They arrived home and Clarisse got out of the car walked in the palace immediately.

"I want this place silent, No one and I mean no one is to disturb any of us. Do I make my self ever so clear?" Clarisse stood in front of the staff.

"Yes your Majesty." Came several voices

She turned on her heels and headed for Mia's suite Nick had tucked her into bed and was sitting by the bed on a small chair.

"Nicholas let me watch over for a moment, you should go get some sleep." Clarisse gently rested a hand on his shoulder.

"No I want to stay with her." He said brushing off her hand.

"Nicholas it wont help if you are drained of energy when she wakes up. You should rest and regain your strength, for the both of you."

"I suppose… suppose your right."

"Thank you, I will let you know the second she wakes."

Nick got up and walked across the room into the sitting room where he laid down on the couch. And closed his eyes.

Clarisse moved the chair he had been sitting in closer to the head of the bed and sat down next to Mia. Carefully she picked up her hand and clasped in hers. Will her tears not to fall.

"Mia it will be okay." She whispered.

Several hours passed and Mia was still sleeping, Clarisse had put her head down on the edge of the bed and drifted of into a dreamless sleep. When Mia began to stir.

"Grandma." She said hoarsely.

Clarisse's head shot up. "Mia your awake."

"I thought I had the worst dream and then when I woke up I realized it wasn't a dream after all." She began to cry again, Clarisse moved from the chair and sat down next to Mia pulling her into a hug.

"Shhh dear it will be okay."

"I lost the baby, my little girl, it hurts so much. How do can you move on?"

Clarisse was crying to. Letting the tears stream down her face.

"I know it does, I know it does. I'm here Mia I am here for you."

"I feel so lost I feel so empty. I let every one down, Nicholas, you, Genov…"

"No Mia there was nothing you could have done, nothing anyone could have done. It just wasn't meant to be. You are so strong Mia, you have not let anyone down."

"I'm sorry"

"There is nothing to be sorry for dear. Nothing at all, you did nothing wrong. Mia it wasn't meant to be. She was sick and it was better to have happened now than later. It would have only been worse later."

"I know Nick explained to me. But it still doesn't take away my pain."

"Nothing ever will."

Mia spent the next few days locked in her rooms she hardly ate, hardly slept. Nick and Clarisse had tried to get her out and up but she wouldn't. She simply stayed in bed. The tears had long stopped but the numbness, emptiness had set in. and she was depressed.

One afternoon while walking Maurice in the Garden Clarisse had sank down beneath a tree and sat with her head in her hands and a curious Maurice at her feet. 'Why, why did this have to happen to us. Why can't life just be fair to us? Just as we gain happiness something seems to snatch it up and life doesn't seem worth living. Why cant we just have the happiness we deserve, both us have given out lives to everyone else and she has so much more to give, why cant we have that happiness?"

"Because life isn't always fair."

Clarisse jumped and looked up immediately at whom had said it. To her shock it was "Mia"

"Can I sit down next to you?"

"Yes of course." Clarisse whipped away the tears from her cheeks. Mia put an arm around Clarisse and pulled her into a hug.

"Are you feeling any better?"

"No and I doubt I will ever feel any better about what happened, but I can't stay like that forever, I have people who depend on me."

"Oh Mia, it breaks my heart to know that you have suffered so much and to know you don't deserve it."

"We all need to find happiness and yes we do deserve a bit of it now and then. But as you said before it was not meant not be this time. I have come to understand that and that it is not the end of the world although that is the way it feels but I know that we can still have more children. Nick and I have talked about it and there are still plenty of children to come. You can still be a great grandma." Mia said smiling. And Clarisse laughed slightly.

"I have decided to get up and carry on in life. There are things to do."

"Moving on is hard isn't it?"

"Yeah, I cant imagine how it would be if I had actually lost her when I had had her for years. How did you move on after Grandpa Rupert died and then my dad so shortly after?"

"I don't know how exactly, but I do know who helped me, Joseph, honestly I would not have made it without him. I know that much."

"While things may be rough now and seem that they could not possibly be any worse there is always hope, hope for the future and what happiness it brings." Joe said timidly as he approached the two sitting beneath the tree.

"Hello love." Clarisse said

"I came to find you, lunch is ready and when I found Nicholas running about nervously looking for you Mia I knew exactly where you two might be."

"Well you found us." Mia said smiling.

"Oh it is so nice to see you smile again.' Joe said offering her a hand a pulling her up into a hug.

"Thanks Grandpa, I know this hasn't been easy either you just lost you mom."

"It's okay Mia she was ready. Besides she was so happy her life had been fulfilled and she knew that I was happy. Which it what she wanted." He turned to Clarisse and pulled her up too only holding her close to him. "She knew I found the woman of my heart and that I was happy."

"Lets go in, Mia Nick is probably going stir crazy. Also lets have some lunch."

"Mia seems to be getting some of her color back. And strength too." Joe whispered into Clarisse's ear.

"I know things are going to be okay. She is strong much stronger than I am."

"No she is strong because of you dear."

The three walked back up to that palace where Nick greeted Mia at the door happy to see her up and moving again. They headed off to lunch and things began to look up again.

Although still dampened by the lose, the royal family was beginning to move again. After a week lost in silence.

The palace staff noticed too that over the past few weeks the Queen had returned to her duties and that the palace was full of laughter and joy again. Still careful not to mention anything, for fear it might change the mood or cause the walls their Queen had put up to hold in her sadness would come crumbling down.

Mia returned to Parliament two weeks after the incident with Nick at her side. She strode into the room calm and cool taking in the shocked faces of those who where waiting for the Prince Consort to arrive.

"Your Majesty," The Prime Minister rose "Your Highness."

"Prime Minister thank you, you may begin." Mia said calmly as she sat down with Nick.

The meeting began and moved through the discussions swiftly but the stairs from everyone in the room became very unnerving for Mia. She shifted in her chair and took in a deep breath.

"Mia, are you all right. You look very pale?" Nick whispered a look of concern spreading across her face."

"Yes, I just feel a bit uncomfortable with everyone still starring at me."

Nick put a hand over hers and sqcouse it tight.

"It will be over soon." He whispered once again into her ear.

The Prime Minister stood and acknowledged the man standing across the room. "Thank you Lord Crawley. We now have the new proposition on the tax commissions for Mertz. We have a second on the motion. All in favor say Aye."

The room sounded with several members of Parliament agreeing to the new proposition.

"Good now any last remarks before this session is closed?" The Prime Minister asked. The room silent for a moment the Lord Palimore stood.

"Your Majesty, How are you feeling?" Mia was shocked to be addressed seeing as how she was there only to over see what was being done. She sat up a bit in her chair.

"Better, Thank you." Trying not to get to personal with the men in the room, she knew much better than that. They had given her grandmother a run too many times and she had her bouts with them as well.

"Can I ask why such an early return?"

Mia stood up still slightly weak but no the less she would not show that to them. Knowing them it would only be used against her.

"Yes you may, I felt that I had a duty to return to and I could not dwell any longer on what had happened."

"But is it wise to take on so much again so soon?"

Mia placed her hands in front of her and clasped the together. Her figure had all but returned to it original form it would have been impossible to tell she had been pregnant only three weeks ago.

"I am slowly taking on my duties again, I have Nicholas her at my side and of course my Grandmother at anytime I need her help."

"We only wish you to take care of your self and any future heir."

"Lord Palimore I can assure you that in the future things will be handled differently and that I will not lose another child. If that is your worry."

"I'm sorry your Majesty but we do worry about the future of the crown."

"Well thank you for your concern but I am only 23 and I have many years ahead of me to bring more than one heir to the throne."

"Thank you Lord Palimore, that brings this session to a close." The Prime Minister interjected preventing any further questioning. He brought his gravel down twice. And the members of parliament filed out. After Mia and Nicholas exited.

"Nicholas dear I'm headed to my office to work on some of those joint documents. If you need me that is where I will be."

"Okay, but like he said don't over do it not right now not yet let us take is easy for a while. You know there is so much I can do to help."

"I know Nick, there is a lot more that could be done if you where king too. I promise to not take on so much, but I can't just sit around all day. I can't sit and let what happened sit on my mind and drive me crazy."

"I love you Mia. I love you so much." He pulled her into a hug "We both need to work together to get through this. Let us help each other."

"Okay, I love you too. See you for lunch." Mia pulled away and kissed his cheek then headed off to her office.

Once seated behind her desk she ordered some tea and crackers, then picking up her pen she opened the files stacked on her desk and began reading. Her tea arrived shortly, quickly pouring her a cup she returned to her reading.

"You know you remind me of someone I know very well who at times I still catch doing that." Joe commented as he stood in the doorway.

"Oh hi grandpa, what can I do for you?"

"Well its more like what can I do for you Mia, I want to help you I don't think you should be doing to much."

"Oh I see, well unless you could read through the files in like five minutes and then tell me what the are stating in detail so all I had to do is sign them,"

"Well I'm not that fast of a reader"

"I thought so but nice try. How is Grandma?"

"She is busy, Mia are you sure there is nothing I can do?"

"No I just have a bit of light reading to do, well heavy reading to do but nothing to much."

"All right, I will report to your grandmother that you are doing fine."

"Okay and be sure to tell her that if she wants to know how Imp doing she doesn't need to send in spies."

"I don't know what your talking about dear." He said trying to hide a smile.

"First my ladies maid's and then the server who brought up the tea and now you too."

"Oh well I will tell her that she is not as sneaky as she used to be." He said almost laughing. As he left

Lily entered in shortly after. With a few more files in arm.

"Mia how are you feeling today? Is there anything I can do for you?"

"No, I'm just going over documents. Tell my grandmother it is a hopeless cause to keep send you all in here to ask me that same question.' Mia said still looking at her papers.

"Okay well the Prime Minister also wants to know if you have a few minutes of time?"

"When?"

"Now."

"All right send him in."

Lily exited the room and shortly after the Prime Minister entered the office.

"Your Majesty, thank you for seeing me on such shot notice. How are…."

"If you as me how I'm feeling I will explode everyone and the dog has asked me that blasted question, and the answer is, I'm still grieving or the fact that I was pregnant and then suddenly I was in pain and not three weeks later I am no longer going to be a mother in January, I will go nuts if I sit around any longer and so I have decided to get back up and work again." Mia cut him off

"I'm sorry. I did not mean to impose or bother you."

"No sorry your just the umpteenth person to ask me that. It was just slightly getting to me."

"Well I still apologies,"

"Thank you for stopping the questioning this morning."

"I felt it was not important nor was the situation going any where soon. They seem to think that you will not be able to bear an heir to their throne."

"Oh trust me there will be more, as my grandmother says it was just not meant to be this time."

"Well thank you for your time."

The Prime Minister left Mia to her work again, when Clarisse came strolling in.

"Hello Mia, How are you…."

"Grandma! I'm fine and if you or any other person asks me that question you will be in for it." Mia said trying to sound threatning.

"Oh Mia I'm just worried that's all."

"I know you are and you have a very good reason to be but you and everyone else, especially you should know that it doesn't help to sit around and dwell on what has happened."

"I know Mia but to put these walls as I did does not help either."

Mia sighed and looked down at her papers.

"It's no use dwelling on what happened, nothing can change what happened and we only have the future to look forward to."

AN: Okay I'm so glad I didn't make you all mad. (whew) but I that was part of the plot line. Things were all just to happy they needed a bit of a change but on to happier moments. Enjoy please review.