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"Bollocks! This is bloody ridiculous! There has to be another way! I wont do it, you cant make me." Spike was looking at Giles and Willow like they were the First.

"Then we will simply get Angel to" Giles said calmly trying not to infuriate the vampire further but failing miserably.

"Like bloody hell you will!" Spike practically snarled at the watcher. "You did it Red" Spike said turning in Willows direction. You fix it. Buffy has had enough pain and death in her life as it is. She doesn't need her life ended in.. in that way. She deserves better! A lot better. I mean have you all gone bleeding mad!"

"She will keep her soul Spike, and I swear to you there is no other way" Giles spoke cleaning his glasses franticly. As willow backed into a corner and stared at the floor.

"There is and ill find it" Spike said defiantly and swiftly grabbed one of the blanket from one of the potentials bed in the lounge and left slamming the door behind him.

Well that went well. Xander muttered staring at his cereal. He couldn't bring himself to eat it.

Buffy lay on her bed curled up and tried to block the arguing happening down stairs. She sobbed quietly it all seemed real now, to real. "Oh, god Dawn.." Buffy whispered to herself. After a minute to compose her self she rose from the bed and headed towards Dawns room. She noticed some potentials camped outside and gave them a questioning glance.

"She wont let us in… I think she might be mad.. or something" one of the girls stated. Buffy just nodded and knocked softly on the door. "Go away, please Giles I'm fine I just want to be left alone for a while." Dawns voice emitted from her room. "It's me Dawnie, can I come in?" Buffy spoke close to the door.

"Buffy?" she heard a scrambling then herd the door unlock. Buffy entered to see a red blotchy faced Dawn. At the site of Buffy she burst into tears again. "Come here" Buffy whispered and started to cry as well while giving her a fierce hug. They sat on the bed for a while holding each other and crying softly. Before Buffy had an idea. "Dawnie come on were going out" Buffy grabbed her sisters hand and headed for the backyard.

Buffy smiled sadly as the sun hit her face, then frowned as she saw all the potentials training. "Get" she said simply and glared at them. Mumbling they left Buffy and Dawn alone.

"Buffy what are we doing?" Dawn asked her voice shaking.

"We miss Summers are going to sun bake" Buffy said determinedly and laid herself down on the dewy grass. And motioned for Dawn to do the same. As Dawn laid down she clasped her hand in her own. "I Promise you dawn I will always be there for you. You know that right? Just because I wont be… ill still be here" Buffy said feeling the tears coming again.

"I know Buffy" Dawn said sadly "Its just… it'll be different and… ill get older than you… and. Im sorry I'm probably not helping am I?"

"Com ere Dawny" Buffy said and wrapped her arms around her sister while laying on the ground. "I wish there was another way.. you know that don't you?" Dawn nodded and closed her eyes committing this talk and this day to memory.

Spike arrived back at the Summers home 6 hours latter and it was already dark. He walked through the front door and headed strait to the backyard. He hadn't found any other solutions. All of his contacts had said the same thing. Seeing Buffy in the backyard with her sister made him calm down slightly. "How long have you guys been out here?" Spike asked smiling slightly.

"All day" replied Buffy stretching out her hand reaching for Spike "come look at the stars with us" Spike obliged and laid down next to Buffy. Spike wasn't all that surprised when both the Summers girls laid their heads on his chest. "How are my two favorite birds today?" He asked trying to stay in a somewhat happy mood. "relaxed" they both reapplied in unison. "I heard you went and.." Buffy started to ask but was cut of by Spike. "Yeah I did" Spike reapplied shortly

"And did you?" Buffy asked a spring of hope welling in her gut. But Spike's body had gone suddenly tight and she new the answer before she heard it.

"I'm sorry Buffy" Spike sighed.

Buffy's stomach fell, that meant there was only one thing to do except it. She grasped on to Spikes hand to let him know it was ok. After about an hour Dawn got up and kissed Buffy and Spike on the cheek. "I'll leave you guys to talk for a while." Dawn said and headed towards the house. Buffy smiled and spike said goodnight as she walked away. Buffy re adjusted the space between them so she took up the room where down had been as well. "Will you" Buffy asked.

"Yes" Spike said simply knowing what she was talking about. They laid in silence for a time before Buffy sat up and pulled Spike with her. "Will you bite me spike?" Buffy asked shakily

"What? Now?" Spike asked taken aback

"I..I don't want you to turn me… just a taste." Buffy whispered barely audible. But she new Spike would hear.

Spike pulled Buffy into an embrace "your scared aren't you love?"

"Yes Buffy admitted and faced him. Please I need you to" Buffy spoke still whispering and avoiding his eyes. The fact that Buffy would even admit she was scared meant so much to Spike let alone the fact she was going to allow his do this. Spike placed his fingers underneath her chin and brought her up to eye level. "I love you" he whispered making Buffy shiver before gently bringing his lips to hers. Buffy moaned and allowed herself to be swept away by the feeling of Spike lips. She ran her tongue along his bottom lip asking for entrance. He gave it and the kiss deepened as their tongues danced around each other. The kiss was growing more passionate by the second and Buffy was drowning. She went to take of his shirt but Spike stopped her hesitantly. "Not now Pet" He whispered, kissing her hard once again making her moan into him. he moved away from her mouth and kissed along her jaw line and down her neck. Making her shiver and gasp with the pleasure and the anticipation. Spike listened to her heart beet accelerate and he kissed one spot on her neck softly then paused his lips hovering over her neck. He wanted to… his demon did. But he didn't.

"Be strong for me baby" Buffy whispered in his ear.

"I cant, he whispered I'm sorry" he went to pull away but Buffy pulled his back and kissed him gently moving her lips over his own. Suddenly Spike realizes what she was up to and tried to pull away again. "No Buffy." He said simply.

"Yes" Buffy said stubbornly and dragged his back forcing his mouth open with her own. She slipped her tongue between his teeth.

Spike felt the blood land on his tongue and moaned into her mouth. She had bitten her tongue and he was tasting Slayer blood for the first time in over a century. He grasped her shoulders bruisingly, and hauled her of her feet and pushed her against the tree in the backyard. He pushed his body into hers roughly. He vamped out and cut her lip on his incisors. Now they were both gasping as more blood emptied itself on to Spikes tongue.

He pulled away from her his golden eyes bring into hers. Their foreheads pressed together. They both shook visibly. "Buffy" Spike growled trying to stop himself from something he now new had to happen.

"Its ok" Buffy said soothingly bringing his head down to her neck. She moved her arms over his shoulders slipping of his leather duster, letting it fall to the ground. "Better she sighed", than gasped as she felt his teeth on her neck and his hand on her cheek. She lent into his hand further exposing her neck to him. She tensed up waiting for him to bite.

"Relax love" Spike said soothingly brushing her cheek with his hands. Buffy moaned quietly and let his voice calm her down. She gasped as he slid her fangs into her neck. The pain was sharp, she wanted it and she was going to let herself go. With that thought ringing in her mind she pulled on Spike's shirt trying to draw him closer. Spike placed his hands on hers stilling them, and calming her slightly.

Spike could feel her trembling beneath him. Her blood was slowly ever so slowly running down his throat and he could resist anymore. He pulled on her blood slowly and moaned as her life-force slipped into his throat. He could feel her giving herself completely to him. It was ecstasy and he didn't know if he was going to be able to pull away. He growled against her throat possessively as Buffy let out a throaty moan.

"They're probably having sex" Anya said matter of factly staring out of the window into the dark. She could see two dark figures against the tree but couldn't make out much more than that.

"Anya!" Xander practically squeaked "I'm sure they are just talking" Xander said glancing in dawns direction.

"Well maybe…" Anya continued looking out the window"… if you talk while humping each other against a tree"

"What" Xander said coming up to the window.

"See" Anya pointed. But before he could get a clear view the blinds shut abruptly.

"I really fail to see how its any of our business" Giles said cleaning his glasses.

"Right" Xander and Anya said and sat down again.

"Do you think they'll be coming in soon?" Down asked growing worried

"We just have to be patient give them time" Giles said softly

"Yes give them time to have orgasms" Anya spoke to the ground in a grumbling voice.

"They aren't Arn!" Xander said again "I'm sure they are just talking!"

"Uhhn" Buffy gasped as Spike drew more blood from her. The work was falling away all she could sense was spike and the way he was making her feel. Her hips ground against his almost as a second thought and her hands tried to pull him impossibly closer. "Spike" she whispered into his neck as he slowed down and slowly pulled the blood from her again. She could feel him begin to retract his teeth "No… she whispered to him pulling his head back down. "Don't stop yet." Spike didn't hesitate and bit down again biting harder this time and sucking on her blood hungrily. "Mmmm" Buffy sighed and relaxed against him as the feeling overtook her the pleasure was swamping her body and her arms grew slack around him. She couldn't move.

Spike smiled to himself as he made himself draw his fangs out. He licked his marks slowly smirking as she gasped. He kissed her neck and he felt his face morph. He kissed he softly on the lips and held her until she recovered.

Buffy leant against spike totally relaxed in his arms. "That was different" she mused sounding slightly muffled. She listened as spike chuckled softly. "What are we going to tell the scoobs?" Spike asked staring at her blood stained top and marks in her neck.

"Nothing" Buffy replied drunkenly "I don't care what they think… she sighed and snuggled against Spike further. "They be silly peoples anyho, and Dawn will understand… I hope"

Spike smiled at the way she was acting, "She will love" Spike said releasing his hold on her slowly trying to make her stand by herself. "You right to walk" Spike asked sounding concerned.

"Right as rain" Buffy said drowsily running her hands over Spikes chest "Lets go"

Spike began to wipe the blood from her neck with a corner of his shirt. "No leave it" Buffy whispered arching her neck as he whipped it. "I wanna go for the big shock"

Spike grinned widely, she wanted to show of his bite marks. "You're perfect, you know that don't you?" Spike whispered grasping her hand and pulling her towards the back door.

Buffy smiled as she followed Spike inside the house. She wasn't scared anymore, Spike would look after her and she would beat anybody down who argued with her.

Giles, Xander, Anya, Willow, Kennedy, Dawn froze as they heard the front door open. They heard somebody giggling and then stop mid giggle. They heard a crash and a high pitched "whoops" than more giggling appeared from no where. "That sounds like…." Dawn started but stopped as Anya cut her of

"Buffy" Anya said staring with great interest into the kitchen. They heard a gasp and a small moan come from the kitchen "That doesn't sound like Buffy" Xander said standing up suddenly.

"Shhh love, come on" They heard from the kitchen and Xander paled and sat down quickly. "Sounds like fun" Anya said quietly

Spike brought Buffy inside than swung her around to face him. He went to her neck and moved his tongue along it in three slow stokes. Buffy moaned than giggled, she hadn't felt this happy in a long time. Spike smashed his lips into hers stifling the giggle and pushed her against the island in the kitchen. "Whoops" Buffy squeaked and giggled again. Spike grinned wickedly at her and sat her on top of the island. He kissed her hard and ran his hands under her top. "Oh" she whispered as he broke contact with her lips began to kiss her neck as run his hands over her bra. Buffy's nipples hardened in his hands and she grabbed at his duster pulling him closer. It was too much and she arched her head back and emitted a gasp and Spikes hands become harder and moaned loudly. "Shhh love" spike whispered against her skin sending shivers down her spine. He removed his hands and drew them down over her stomach pausing slightly at her jeans. He sighed softly and straightened her shirt. "Time to face them" He muttered indicating the other room. Buffy pouted and he laughed softly.