A/N: this feels weird. I don't believe I haven't written in this long. Oh well I don't think anyone will actually read this now but that fine I want it finished. Yay! Enjoy, A Snape song.

The night was dark and calming, but to Severus Snape it meant another time to patrol the school. Another night of reminiscing his horrid past. So for this particular night his thought returned to his school days, back when he was the one picked on. His hatred for James will never cease, especially when the only person he ever thought he could love was taken by James.

Walked away, heard them say
"Poison hearts will never change, walk away again"

He remembered Lilly's scent her smile and most of all he eyes. Those bright green eyes were hard not to notice, but Snape could never be himself. He was a half-blood pretending to be a pure-blood. In order to stay liked by the only 'friends' he had, she had to be a filthy Mudblood

Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within

As he walked the cold hallways he saw the shadows of his past come out. He watched his younger self walk through the hallways hoping not to be seen by James and his gang. He kept his eyes down on the ground and breathed slowly in and out. Today was his luck and no one noticed his passing.


It's hard to notice gleaming from the sky
When you're staring at the cracks
It's hard to notice what is passing by with eyes lowered

The teenaged Snape looked back at Lily as she laughed with her friends and the shadows of memories for Snape vanished. He continued his patrol and found himself near the front entrance and he watched another memory come to life.

James showing off to Lily once again, his favorite way to do that, dangle young Severus in a humiliating matter. Lily would natural turn away in disgust and show she did not care for his bullying. He watched himself be dropped and he remembered the pain. Snape closed his eyes and shook away the memory.


You... walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change, walk away again"

Following once more his normal beat he found himself at the bottom of the north tower. He climbed the steps slowly with his fist clenched. Echoes of Lily in his head, "Poison heart will never change." He repeated to himself.

He remembered it was here at the top of the tower. The time he felt he wanted to tell Lily his feelings. He would pull her aside pretending to ask her something about transfiguration, when she came up the stairs with James holding each others hands. He felt it hit him like an arrow and all he could do was stare. His heart cracked and broke into millions of broken shards.

All the cracks, they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me
All the cracks, they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me, and I fell apart

Snape saw the shadowed teen of himself leave soon after down the stairs. Snape heard the ancient echoes of their jeers and he knew as he saw himself begin to cry, that only Lily saw these tears. But there was nothing she could have down to stop James from saying that line again.

As I... walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change"

He watched his past fade as he followed his shadow back down the steps. Once more he felt the icy terror that was love and he shed only on more single tear.

Walked away again
Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within