CHAPTER 6 – Disclosure

"Lana I have been lying to everyone for far too long now and it pains me to admit it. The lies that hurt the most were the ones I had to tell you; cause you were the one person I wanted to know the truth. But I always managed to reason my way out of telling you anything." Said Clark with obvious regret and sadness in his voice.

Lana ached for him, but she also knew that she had to let him get it all out.

Clark continued. "I mostly did it out of fear. Fear of my secret getting out, of how you'd react and of you getting hurt because of it. Now I have come to question whether it was worth it. I mean… I know I trust you with my life, which to me means that I can trust you with my secret, I know you are a wonderful person, so I hope your reaction to it won't be that bad." He said with a light, sad chuckle. "And it seemed that I only managed to push you away. I still fear for your safety though, but it seems that you were in danger because of me; of who I am and not whether or not you knew my secret." Clark paused for a while. "When I found you last week, I was so scared of losing you. And what made it even worse was that you wouldn't have known who I really was."

Clark paused again thoughtful. He shook his head sadly. "So many lies that I don't even know where to begin… Lana…I was there last week when that being tried to kill you. I saw it."

Lana smiled sympathetically. "I… I kind of knew that Clark. I saw you, or I thought I saw you, right before I blacked out."

Clark's eyes widened in surprise. "You knew about it? How come you never mentioned it before yesterday?"

"I just didn't want to pressure you Clark. I wanted for you to decide to tell me and when I saw that you weren't saying anything I asked you in the car yesterday." Said Lana a bit defensively.

Clark felt the sting of guilt again, upon the mention of his most recent of lies. "Do you remember the tornado?" asked Clark sheepishly.

Lana was confused with the sudden time jump to the past. "The tornado? Of course I remember it Clark." Then before Clark had a chance to say anything, realization hit Lana. "…I was right… wasn't I? You saved me that day."

Clark just kept his head hung low. "Lana… I have certain abilities… that are out of the ordinary, to say the least."

Lana remained silent and it was her turn now to wear a guilty face.

Clark looked at her curiously. "You… knew?" he asked in disbelief.

"Well… I wasn't absolutely certain, but Clark… it's hard to be around you and not notice that some of the things you manage to do or get out off, are quite… extraordinary…I mean… we are in Smallville after all, and with everything we've seen, it didn't seem so far fetched to think that you had special abilities." Said Lana going on the defensive again, before adding candidly and with a smile "…besides… I liked thinking I had my own personal Super hero."

Clark couldn't help but blush and smile at that comment. "So… you are… fine with it?"

Lana chuckled a bit. "Clark… why wouldn't I be fine with something like this? This is what you were afraid of?"

Clark's face took a troubled look once more. "Well… actually there's more… I wasn't born… here…"

Lana looked half freaked out and half curious. "Why do I get the feeling that by here you don't just mean Kansas?"

"The meteor shower that hit Smallville all those years ago, is when and how I got here." Said Clark.

Lana now was looking at him surprised and unsure. She didn't know how to react or what to say.

As Clark couldn't stand the silence he kept on talking. No point in going back now, he thought. "The meteors that hit Smallville that day, were the pieces of my home planet after it exploded. My birth parents, before my planet was destroyed, put me on a space ship and sent me here to Earth. So you could say I'm the last survivor of my people. That's when my parents found me in a field, next to my space ship, and well… you already know the rest." Said Clark offering a weak smile at Lana, who was now trying hard to take in everything she heard Clark say.

Her mind was spinning and millions of thoughts kept hitting her constantly. She always knew deep down that Clark was special and different from everyone else she had ever met, but she didn't expect this! And she would be lying now if she said that she wasn't freaked out. The person who she loved, her best friend, the boy she grew up next to, was not even human. But then her mind went back to all the wonderful times she had with Clark, and to the way he always cared for everyone around him. She was wrong. He was more human than anyone she knew, he just wasn't from around here.

Lana fought with her human nature to fear the unknown, but as much as she tried to reason with it, she found out that it's very hard to accept something of that magnitude. Well not at once anyway.

Clark started feeling very uncomfortable with the way Lana reacted. He could very easily tell that she was freaked out, but he couldn't stand this any longer.

"Lana… please say something…" said Clark in a slow voice and taking a step towards her. It was then that Lana snapped out of it.

"Clark… I… I'm sorry… i… I don't know what to say right now… I'm stuck…" she said as she smiled awkwardly to Clark.

Clark felt his heart breaking. Of course she would be freaked out you idiot! How did you expect her to react! You just told her that the person she thought she knew all those years was an alien. His mind tried to reason with him but his heart ached.

Clark felt sorry for Lana as he saw her obviously feeling bad, for the way she reacted, but at the same time it was very obvious that she was still very freaked out and uncomfortable, so he decided to offer her a way out.

"Lana do you want me to leave? I can leave you the truck so you can return to the town." Said Clark softly.

Lana was frozen still. "Clark… I … I don't know…" she managed to mutter.

"It's ok Lana. You have to know though that I'm sorry for everything." And with tears in his eyes Clark super sped away from Lana and back to his house.

When Lana saw him disappear right before her eyes she called out to him. "CLARK!" but he was already gone, leaving her feeling a lot of conflicting emotions. Guilt, shock, sadness, fear but all with an unmistakable pinch of love.

To Be Continued