Your heart is not open so I must go
The spell has been broken, I loved you so
Freedom comes when you learn to let go
Creation comes when you learn to say no
Sarah lay in her bed the next afternoon. She'd been ill when she'd woken up, but that was over now. And she had no fever. And, she was late. So, she'd purchased a pregnancy test. And, horror of horrors, the test had come out positive. What was she supposed to do? She couldn't have a baby and keep 'working'.
You were my lesson I had to learn
I was your fortress you had to burn
Pain is a warning that something's wrong
I pray to God that it won't be long
Do ya wanna go higher
She laid there the rest of the day, contemplating her options. She could continue 'working' until she began to show, and then start up again after the baby was born, giving it away for adoption. Or she could keep the child. But either way, how could she possibly afford it? There was really only one alternative. She would have to have an abortion.
There's nothing left to try
There's no place left to hide
There's no greater power
Than the power of good-bye
It was late in the evening when Sarah entered the all-night free abortion clinic. Giving her first name to the clerk, she sat, keeping her eyes on the floor until the nurse called her name. The nurse was an older woman, mid-forties, Sarah guessed, with a kind looking face. She led Sarah into a back room, handed her a gown, and left while Sarah changed.
Your heart is not open so I must go
The spell has been broken, I loved you so
You were my lesson I had to learn
I was your fortress you had to burn
When the nurse re-entered, she took Sarah's medical history, then began informing her of her other options, but Sarah cut her off. "I know my options," she said. "I've thought this out thoroughly. This is the way I want....need....to go." The nurse just nodded, then went to get the doctor.
There's nothing left to lose
There's no more heart to bruise
There's no greater power
Than the power of good-bye
There were two different procedures. A surgical, vacuum procedure, or a medicinal one. The vacuum abortion would get it all over that night. The pills would take two weeks to make sure all was over and done with. Sarah had to get this over with immediately. The vacuum was the way to go. And so, the decision final, she lay back, ready for what was coming.
Learn to say goodbye
I yearn to say goodbye
After the procedure was over, Sarah left the clinic quickly, needing to get home. She wouldn't be working for a few days, she knew that. She didn't want to do it at all, anymore. She had just taken a life. She had been raised in a pro-life household. She felt so guilty. As soon as she entered her apartment, she collapsed onto her bed and began crying.
There's nothing left to try
There's no place left to hide
There's no greater power
Than the power of goodbye
Sarah's mind went back to a more innocent time, when she had been only fifteen. She remembered the evening she had run the labyrinth. She had grown up that night, but had grown up even more since coming here. After all, it was here she had lost those last traces of innocence. She missed her friends so much. And she wondered...
There's nothing left to lose
There's no more heart to bruise
There's no greater power
Than the power of good-bye
"I....I wish the Goblins would come and take me away....right now..." she whispered, finally falling asleep.
A/N-Wow. This is so much darker than what I usually write. Oh well. At least this can only get better.