A/n: this is my very first story and I would like to thank all the author that inspired me to write this story and I would like to thank my friend Veronica for encouraging me to write this story.
Chapter one: let me
Let me cry for you, lonely heart
And let me call your name
Let me stay by your side
Let me learn what I can about you
Tell me what you think
Let me hold you just, this once
Let me see your face
Don't hide your scars from me
I'm not afraid to see them
Please, let my tears fall for you
Don't hide anymore
I'm here now
And even when you're scared
Let me tell you its alright
Let me be in your heart and memories
Eternally"this is hopeless!" cried Ginny Weasley in the empty common room. She was suppose to do her potion essay, but ended up writing a text about a green eyes wizard.
Stupid git, thought Ginny, always brooding alone in his corner, pushing everybody heloves. But even if he does that, you still love him,snarled an inner voice, face it Weasley you're desperate and all you want to do is be there for him, to comfort him.
I do not !
yes you do!
will you just shut up!
Immediately, the voice stopped. Ginny felt really stupid for arguing with her inner voice ( who wouldn't ) and started working on her potion essay.
Harry was in a graveyard, he didn't know what he was doing here but he knew he was about to find something. He went pass all the graves but only four was left. The first one was written Lily Potter, the second was James Potter, the third was Cedric Diggory and the last one was blank. Harry took a good look at it and something was appearing: its was a name. Harry feared that he knew which name was going to be there. The name of Sirius black appeared on the tombstone and Harry was horrorstruck. He tried to run away but he abruptly bump into somebody. Harry looked up to saw Sirius , his godfather, looking down to him with a expression of pure disgust." It s all because of you " said Sirius.
" I swear I didn't know it was a trap!" plead Harry.
" Save your breath!" spat Sirius " it doesn't change the fact that its because of YOU I'm dead!'
' I'm sorry" whispered Harry "' I'm so sorry"
" There is no forgiveness for what you've done, good bye godson "
And with that, he disappeared. The face of Harry was screwed up with tears and fell down on his knees and begin to sob. It was all his fault, he thought , Sirius was right there is no forgiveness for what he done…
Harry woke up in a start. It was just a nightmare, thought Harry, just a horrible nightmare. Harry had those since the fateful night in the department of mysteries. He was all wet in cold sweat and needed to change cloths . So, he went into his truck and found a shirt and a pair of short and went into the bathroom. After he was change, he looked at himself in the looking glass. What he saw scared him : he was a mess . Harry saw a white face with black circles under the eyes and a mane of messy (no change there, thought Harry) black hair on his head. The body was kind of ok: he was skinny but not awfully skinny, muscles were showing ( years of quiditch are quite handy ) but what disturbed him was some scars. Reminder of what he has been trough, he thought bitterly, stupid prophecy that messed up my life, maybe I should head down to the common room, maybe there I could relax.
Ginny was still working on her essay. It was two in the morning and she wasn't getting really far. Stupid Snape, thought Ginny , can't give something easy for once! She was insulting him so much in her mind that she didn't notice Harry was already in a armchair beside her. When she finished, she looked where Harry was sitting. It took a long time for her to react and when she finally did, she gasped.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you " said Harry.
"No its ok I didn't know you were down here I thought I was the only one " she answered.
"Oh…um…so why are you here" asked Harry
" I'm doing a potion essay and you"
"I had a nightmare"
"Oh"
For the next minutes, the two of them were quiet until Ginny got bored of it and asked him what was wrong.
" So…euh…what was your nightmare about" asked Ginny.
"I don't want to talk about it, ok"
"If you talk about it maybe you'll feel better"
"Are you deaf " snapped Harry " I don't want to talk about!"
"There's no need to take that tone with me," she said coolly " I just want to help you"
" Well, guess what: I don't need your help" replied Harry coldly.
That was really it, Ginny's temper snapped " I had it with you and your brooding! Can't you see people want to help you, we're there for you and all you are doing is driving us away! "
"That's really sweet and all, but I don't care"
Ginny glared " I should just slap you for what you've just said "
" Well maybe you should you know, everybody knows that I deserve it" said Harry lowly.
Ginny felt sorry for him but just with what he said earlier, the pity faded away " you're not even worth it Harry and you can just stay all alone" she said coldly
"Fine!"
"FINE!"
Ginny was really mad, who does he think he is, she thought angrily , I'm trying to help him for god sakes. In sheer anger she ran up upstairs in her dorm room. When she got there, she laid down on her bed and stared at the ceiling. A lot of thought came to her like why did he act like this, why all this brooding or why was he so cold with everybody and the answer she came with is that he's a bloody idiot and doesn't know what he wants. She was about to drift off to sleep when a realization came: she forgot her potion essay and her poem. So, she got up and went to get it.
Harry was so annoyed, who does she thinks she is, he thought, my mother and what business does she have to know what I'm feeling , can't she see I want to be left alone. He spent minutes thinking on what he should do to be alone but his eyes went were Ginny was sitting earlier and saw her potion essay and a text " oh…she forgot her essay well lets see what she has written"
Harry looked at her essay and saw that almost nothing was written on the paper, keep it up Weasley and you'll get really far in potions, he thought sarcastically. His eyes drifted to the other paper that was beside the essay. He took it and started to read
" Let me cry for you, lonely heart" Harry read "And let me call your name"Who would cry for somebody and for who she would cry, wondered Harry
"Let me stay by your side, Let me learn what I can about you, Tell me what you think Let me hold you just, this once" wow, thought Harry, she must really care for this person.
"Don't hide your scars from me, I'm not afraid to see them; Please let my tears fall for you" this person looks really familiar, he thought. (it's you, dummy)
"Don't hide anymore I'm here now And even when you're scared Let me tell you its alright Let me be in your heart and memories, Eternally "I never knew how a poem could effect me that much, thought Harry, I really wonder who it is, it could be Dean …no…not him she recently broke up with him or maybe Neville…no…he's always telling her what troubling him or maybe Ron, Harry laugh at this one, yeah right as if she wanted to know what's wrong with him. Harry reviewed all the griffindor boys in his mind and only one was staying: him. it cant be me, he thought uncomfortably, I'm not hiding from her, I'm not but I told her to back off because she was getting annoying with all the questions well I had my reasons, but I'm not the person she's talking in this text I'm not…I'm not…I'm- bloody hell, it is me!
This realization struck Harry, hard. Peoples were trying to help him and how does he repay them by telling them to back off. Another realization came and Harry knew it was true:
He was an idiot.
He needed to apologize them and to Ginny, especially Ginny. Harry stayed frozen in the chair with the paper in his hands and he was about to stand up when he heard gasped in the stairs. Harry turned around to see Ginny, horrorstruck, in the steps. Harry didn't know what to say but something came to his head:
"I'm sorry" and he meant it.
To be continuedA/n: I hope you enjoy this first chapter and maybe the story was a little bad written because I'm French and I don't write in English so well but anyway stay tuned for next chapter and please read and review.