Title: Senseless
Author: Tu
Email: G
Season: Any
Series/Sequel:
Disclaimer: I don't own Sg1 and I'm broke
Author's Notes: The song "Love" is by a local band Exit to Knowhere. Indicates song lyrics.
Comments welcome.
Sam sat on her couch trying to read. She finally gave up. Damn him, she thought. How could he be such an ass? He's a man, she thought. It had been a horrible week. Toped off with a horrible fight with the Colonel…Jack last night. Sam grabbed her remote and turned on her CD player.
Is love a constant
Can it survive anything
If I hurt you
Will you forgive me
Can we stay together
No matter what
Sam listened to the words. Daniel had given the team each a copy of this CD. He swore that the band way great and had wanted to share. Was love a constant? She had forgiven Jack every time he hurt her. She hoped they would be together one day. But lately…
If we were separated
By state or constant
Would you still be true
Would our love survive
Sam knew she still loved him. Even after he'd been with Laura. She still loved him. It had hurt that he had given up on her after only a few months. He should have known she would never give up on any member of SG1. But more importantly she would never give up on him.
If one of us lie dying
Would you be there
Holding my hand
Tell I took my last breath
I would for you
Sam thought of Antarctica and of Jolnair's possession of her. She thought of the incidents with the forece field and the Death Glider. They had brushed death so many times. Each time thought they had been together. It had hurt in Antarctica, when Jack called out Sarah's name and said of his love. A part of her had wished it were her name he called out. She had been in love with him even then. Even thought every part of her screamed it was wrong.
My love would be there
I know you love me
When I speak about things
You don't understand
And you listen even
Thought your eyes glaze over
Sam laughed as she laid her head back on the couch. Jack always listened to her, even when he didn't understand the words coming out of her mouth. She had finally given up and started using laymen's terms with him. She knew he was smarter than people thought he was.
I smile just for you
A smile that speaks to your heart
Telling you words only you hear
When you look at me
I feel your love
Sam knew there was a smile she gave only to Jack and Jack alone. She knew he had a smile that was her's alone as well. She could feel his loving gaze on her at times. When she was explaining things or just walking in front of him. She wondered if he truly loved her or if what he felt was just deep friendship.
Your touch tells me so much
I know in your arms
I an safe
Tears ran down Sam's face. In Jack's arms she felt safe. It felt like she was home. It was as if the world just went away when she was in his arms.
Even in another life
We are one
Now and forever
So maybe love is a constant
And so if I know
Ours will survive
Sam lay on her couch and cried. She and Jack were together in every alternate universe that they knew of. If only we were in this universe, she thought. Why was it so hard?