Duo's tale had been quieter then Quatre's he couldn't help but feel terrible he didn't like the anger that was threatening to overtake him and destroy everything around him. He knew he could do it, and he knew if Trowa had not been beside him that night the angel they were now discussing would not exist. It wasn't that Duo was truly powerful or anything, Trowa was pretty strong himself, but his emotions tangled so deeply into his vampire powers that they fester and grew rapidly something that had never been explored. Upon a vampire's change they are always told to lock their emotions away that they needed to have nothing but apathy now. People everywhere simply believed that is what allowed vampires to kill and survive, Duo believe it was a trick to keep vampires from reaching their true potential. Duo's rage had caused terrible things in the past, his sadness reeked havoc, his passion heightened his senses to an unbelievable pinnacle, his happiness brought forward such beautiful magic that one who think he was some sort of faerie or nymph. Trowa too experienced these things, he had never been has emotional as Duo but he had had his moments. The most recent ones had been mostly brought about by the blonde. Duo wondered briefly if angels had ever experienced such things, Quatre had explained to him that in a way they do, but then again he wasn't sure because he was an empath the world was different for those with such hearts has his.

Wufei wasn't sure of what to do. Everything he had believed was being shaken roughly and was only hanging on by a few small threads. In all honesty Wufei had never really like Milliardo (1) he had always seemed to hold himself higher then he should, and now he walked a dangerous line. The real question was did he trust the judgment of Yuy, he didn't know the small blonde like Heero did, he could not tell him he was lying, or being manipulated in any way. He decided to keep his mouth shut till Heero made a move, he was pretty sure he had pushed the green eyed man to the limit and the only thing holding him back where the two smaller boys that stood beside him.

"You shattered a golden sword?" Heero raised and eyebrow at this, this amazed him more then the fact that he had scarred Milliardo.

"Yes he did is that a problem?" Trowa snapped at the man before him. He knew from Duo's deposition that he was not comfortable the direction things were going in.

Heero's eyes flashed with anger but he kept the emtions in check. "I want to have the right facts. That sword that Milliardo had was not some simple steal blade that could easily break. That was the sword of a very high ranking warrior angel. One that is excruciatingly hard to earn."

"Heero, Trowa, would you both just stop it." Quatre's calm voice rang through the tension easing it back.

"Sorry." They both muttered and gave each other one final glare before looking elsewhere.

"Duo, would it be possible to stay here for the night? I think it would be best for us all, especially since I think we all need a rest." Quatre turned to his friend.

"Yes, there are some bedrooms this way that weren't burned." Duo's voice was strained as he turned and led the way to the said rooms.

The others quietly followed him and Duo sorted them all out into spaces according to who would get along with who the best. Trowa and Quatre went off by themselves, Wufei and Heero shared another room, while Duo wandered off alone. He needed a break from all the chaos that was surrounding him. I must be cursed was all that played through his black mind.

What he didn't know was that he wasn't alone in his self hurt. Heero was pondering the same theory, was he cursed. During his life on earth Heero had been a quiet and lonely boy. The boy could not remember his parents at all he had been so young when they died, and had found nothing about them when he became an angel. Lucky Heero was okay with this in it meant that they were not in hell, the possibilities were they stuck in purgatory, or still alive, both of which would be found in records Heero did not have access too. Growing up he had lived an unstable live following an assassin around the earth, Odin. Odin was the only one Heero had felt truly attached to on earth. The man was kind to him and raised him to become just about anything other then he himself was. Painfully Odin was taken from Heero after roughly ten years. Heero had spent the rest of his childhood being shipped from foster home, group home, and other such faculties and then back again. It appeared that no one really wanted the stonic (2) boy. Around the age of eighteen Heero started to fear what would happen to him as he legally became an adult and no longer part of the system, he had gotten involved with the daughter of a very wealthy man so he turned to her for help. Under the impression that he had only wanted her money all along she claimed he raped her, and Heero was set to be tried as an adult for the crime, being she was only seventeen the sentence would be worse. Heero snuck out to see her in hopes of fixing things, and hoping justice would be served. She paniced upon seeing him and summoned a body guard. Heero arrived at the hospital with two gunshot wounds to the lower abdomen, and didn't make it through the night.

Wufei lied in his temporary bed thinking very similar thoughts. He had spent his whole life studying to become a scholar, which he was greatly looking forward too. At fourteen he was faced with the fact that he had to get married and not only that but to a girl he truly knew nothing about. He had been miserable about the idea. The girl Meirian, wanted nothing more then to be a real warrior, which she was forbidden due to her gender. The two at first didn't get along at all; they're ways and beliefs clashed terribly. Then about a couple months after their marriage they had finally calmed down and were finding ways to enjoy each others company. That's when everything went terrible wrong. There city was attacked by a terrible gang that had been plaguing the adjacent territories. Meirian who always felt she had something to prove was one of the first to rush into the massacre. In the end Wufei's clan had in fact won, if you could call it such, but many lives were lost. At the time Wufei had gone away for schooling, upon his return he learned of everything that had past, including how valiantly Meirian had protected their home and his garden from being burned. He was whispered words of her courageousness and what an honorable warrior she would have been if she had been a boy. No one had to tell him, he knew they would never speak so honorably of a woman, she had been killed in the battle and Wufei had been miles away and only arrived in time for her last breath. He then gave up his studies and dedicated his time to tracking down and serving justice to those who had taken her live. When he was killed in battle, he met her again in heaven but she was lost to him. He could never really be near her, she too had joined the ranks of the empaths, something Wufei thought to be an almost laughable, but honorable place for the woman.

Quatre layed awake in his given bed, wondering of all the things that had transpired since his arrival. He feared he had brought great suffering on good people, all his good intentions may have only brought Milliardo's plan into action sooner. Quatre's life unlike the others had been that of a spoiled brat who had whatever he wanted, whenever he wanted and he held no concerns for others. Until the day he met Rashid who showed him that there was more to life then where one came from. Quatre later learned the truth and that his mother who he had never knew had died in childbirth and his father never had the heart to tell him. Quatre's life spun so far away from what it had been that he could barely see the past anymore. Quatre's death had been a painful one. He had been killed by men trying to rob one of his many sisters. He had stood up to protect her fearing the worst. He had succeeded in distracting the attacker long enough for his sister to go for help but he had not been able to escape several sever wounds that lead to his death.

Trowa's life had been one of grief and pain. At a young age he was separated from his family and survived on the streets working for a gang that boasted to be vigil-antis and not crooks. The group was betrayed and arrested except for Trowa who had been spared by the traitor. He wondered on his own for a while until he caught the eye of a violet eyed boy. Duo had been drawn to him, and because of this, not that Duo would ever know it, Draser who had changed Duo sought Trowa out and 'added him' to his 'collection' of lost and doomed souls. Trowa too was drawn to Duo and the two escaped, Draser. They separated for about half a year until Draser caught up with Duo. That day had been hell on earth for the boys. Draser was now dead along with the Maxwell Church.

Duo couldn't stand staying in the bedroom which had once been his. He wondered back to the front of the church and sat down at what had been a beautiful pipe organ. He toyed with the mangled ivory that had once sang beautifully, but now screamed in torment. He fingers dance down their backs causing them to let loose a painful rendition of Regret, which had once been played by the famous Japanese artist Gackt.

Heero watched Duo silently from the doorway. It was obvious even to someone without empathic powers that the boy the poster boy for pain and anguish. The organ which he played was letting lose lament that was a sad and beautiful song Heero had heard several times before. Heero had always been fascinated with the band Malice Mizer and the stuff he loved most was with Gackt. Decided he simply couldn't just watch the boy anymore he quietly approached him . Coming up from behind he gently sat on the distorted bench next to the boy.

Duo didn't flinch he just simple stopped. The music died away as the last note left the large metal pipes that looked like water that had just stopped moving.

"You didn't have to stop." Heero said gently.

Duo shrugged and removed his fingers from the keys. "It doesn't matter."

"It's a beautiful song, I kind of liked the sound the organ made."

"It sounds terrible. Like a dying animal."

"It's fitting for that song don't you think."

"I suppose."

"I didn't intend anything mean when I asked about the sword it's just hard to believe that you could shatter that."

"Trowa could have done it."

"So that makes two of you so far, that's still pretty unbelievable."

"I was angry."

"Oh and that just changes everything right?" Heero smiled hoping Duo would maybe loosen up a little.

Duo looked at him, unsure, "It does in a way. I lose control when I'm angry. It's dangerous."

"I didn't mean-"

"I know. I did this you know." Duo looked down at his hands that were now slightly blackened from the charred building.

"Did what?" Heero was confused he knew that Duo attacked Milliardo so it would make no sense for him to speak like that.

"The church, I burned it, I killed everyone."

"I sure it wasn't really your fault. I mean." What did he mean.

"I mean I intentionally burned this church with everyone trapped here in this very room. I killed them."

Heero was baffled. He had never expected that from Duo, he knew there were painful memories here when they arrived and he was in tears, but he killed them? "Why?"

"The guy who made me a vampire he was furious when me and Trowa ran. He tracked me down first. He came here and he started the transformation, all that was left was time. Within twenty four hours they would all have become vampires. Some of them were barely talking, and they were to become vampires? I paniced I had no idea of what do to, what could I do? I was furious, and upset, I couldn't stop crying. I was terrified. She told me that I needed to free them I was the only one who could. It started before I even knew what was happening, the fire started in the back, and she said it was okay. Trowa appeared from somewhere I don't know where he was hurt pretty badly. I lost control everything just ripped out of me and before I knew it there was fire everywhere. Father Maxwell told me that he would wait for me on the other side." Tears were streaming down his face now. The terrible memories were out now they had been voiced in a moment of weakness, they could never go back.

"They wanted to die."

Duo looked at Heero unsure of just what he was getting at. He looked so serious; Duo had killed the ones he loved to offer them freedom. They would have suffered for all eternity, but did that make it right? In Heero's mind it didn't matter, there was no way to undo what had been done. Duo had a long and troublesome future before him; he needed to be free of this nightmare.

"They wanted to die; it was their only way out. There's nothing you can do now. Now you have to worry about yourself, Trowa, Quatre, what's happening here and now. You can't stay with them; you can't stay in this mansion of darkness."

Duo collapsed into Heero side, Heero almost didn't catch him he moved so fast, and they stayed there with Duo weeping into Heero and Heero hold him tightly, almost afraid to let go.

Holy… that's like by far the longest chapter yet. I think I might have the whole flashback thing out of my system now. Though I'm not sure, so be prepare. Anyway 1: I remember the second I . 2: stonic, I don't know if that is spelt right my computer says no but it doesn't give me an alternative that's right it gives me all weird words have of which don't even start with s. Then you have no idea how long it took me to decide that Wufei's clan was attacked by just some gang, I was like ninjas, samurai, ronin, hmmmmm, no. it was just bad. Also I couldn't help but throw in the malice mizer-ness I just love the video of gackt and kami playing regret together. 3Kami 3Gackt 3. (not as much as the gackt vanilla live though - (it's winking really) Oh and I just wanted to say that as for Milliardo being the bad guy I don't know where that came from really. When I first came up with the idea I didn't even have a bad guy, I hadn't really planned conflict, it was just gonna be more of a romance thingy, but I need action, and Milliardo was just kind of set up in a way that he just became bad. I don't know. I really have no clue what's coming, well I know that I want duo and heero to end up together, and trowa and quarte to be together, and………:shrug: anyway please review I hope you enjoyed.

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