons."
"Well you never voted against it, idiotic puppy."
Joey smirked. "You really like calling me that don't you?"
Kaiba raised an eyebrow.
"How about…" Suddenly Joey was right in Kaiba's face. Kaiba couldn't help but stumble back a few feet.
He closed his eyes, the hard wall pressed against his back as Joey hovered near his face. "..how about I call you…" Joey's breath blew over his lips gently as they neared. Kaiba felt his knees shaking.
His back slipped against the wall causing him to slide downwards towards the floor. Joey followed after him and soon both boys knelt on the floor, lips centimeters apart. "..kitty?"
"Kitty?" Kaiba asked.
Joey smirked. "What's wrong with kitty?" Kaiba didn't answer, fearing his voice would come out shaky. "What would you like me to call you?"
Kaiba hated how Joey was teasing him. Why didn't he just do it and get it over with? And now Joey wanted him to pick out a pet name? Was Joey doing this on purpose? His stomach was bubbling with anticipation and with anxiousness as he worried whether Joey meant it or not.
"…j-just.." His voice was shaking. "..call me yours…"
He felt Joey smile. "I'd love to."
Then his reward came.
"So Yami, are you feeling better today?" Yugi asked his darker half smiling brightly despite the dark grey clouds overhead.
"Hmn? Oh yes, I am feeling a lot better today. I still feel quite embarrassed though, getting sick during school…" Yami said.
"Hey, don't worry about it okay. Everyone gets sick once in a while."
Yami smiled. "I guess that's true, I just don't like having to go into that one room with that one lady. She makes me feel quite uneasy."
"Why is that? I didn't think the school nurse was that bad…"
"Nothing against her personally, I just don't think she should be certified, or allowed for that matter, to be a doctor. I swear she was trying to kill me in there, sticking things into my mouth and ears. Devil's work I tell you."
Yugi laughed. "You're so funny sometimes Yami."
"I'm not joking, she was trying to kill me I swear." Yami said winking.
Yugi and Yami laughed together. Duke sighed. They looked so happy together.
Yugi turned around to include their depressed friend in on the conversation. "So Duke, how are you feeling?"
Yami nodded. "I heard Tristan gave you a scare this morning." Yugi gave Yami the look. Yami blushed. "Sorry.. Its none of my business."
"No, its okay. I shouldn't have gotten mad like I did." He blinked as he realized something. "Tristan! Oh man! He doesn't know where I am! He's probably freaking out." Duke looked around franticly.
"Do you think he's at school yet?" Yugi asked.
"Um, I don't know.." Duke said softly as he kicked a rock into a puddle.
"You could use Tea's phone when we get there if he's not there yet." Yami said thoughtfully.
Duke nodded. "Yah."
"Don't worry so much, I'm sure that Tristan will be fine." Yami said. Yugi nodded.
"But I've never ran out on him before…" Duke mumbled pretty much to himself. "..he's going to think its his fault or something.."
Yugi and Yami looked at each other. "It'll be okay Duke." Yugi said patting his arm. "It'll be okay."
Duke smiled. "You think?"
Yugi nodded. "Tristan will probably accept the blame but I'm sure he'll be fine. Its not like him to do anything dangerous or anything." Yugi said confidently, praying that most of it was true.
Duke swallowed hard and smiled. "Of course."
Tristan shivered as he sat on their apartment balcony. The wind picked up and blew a few raindrops into his face. He shivered again. He knew he should put a shirt on or a coat, but he didn't care.
He rubbed his hand over his cold arm. He sighed and closed his eyes. What had he done that was so terrible for Duke to act this way? He just didn't get it.
He sighed again before standing up to lean over the edge of the railing. He looked down at the puddles accumulating in the streets.
He leaned out further to meet the wind and the rain. The cold felt good to his numbing face.
He opened his eyes as a thought struck him.
Duke could be anywhere. What if he didn't go to one of their friend's houses as he thought he did? What if he was just wandering around out there somewhere by himself? He could be freezing to death. Or worse, he could be getting picked up by some dirty old pervert!
Tristan ran inside quickly and threw his jacket over his shoulders. He changed his bed pants to jeans and tore out the door within minutes.
He started up his bike and sped off in search of his precious person.
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The dog jumped slightly from its sleep when it heard the small silver phone ring. She stood up and walked over to the phone and sniffed it. She jumped back and barked when it rang again.
Growling the dog returned to the sofa.
She growled again as the silver thing continued to ring. Barking she tucked her head in her paws and fell back to sleep.
Ryou crawled onto the top of the closed toilet lid and squeezed his knees up to his chest.
/Ryou… what's wrong?/ Bakura asked through their mental link, his voice and thoughts sounding worried, although he tried hard to hide it sometimes.
\Nothing 'Kura, just leave me alone okay.\
/Ryou, I want to know what's wrong./
\Leave me alone I said.\
He could feel Bakura trying to say something again, but Ryou blocked him out by turning off their connection.
He squeezed his knees tighter. He didn't know what to do. Joey was suspicious now, Bakura was worried, and what if Joey decided to tell Yugi. Yugi would probably have an ulcer. If Yami found out he would blame Bakura and say it was his fault. Then they would start fighting again, all respect and tolerance lost.
Ryou sniffled. He couldn't believe that he would have let something like this get out of his control. He couldn't believe that he allowed Joey to find out about it.
Even if he wasn't necessarily on the right track, he was curious now.
But if he were to tell him, he would want to bring counselors and the school into it.
Bakura would find out too.
It was too much. Sighing he took out his pocket knife and started to carve away at the soft surface, making more dark scars.
Dark red fell down to the floor.
He cried.
"Hmpf!"
Joey stopped kissing Kaiba and they both turned around to stare right into the face of their principle.
He balding man sighed. "The rule against PDA's in this school affects you two also."
The two blushed and stood up quickly bowing and apologizing. "It wont happen again." they said in unison.
The two glared at each other. A verbal fight seemed inevitable.
"Goodness. Even when you two are 'together' you fight like cats and dogs." the man said shaking his head. "First you are practically making out then you act like you are going to rip each other apart, limb by limb. Oh well, guess its not my concern what your romantic lives are like. Stay out of trouble you too, and the fighting rule applies to couples as well." he said lazily as he strolled away down the hall. He walked with his arms behind his back as he looked out the window to stare at the rain pouring down outside.
The boys blinked and looked at each other. Kaiba suddenly felt very tired. "I don't want to fight right now, if you still feel like it, go get me a soda from the machine at the end of this hallway. It'll take a lot out of you, damn thing steals your money. Other than that, I'm just going to go to class." Kaiba said starting to walk off to their English class.
"What kind?"
Kaiba stopped. "What?"
"What kind of pop?"
Kaiba stood silently for awhile. Did Joey really want to get him something? Oh well.
"Strawberry."
"Strawberry?"
Kaiba said nothing else. He just kept walking.
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Kaiba cursed silently to himself. Writing had been hell and typing wasn't any easier, or less painful.
His palms flamed as he hit the small black buttons in a consecutive pattern. But every line grew slower, more awkward as the pain raced up his arms, awakening old and new pains in its wake.
He had tried to type at lunch must to Joey's disapproval, but it had not worked. Consequently, he would fall behind.
Again with the mistakes. He was furious with himself.
How could he allow this to happen? He should have been watching himself better or something.
But he had to fail again didn't he?
Of course. He always failed. If he didn't, he may actually have an easy life. But that wasn't how it worked. He was supposed to have a hard life.
Because he was so stupid. Because he made so many mistakes. Because everything was his fault in the end.
"Kaiba? Are you okay? Maybe it would be easier to type if you took your gloves off."
He turned around. "Save your breath. I'm not doing anything."
'Leave me alone girl. Stupid Tea. Mind your own business for once.'
She puffed out her cheeks. "Well sorry Mr. Snobby for caring! Jeepers!" she said angrily turning around to continue with her assignment.
Kaiba sighed. How was he going to be able to make up all his work if he couldn't even type?
He felt like breaking something. But he couldn't do that, that was uncharacteristic of him in many peoples' eyes, not that he really cared, or so he told himself.
They thought he was so cool, so calm, so collected, like ice. But, in truth, he was barely stable, he could barely control his temper sometimes. He could barely control his body, it just did as it pleased.
It broke stuff, destroyed stuff. It destroyed him.
His mind was no better.
The voices. He swore he could hear voices.
Talking to him, telling him things.
But they were his voices, weren't they?
There couldn't physically be somebody's voice inside of him. That wasn't possible, or was it?
He blinked. his mind was wandering again, wandering to thoughts he preferred to leave alone.
He sighed as he tried to type again. The burning hurt so much, but he would deal. Its wasn't like him to give up, that was something they knew about him that was correct. He had a lot of determination. Or maybe he just knew too much of the consequences.
He had a deathly grip on reality.
Whatever the case, it kept him typing, despite the pain it cost him.
Joey watched Kaiba flinch every time he hit a key. What was wrong with him? It looked like he was in so much pain. But from what? What could be the cause?
Maybe he had a headache, even though he wouldn't tell him what happened to his head, he knew that what ever had happened had to be quite painful.
He looked up at the clock and sighed feeling a bit relieved. Computer class was nearly over and then there was only PE before they could go home.
Joey could take Kaiba home with him and then they could hang out.
'…and do stuff.' his mind mentally added remembering a quote out of a movie he watched one time. He giggled getting some weird looks from the people around him.
He shrunk down in his seat and continued to type.
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Kaiba was allowed to sit out during PE, but leave it to the jackass to insist on playing.
"Jackass! What the hell is the matter with you?! I don't know what happened to your head earlier but you knew you could get hurt again! Now look at you! You're bleeding!" Joey screamed at Kaiba in the backroom while their teacher looked around for some bandages.
Joey was angry, mostly because he was worried. He had never seen so much blood coming out of someone's head before.
He knew it wasn't from just now but from earlier. Getting hit in the head by a basketball doesn't necessarily produce this much blood. If that had been the case, he would have avoided gym since he was small, since it seemed that when he was younger there had always been kids picking on him and throwing balls at his face.
He wasn't very popular when he was younger. Mostly because they thought he was weird, and a trouble maker… but what did they know?
He slowly took the bandages away from the brown haired boy's head. Slowly they unwound.
He could feel the tension in Kaiba's body, like he didn't want him to see.
He held a towel to his face as he unraveled the rest. His breath caught.
"Kaiba… what happened to you?!"
"…its none of your-"
"Kaiba! Tell me what happened! It is my business! Tell me!" Joey yelled, his voice shaking.
Kaiba looked away from Joey's eyes. He was so embarrassed.
"Look at me!! Tell me what happened!" Joey pulled his chin up, causing him to stare right into his face.
"Fuck you! I don't have to tell you anything!" Kaiba screamed, moisture collecting in the creases of his eyes.
Joey's eyes fell. "Please Kaiba… I really care about you-"
"No you don't! You don't care about me! You only want me for your own purposes! I don't mean anything to y-"
Slap.
Kaiba looked down at the floor, his eyes distant.
Joey's body shook. He barely knew what had happened.
Did his hand just slap him. He looked at Kaiba, then down at his hand. He couldn't believe it.
"Kaiba…"
Kaiba didn't look up, he didn't even touch his cheek. He was so ashamed.
"..Kaiba I…" What to say? "…I care about you. I-..I know I shouldn't have done that… but…"
"…its okay…I understand." Kaiba said quietly. "..that's just how it is… that's just how it always was."
Joey placed his hand atop Kaiba's head. He felt him shaking with pain. Internal emotional pain.
No words could make up for it right now, no words at all.
Joey sat down beside him and placed the towel to his face. He quietly dabbed and held it there, getting the blood to stop coming.
"Boys, I got the stuff." his teacher called returning. "Kaiba, I knew I should have insisted on you staying out, I'm sorry."
Kaiba shook his head.
His teacher sighed and sat down on the other side of him. He handed Joey some gauze as he took the towel away.
"Damn, what happened to you Kaiba? Did you have this thing checked out?" his teacher asked when he saw the deep gash in the side of Kaiba's forehead.
"..its not that bad…" Kaiba said quietly.
No one said anything more.
After they finished applying a new bandage to Kaiba's head, they started to get dressed into their normal clothes. Their teacher approached Kaiba once again. "Kaiba, could I speak to you when you are finished?"
Kaiba said nothing, just nodded.
Kaiba walked into the office in the back of the locker room. "Yes..?"
"Please have a seat. Wheeler, he'll be out in a minute, please go sit over on the bench or something." he added when Joey followed Kaiba in.
There was a moment of hesitation before Joey obeyed.
Kaiba kept his eyes on the floor, he heard the door shut.
"Kaiba, I can see you don't like to talk about this very much, but… is there… at home, does one of your… parents beat you?"
Kaiba tensed. "N-no…"
He heard the other man sigh. "Kaiba… please, I can help you if ther-"
"I don't have parents."
"…does your guardia-"
"I live alone with my brother and a few servants. That's it."
"Oh…"
No more words.
"Kaiba, is there something I can-"
"No. I'm fine, there is nothing wrong. Nothing."
With that he stood. Conversation's end.
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Kaiba and Joey sat in silence in the back of the dark limo, neither knowing quite what to say.
"Kaiba…I'm sorry about earlier. I just, I guess I just snapped. I just couldn't take you saying those things…" Joey mumbled quietly.
Kaiba said nothing.
"I didn't mean to hit you, I just.." He looked out the window at the passing scenery. Kaiba turned to look the other way. "I really like you Kaiba, I really do. And when I heard you saying that.. that I didn't, I just… I don't know.." he grumbled hitting his head against the glass.
"Its… okay. You didn't do anything."
"But-"
"It never hurt. I didn't feel it. It doesn't matter." Kaiba said, his voice small and distant. His eyes captured by the outside world, too busy to look at the other boy.
Joey moved a bit closer, sliding across the seat. He slipped his arms around the taller boy's waist, resting his head against his shoulder. "We don't get along too well do we?" He could feel Joey smiling against his arm.
"No.."
Joey grinned. "I like you though, even if we fight, I still like you. A lot." A laugh. "We've had two pretty vicious verbal fights already… and its only been a day. But I don't want to fight anymore okay."
Silence.
"I like you… and I do care about you… I used to deny it, say I hated you, say I never cared. But I knew I did…" Joey stared into Kaiba's eyes. Kaiba looked away. "I hated that too. Knowing that someone like you had captured my heart…"
"Someone like me?"
"..cold, cold as ice…"
The pain.
"…is that so?"
'You think you know..?'
Joey smiled. "So many times I wanted to just hold you, just… love you.." Kaiba tensed. "I never thought I would be able to… now I am, but I just had to hurt you didn't I?"
Nothing.
"I don't care if, if you don't like me, or if you don't… love me, ever. I know this is weird, but I do really…"
"I understand." Sniffle. "I-I.. understand." Kaiba couldn't stop the burning. He felt so…
Joey smiled. He released his arms from around the taller boy's shoulders and used them to pull him downwards. Kaiba rested his head against Joey's chest as he continued to sniffle.
"..you.. you make me feel so damn weak… I hate you, I hate you so much for that! Why-why cant I be strong when I'm in your arms? Why do you do this to me? Why do you take away my strength and turn me into, into this?!" Kaiba cried angrily. "…I hate you…"
Joey wrapped his arms around the shaking figure. He smiled kindly. "…that's an interesting way to say 'I love you'. I love you too."
"..just, don't talk, okay."
"Yes… just quiet for now?"
"..yes…"
No more words. Just silence until they reached the clear glass doors of the Domino Hospital.
Duke dialed again.
Ringing.
"Hello?"
"…is-is Tristan there?"
Pause. "No, he's not home from school yet. May I ask who's calling?"
A pause. "Its Duke.."
"Duke? Isn't he with- Did he go to school…?" Her voice was tight. Fearing.
"No… he didn't…"
To be continued…
Aw hell, that was bad… MUST YOU SWEAR SO MUCH???! *meep* sorry!
I talk/yell/scream to/at myself… sad/disturbing/weird… I also enjoy putting in slashes… fun fun…
So, what did you think? Stupid? Bad? Okay? Um… I'm PATHETIC!! I apologize!
Do I annoy everyone with my stupidness? (as in being so annoying and pathetic and whiney and just being a loser??) does my apologizing annoy people? I'm SO SORRY! I CANT HELP IT!! Okay, heres my new years resolution: TO SHUT UP!!
After this I'm just going to post chapters with out speaking, if you have a question I will answer it but other than that I will just mention your name in a thank you, as of this moment, I'm being more annoying (SHUT UP AND JUST STOP TALKING!! IF YOU KEEP GOING ON THE MORE ANNOYED EVERYONE GETS!!!!) sorry, goodbye!
Skip over this part if you want to cause I'm just stupid and boring and ya. So! You can just leave now unless you want to look for your name and my comments to you! ^^
Oh, please review when your done (if I don't scare you ^^;;) It'd mean a lot to me! Thanks again! *leaves because she's stupid and a loser*
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Molly-chan the Anime/Game fan: Did I make you sad?? *sobs* ya,… I LIKE SAD!! I like crying… I don't know why… um, ya… WOW I WASTE A LOT OF SPACE!! *dances around*
UNFORTUNATELY!! Yami and Yugi are forced to be the only happy ones in this fic… *sighs* they too also possess the cursed "FORCEFIELD OF 'NO YOU CANT HURT ME OR MAKE BAD STUFF UP FOR ME LYNNSEY NOW DIE!!!' *slaughters me*" yes… they have that… *sighs* therefore, they may get SOME depressing stuff but most likely not, I need SOME happy people or at least distractions…
RYOU, YOU CROSSED OVER!!!
Ryou: ^^;;; I didn't do anything!! You made me say it! And do that stuff! But I wont blame you cause I'm nice!
Bakura: We blame you..
Ryou: ^^;;;
Me: *breaks down crying hysterically*
Smarty1: GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN!! I SPELLED YOUR NAME WRONG!! I SAW IT WHEN I POSTED AND I WAS SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF!! GYAH!! *hits head with a brick* .. so much brain damage…
I WANNA ROCKS!! Some Japanese then ROCKS!! I WANNA ROCKS!! *jammin to "Rocks" from Naruto*
Dana: *actual quote from Dana!* Brain damage at its worst
Me: ^^!
Aw you'll see! Kaiba! *runs around* I HAVE LOTSA BRAIN NOT!!
FREAK014: *sniffles* you want to be my friend? ARIGATO!! *falls to the ground* sorry! GOMEN! *hides* …do you really want to kill me? CAUSE DO IT NOW IF YOU MUST!! *hands over sword* death by sword sounds interesting! ^^
GOMEN!! (%lm) (- maybe you can see it maybe you cant) DON'T APOLOGIZE!! CAUSE I MUST!!
PS: We should just start an apologizing war! ^^;;;
ME: GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN GOMEN !! (BAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAH!!! Copy+Paste!! BAHAHAHAHAHA!!)
Aerik: *rolls eyes* please hand over the sword… I MUST KILL!! *red demon eyes*
Me: …AHHHHHHHHH!! *runs around* I MUST DIE!! *kills self by running into sword* I DEAD!!
alostblackcat: HI!! We haven't talked in FOREVER!! …I SHOULD JUST EMAIL YOU BUT I'M STOOPID!! ..anyways! ^^;;; I cant write humorous stuff anymore… or for the moment being! I'm just depressed I guess! Aw well! Yes! HAIL ANGST!! *bows* I LOVE ANGST!!
*does an Aerik impression* FREAK!!
Aerik: I don't even have to say anything any more… ^^
kaiba2: ^^;;; oops? Hehe, I'm glad you like it! *chibi chibi dance* oh, I don't think it sounds stuck up at all! Even if you said "this story is one of my favs" or something like that I would have automatically thought "I'M NOT WORTHY!! *starts stabbing self with sharp metal object* BLEED!!…." …um…
Aerik: *blinks* that's kinda… disturbing…
Aera: HAI! …everyone calls me morbid too… JUST CAUSE I PLAYED WITH A DEAD BUNNY ONCE DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING OR THE FACT THAT I HAVE AN OBSESSION WITH BLOOD…!
Aerik: …just quit while you are ahead..
Aera: EVERYONE HATES ME NOW!!! *sobs*
Ranma Higurashi: hehehe ^^;;
NaiyaTook: OMG!! I'm so sorry! That's terrible about your story!! That is just HORRIBLE!! STUPID CAR!!! *chases down car* *gets hit* ARGH!! *dies*
Aerik: …o…kay
Aera: YAY! YOU RHYME JUST LIKE ME!!! *dances around while she's supposed to be dead*
Oh, thank you so very much! *sniffles* YOU ARE SO KIND TO ME!! I AM NOT WORTHY!!! *bows* *bows*
Hopefully you'll be able to figure out what was on it or remember or whatever..
Aerik: She bounces around from subject to subject.. annoying.
Me: ;;
Mai Valentine: Yay! *dances* *stops and thinks* AM I THE ONLY ONE GETTING CONFUSED??! *sobs*
Aerik: …no comment
Aera: Oh! This is so funny, I was on the computer when I got ur review and I nearly had a heart attack! I had changed my settings for noise/sounds or whatever *scratches chin* anyways! And all of a sudden there was "YOU'VE GOT MAIL!" In the most satanic voice ever!! (okay its not that bad but whatever) but … *sobs* all the settings changed after I deleted stuff and it scared me..
Aerik: She was like "SHIT!!" and jumped in the air about a foot. *cackles*
Aera: It was scary!!
GYAH!! I APOLOGIZE FOR WASTING EVERYONE'S TIME WITH MY STUPID TALKING!! I LEAVE NOW!! *runs away*
Aerik: This fic, (this is just off the subject and random) but this fic should be updated weekly just to let you know. A certain date each week hasn't been reached (since some of us cant get deadlines done on time ^^;;;)
Anyways! Later everyone!
Aera: he's so cheery and nice now! ^^
Aerik: ^^
Narrator: There is something DEFINITELY WRONG with him! He is NOT A NICE HAPPY PERSON!!
Aerik: …