Buffy came down the stairs slowly he face showing a look of concern. It was really happening… it really was and she couldn't stop it so she should just give in to the feeling she'd been feeling for so long. Allow herself to be in the darkness with spike? Did she even want that? Buffy glanced up at and met Spikes concerned eyes and new she did. New she always did. Forever. She sat down next to spike and leaned against him needing support. "hold me" she whispered. Always he replied and lay down with her in his arms. Whatever she was thinking about could wait until morning.

Buffy dreamt, she was at the bronze. Spike was behind her moving his hands over her "stop" she whispered.

"Make me" Spike replied making Buffy shiver in anticipation. "You belong in the dark, with me" she heard him say over the music. She nodded and gave into the feeling of him surrounding her, inside of her. "Always" she whispered. Slowly she woke and realized that she was with Spike again. Than remembered what happened last night. "Interesting dream love" Spike asked eyebrows raised, he was expecting her to blush and avoid the question. So he was shocked when she turned around to face him "mm hmm very interesting… nice" She mumbled as she nuzzled into his chest. "mmmm I don't want to wake up, to much to think about" she groaned than looked up into Spike's face. His piercing blue eyes penetrated right through her… it would have helped if his piercing blue eyes weren't full of shock. She sat up abruptly brushing against spike as she sat up. "Spike I'm going to ask you to do something… you have to promise me that whatever I ask… no matter how terrible. You have to say you'll do it." Buffy said trying not to think to hard on what she was talking about. "Sorry pet I don't play by those rules" spike said sitting up and getting the feeling he was about to find out what happened last night. "Will you though.. for me?" looking him in the eyes with a pleading look. "You'll save the world"

"I could be a champion" Spike slurred sarcastically. Picking up his hand Buffy laid it on her chest and placed her hand on his cheek. "You already are"

Spike smiled warmly at her wishing that they could be like this always. He new it was never going to happen, he wasn't the man for her she deserved better. But as long as she wanted him he would stick around and love her for as long as she would allow. "Alright" he said in a serious tone frowning slightly "whatever you need"

"Spike I…" she couldn't help it tears started coming down her cheeks… this wasn't like her she was strong. And she would be, as soon as Spike was by her side and helping her through this. She just needed to tell him what he needed to do… "Shhh love come ere" Spike spoke softly gathering her into his arms. This wasn't like she was back at the deserted house, she hadn't given up, she was just sad. But he could feel excitement in her as well, he could feel her heart pulsing faster than usual. "Giles and Willow.. they found a way to stop the first… we can do it but not for a week. So it's all good and stuff." Buffy murmured dug into Spikes chest. "well that's hardly anything to cry about now is it?" Spike spoke softly encouragingly wiping the tears from her face. "It'll all be over then wont it?"

"Yes it really will" Buffy said sounding more confident and gaining her usual composure. She suddenly realized how close their faces were. His penetrating blue eyes boring into her making her breath hitch. Slowly tentatively he reached out and stoked down her cheek softly, slowly. Buffy leant into it and her heart leapt as he drew her lips closer to his own. He paused not three centimeters from her lips. "Buffy are you…" Spike asked painfully aware of all the places their bodies touched making him burn for her. "I'm more than sure, I'm sick of doing what's right spike… I need you, I wa…" Buffy was cut of and spike kissed her passionately. Buffy moaned into his mouth and deepened the kiss completely surrendering her self to him. She felt him run his tongue along her lips and she opened her mouth further engaging in a dance they new well, only this time it was different they were different. Spike lifted her onto his lap without breaking contact and ran his callused hands under her shirt making her shiver and moan into his mouth. He slowed down and kissed her more gently moving his mouth slowly over hers pausing and allowing her to catch her breath. "God Buffy" he moaned hoarsely "I've missed this love"

"You're not the only one" Buffy replied stroking his cheek having a sudden annoying thought she stopped drawing away from his slightly "we should stop the potentials will be down soon… training" Buffy said her breath coming quickly and she absent mindedly tugged at his shirt. "Mmmm, we should definitely stop" spike ground out as he felt buffy's hands move over his chest working their way down lower. "right here.. we go with the stopping and the leaving and… ugh" Buffy thrust her chest into Spike's hand as he moved a thumb over her lacy bra touching her in all the wrong places. In an instant her shirt and his was of and his lips smashed into hers. Buffy's hands flew to his belt and Spike ran his hands down her back working her way down to her jeans. "Want you" Buffy mewled, Spike smirked and kissed fiercely down her neck and listened to her moan as he traced a line up her neck with his tongue and nibbled on her ear slightly.. "Sp…ike" she moaned and clung him closer to her.

"a hem" a voice sounded very near

Spike and Buffy sprung apart and looked towards the stairs where about 5 potentials were coming down to train. Most had their mouths open and were watching in horror or shock. Kennedy was at the front of the group tapping her foot impatiently. "Guys we were kinder hopping to train.."

"Oh yeah right" Spike voiced first trying to clear his head "go for it we'll just umm…yeah" he looked over at Buffy where she was putting her shirt back on hurriedly a bright shade of red. She saw him watching her and smiled meekly. Spike relaxed at least she only regretted being caught by a bunch of teenagers and not actually regretted being with him.

"Thanks" Kennedy said rolling her eyes and turned to bark orders at the younger potentials.

"Come on Spike" Buffy said smiling a little sheepishly and heading for the stairs.

"Hey, Buff morning" Xander greeted her with his usual cheeriness only it sounded slightly faked and he didn't make any wise cracks at Spike. "You know don't you?" Buffy said glaring at Xander "sure lets tell the whole world I'm gonna die I mean why not! I should shout it from the rooftops in a high pitched vice!" Buffy shouted she was angry and upset and had been taken away from her blissfully none thinking moment with Spike.

"What.. Dying Buffy… What?" Spike said reaching for her arm.

Buffy ignored him and continued to grill Xander " how long have you known?"

"Willow told me a couple of days ago" Xander said shakily, looking on the verge of tears and staring into his bowl of cereal with apparent great interest.

"A couple of days! I only got told last night.. you think I would have been the first one to be told… I mean I am the one that has to become the living dead for the rest of.. Like forever!" Buffy felt tears coming and she didn't want anybody to see her like it again. She went to move but spike grabbed her arm. "Buffy what's going on?" he asked his voice as shaky as hers. Buffy pushed past him and fled up stairs to her room and literally throwing out any potentials that were still in there and locking the door.

"I think we have some explaining to do" Giles said coming in during the middle of the commotion.

"Your bloody right you do" Spike hissed.