Chapter Four: Kagome's poem

I'm totally sorry that the chapters have been so short . . . It's just that all the materials I've got for this story are for later. And well . . . I don't like describing sex scenes. That's why in chapter two: Drunken teens make mistakes didn't have much or any description when Kagome passed out and well . . . you know the rest. So if I did like to . . . some of the chapters would have been a little longer, but that's besides the point . . . R&R.

Recap:

At long last Kagome's dream of her father's return was squashed along with her mother's hope. But afraid to let her two children feel the pain . . . she disguised it. On the days when his departure got to her, she'd bake. Cakes, cookies, and so on. Never again would she show sympathy for herself. For now the only things that mattered were her two kids and the roof over their heads. That was the only thing!

End of flashback

It was a classic story: Man falls in love with a woman, the woman says yes to his proposal. And everything seems well till problems arise. You know Money, relationship, and kid problems. A strong man knows how to take care of his family. But a lesser man . . . will be crushed by such a task. So before the wall of judgement crushes them . . . they run away from it all and forget all it ever happened. Move on and as most do . . . relive the experience, this was life. Only they didn't have the nerve to take on the challenges that God had for them.

"Mrs. Higurashi! I promise!" Kouga stated with more exhilaration. "I won't leave Kagome to die!" With his own command, he'd stuck his painful memory nerve.

Kouga, unlike many thought, did have a hard life. Many of the school knew he was heir to a million dollar estate, his father was a great business man. His company was almost on the top, located in San Diego; California, where Kouga had once lived. What many didn't know was that Kouga and his father hadn't spoken in 9 long, hard years.

Flashback

Mom's funeral:

"Daddy, why are they burying mommy!" A confused boy asked his head-hung father. The limpid, tepid tears coursing down his rosy cheek in deep steams. A jagging voice answered the bewildered boy slowly and increasingly soft. "Don't worry my boy, mommy's gonna be alright... she's in a better place now..." With the sentence said, the tears streamed. Creating large, vivid rivers of radiant tears. It was almost as if the baring tears had engraved their trails in his fathers torque face. "What do you mean!" That statement had only made this youngster even more baffled than before. "What do you mean..."

End of Flashback

He lived with his uncle. The reason... after the death of Kouga's mother when Kouga was 3, his father slowly slipped into depression. In Kouga's 7th year, he lost it! His mind finally snapped like a frail twig under the pressure of a man's guilt.. From that point Kouga joined his uncle in Japan. The exact location: Tokyo, Japan.

A youngster in a new school was shy at first, but when a certain white-haired boy approached him. Kouga's solemn and shy demeanor became the fierce and demanding outlook it was currently. As the years dragged on Kouga became knew as the rich-wolf. Rich because his uncle was a famous lawyer and wolf because of his last name. Well, not just because of that fact, another factor was the way he acted. The shy boy became the playboy. When a hot girl would pass him by we'd place both his index fingers in the side pockets of his mouth and as they called it then: 'Wolf Whistle'.

"What do you mean Kouga?" Kagome's distressed mother asked the pain-taunted Kouga. No answer. Kagome understood instantly, he'd told this before. "Mom, he means that he won't leave to die like his mother did..." She made Kouga take her in a affectionate embrace. Affectionately he fondled her back. "I'm sorry Kouga Ookami... I had no idea..." She looked away from the embracing two.

"No Mrs. Higurashi, don't be!" He released Kagome from his lascivious embrace, making her whimper. She felt 'naked' with out the sensation of his warmth bringing arms. "You didn't know... Almost no one knows... I only trust Kagome with such a secret." The whimpering Kagome threw herself in Kouga's open arms, whining for his touch. "Kagome?" He was surprised by her intrusive hug. "Kouga don't leave me!" He felt the tepid liquid tears stain his clothed chest. "Now where is all this coming from..." She led him to the courtyard as he spoke. Loose strands of her raven locks wisped around her in the icy breeze. Winter was approaching.

In a patch where emerald grass shot up between rocks, a blade sat. A piece of paper tied to blade danced in the wild wind. "I have something to confess..." She said grimly, the depiction of distraint in her features. He watched her as she picked out the bladed and the included paper. Resentfully she handed him the rugged, aged daft paper. His eyes scanned the paper, reading every word.

Flashback

I look to you, your eyes are bare...

Why is our love not there?

Kagome looked to Inuyasha, his eyes were different. Something... was different...

For days on end I followed you...

Some Would call me your fool.

"Come on Kagome!" He grabbed her hand, tugging her along. A voice nagged at her. Kagome what are you doing! It asked. She blocked the negative thought out her mind.

I thought not. I thought you loved me and me alone.

Well now I know that's not true... and I was truly your fool.

I saw you with her. A conflict arose...

An ordinary day like any other, Kagome strolled by the public park. What she didn't know was that, this day wasn't to be like any other day in her existence. Him and her! An immense ire consumed her heart. She confronted him and her...

I felt that her heart need to be slashed

for her to feel the pain that I'd gain.

The immense anger that dwelled in Kagome's broken heart ragged and flicked strong with the choler of the flames of ire.

But then I realized that

it was you and not her who

crushed my heart.

Suddenly the ire towards Kikyo revolted and stuck Inuyasha. In her ira she realized her true anger was towards the one she saw almost a god. Her lover, her friend, and now her greatest torment.

I saw you laugh away, I guess

didn't know exactly what to say.

As Kagome continued to think ... Inuyasha laughed, he could say no more to injure her more. The mere sight of him with another was enough to send this girl away. And besides that, he didn't know what more to say.

You thought with a knife

I'd take my life.

With a blade

I'd play along in

your charade.

Inuyasha smiled joyfully at Kagome's pain. She ran home, in her hand she held a sharpened blade. She held it up to her neck, ready for the pain to rain over her body...

Yet, your wrong... I live on strong.

This is what Inuyasha wants, he want to have the satisfaction of your pain! She told herself, now with a new light, she lowered the death-bringing blade. She had to live on strongly . . . she just had to . . .

I look to you again, your eyes are bare . . .

Now I know why our love was never there!

She looked to him straight, straight into his arousing golden eyes again, now she knew what was different. He never really loved her. He never really did . . .

End of Flashback

"Inuyasha," Kouga said silently, breathing harshly as the words clouded his thoughts. "He's the one who did that to you, did he!" He asked, the noticeable ire in his voice rising.

"Kouga..." She tucked herself under his protective wing. "Yes... and unfortunately I can never forget..." The new tears formed around her toffee sphere "Younger lovers live without and die within in..." A middle aged man called to them. They jolted at this sighting.

Kouga stared deeply at this new comer. The man wore a loose white t-shirt, and partly baggy blue jeans. Brown eyes and a hair form that resembled Kagome's. Besides that his face seemed more like an older Souta, soft chin, high cheek bones and a somewhat broad forehead. "Who are you?" Kouga asked, releasing Kagome from his protection.

"Yes who are you!" Kagome took a stand against the strangely familiar man. Deep within her something revived, a once deeply imbedded memory. A name kept trying to resurrecting in her psyche, a distant voice calling out to her... calling but never reaching. A close but distant memory. "Come here Baby!" The enchanting voice called out to her. "Come here Kagome!"

Like heavens guiding light... it lead her... lead her somewhere? But where?

"..." The stranger seemed shocked Kagome's question. "What!" He yelled, leaning forward on his toes. "You don't remember me?" He leaned back to his original position.

Again the memory graced Kagome's mind. "Mommy, where is... going?" Again his name escaped her thoughts. "Where is... going?"His name was completely eclipsed in her memories. Why... was it so long ago that it escaped her... or did she just not want to remember it?

As much a she strived to answer it, she couldn't... every memory, every flashback... it only made her confusion that much more. "Kagome, don't you remember your own Father!" The pain-throbbing memories flashed before her instantly... this stranger was no stranger at all... This man was her departed father! Back in the Flesh! Whether she liked it or not...

Nice ending huh? Okay if you were listening to the dialog, you would know that Kagome's long departed father mentioned in ch.3: Morbid years of my mother has returned after eight years. What a surprise! Well not really... I was kinda straight on about his identity, only a little confusing dialog to make you think a little more about! And this is going to be more sex scenes in this story if you want more description just say so. I'm for the readers, if you guys aren't satisfied I'm not satisfied. So if you want more don't be afraid to ask for it, Kay? Kay! And unlike many writers I'm alright with flames! If you guys have a problem and you won't tell me, because you think that the review is gonna hurt my 'feelings' I won't be able to fix it now will it! SO FLAME ME IF YOU WANNA! See ya next chapter.