Everyone had met at Jason's house, even the newest rangers the ones who Tommy had put together. Kim talked to some people but staying there talking to all their friends, was hurting it didn't feel right that Trini wasn't there. So she quietly and quickly went into her room well not exactly her room but the room she was staying in. She sat on the bed and stared at her guitar writing was her escape whenever she was feeling something that she couldn't share with people she would write a song. Kicking off her shoes and picking up her guitar she started strumming on the strings. Humming along with the tune as she did so then she started singing words and soon she came up with a chorus.
And if you should you should ever leave me
I will crumble
that's just the way I am
I hope you never leave me
That is to say
I will Crumble
I will Crumble
"Wow that was beautiful."
Kim turned around and saw Kira standing in the doorway. And She smiled blushing. Unaware that someone was listening to her. Kim was never one to sing in front of people, the one time she did it, it was for Tommy, right after he lost his powers, and Zack sang with her so it wasn't like she was singing alone.
"Thanks, I didn't realize I had an Audience."
Kria smiled. "Yeah, I was in need of being away from the crowd for a while, so I came up hear and heard someone playing the guitar. I myself play and write songs."
"I do it less now, then I use to. It was hard to find time in-between my gymnastics practices. This really is the first time in about 2 years that I've picked it up."
Kira nodded and walked into the room, closing the door behind her "What was it like?"
Kim was a little confused. "What was what like?"
"Being the first ever pink ranger?"
Kim put down the guitar and turned around fully to look at Kira as she sat in a chair at the desk. She wanted to think about the answer knowing that no matter what she said she would have an affect on how Kira acted as a ranger. Thinking back to when she first became a ranger, she could remember all that she was feeling that day.
"You want me to say that it was easy and cool? Well it was cool, until the day when we wanted to tell someone about how we saved the world we couldn't"
"Yeah, Tommy put a lot of emphases on that one"
"And rightfully so being a Power Ranger comes with Great reasonability. I mean there is so much that you have to do. So many decisions you have to make and sometimes, they cost you someone's life. Or someone turns over to the dark side. I won't lie to you; I was in the beginning the weakest ranger there ever was. But then I had two of the best teachers in the world. Jason and the others started to teach me martial Arts, which I used along with my gymnastics, but when Tommy came to our side, Jason felt it necessary for me to continue my training, so that I could become better. Now I am thankful for it, and I can say that if the team hadn't pulled together, then I might not be sitting here. My first fights were Hideous, I was hiding behind Jason, I didn't know how to work my zord, I wasn't paying attention to the….well its kind of like the force in Star wars."
Both girls started to laugh and Kim continued. "But you know what I mean, it becomes an Instinct to know what to do, and I wasn't listening to it, I wasn't letting it guide me, and I knew this, but I was a spoiled little girl, my parents had divorced when I was 10 so my parents were trying to buy my love, if my mom bought me something, then my dad would top it. So being a ranger caused me to do work, and it was something that I didn't want to do. Jason sat me down with Trini, and talked to me, and made me realize that we were chosen, that Zordon chose us because he knew that we were the ones who could save earth."
"Did it ever feel like it was all too much for you? I mean you were only a teenager still in high school."
"as are you Kira and I will say in all honesty that there were times when I wanted to give up, when I wanted to hand in my coin and say "I cant do this its to hard." but I never did, because every time we saved the world, well, Angel Grove, it always seemed that every one appreciated it, it was something I enjoyed doing after a while. Something I felt that I needed to do."
"But you were chosen right, like the powers didn't choose you."
"Well in a way we were chosen, but the powers and colors we had gotten chose us, I could've been the yellow ranger and Trini could've been the pink ranger, we were chosen for our powers. Epically when we had to go to Phaedos to save Zordon and the world Ivan Ooze was our greatest enemy; we had never faced anything like that. We all wished for Rita or Zedd during that ordeal. But we went to Phaedos and met Dulcea she gave us our Ninjetti powers, and we Became the ninja power rangers, and that is when the powers and the Spirit animals chose us. And they guided us…I know nothing about your powers, do you have like this little voice inside your hear that guides you?"
Kira nodded "there are times, when I hear something telling me, how to use my zord, or whatever other thing that we have, anything it guides me, it was scary at first but it's comforting now."
"Makes life a lot easier being a ranger huh?"
Both girls turned and look at the person standing in the doorway. Neither one had heard him open the door, nor how long that he was standing there.
"Hey,Dr. O I didn't even notice you standing there."
"Kira, I am very stealthy if you didn't know you two bonding."
"Kim here was just telling me all your deep dark secretes."
"Was she now? Kira, I hate to break up your bonding time, but Kim and I need to talk she'll be here for a while, so you two can bond some more."
Kira looked at and Kim and she just nodded agreeing with Tommy. Knowing that it was kind of now or never to get everything out. To decide weather or not in the end Tommy would hate her.
But he needed to know and she needed to tell him. Kira closed the door behind her, and Tommy took her place in the chair. Kim noticed how much she liked his new hair cut, not that she didn't like the long hair, but this made him look older, and made him seem much more mature. She smiled remembering what he looked like the first time she saw him. He actually had a mullet, but those were the style back then, even Jason had one.
He looked at her, knowing she had been through something, most likely something major and life changing after all she left him for another man. Tommy had never gotten over her, not really. Him and Kat had tried a relationship but it didn't work out. Kat knew that he wasn't over Kim, and that he probably never would be. It wasn't fair to Kat, she loved him with all her heart, and he loved her, just not the same way. After that, he never had the desire to date anyone else. He knew that He loved Kim. He also knew that she didn't love him. Or he thought he knew.
"Tommy, Look, I'm sure that you don't want to talk about it now, but I need to tell you why I wrote the letter and what was really going on with me. And I need to tell you without any interruptions. When I am done you can ask all the questions you want. Okay?"
Tommy only nodded, knowing all to well that she would have to get it all out at once, instead of him stopping her and asking all these questions. It would give her time to think about it and back out and stop talking about it and truth be told he wanted to know…no wait he needed to know.
"Well about a month into training, I had every thing balanced talking to you, keeping in touch with all my friends, and I even started making some new friends at the compound. But my coach kept telling me I needed to cut back on what I was eating that I wasn't skinny enough. So I started to eat less, and hoped that I'd lose weight. I did, but not enough and I couldn't seem to lose it fast enough for him. So I started to Throw up after everything I ate and that seemed to work well, so for the entire time I was there I wouldn't eat, or if I had to, I would throw it up. By the time Jason found me, I had been doing this for well over five months, I wrote you the letter because I thought you dissevered more than what I had become. I was someone that I didn't even know and I was sure that you wouldn't have been able to love me with the way that I was."
Kim paused taking time to let what she had just said sink in. knowing that he would ask all the hard questions, she wanted to answer them before he could ask them, it made things easier.
"I made up the other guy. I knew that if you thought there was someone else you wouldn't come ask me why It was over. I was right, a part of me hoped that you would come after me and make me tell you that there was no other guy. But you didn't. When Jason came to visit me it was a total surprise, and when he came into my room, there I was passed out on my bed, he tried to wake me up, but he couldn't. Jason called 911, and they got me to the hospital and I was forced to eat, they put feeding tubes in me and everything. Jason had gotten all my stuff from my room and forced me to move out and in with him. Before he moved back to Angel grove I got better and slowly but surely I was okay. I made Jason swear not to tell anybody I didn't want anyone to know what I had been through what I had turned into. So it's been my little secrete, well Jason too."
Tommy sat there, staring at Kim. He once thought that he knew everything about her, and now he sat here shocked to find out that kim had an eating disorder. And that she thought he deserved better than her. If only she knew how he had felt about her. Before he could say anything Kira came bursting through the door.
"Dr. O I hate to interrupt really I do, but we got to go, Mesogog."
Tommy nodded understanding. He hadn't even heard his wrist band ( I cant remember what to call it, and its late, so blah!) He looked at Kim as if apologizing for him having to leave. She just nodded at him. Tommy got up from his chair walked over to her and placed a kiss on her forehead. She had been through so much, and now she was doing the bravest thing ever. She was telling him. He smiled at her.
"I'll be back, Beautiful."
She could feel herself blushing. "Be careful"
He nodded. "You know me"
And with that they were both gone. Kim sighed. Wondering if Tommy would be okay and not distracted by what she had to say. Lying down on the bed, all she could do was waiting.
To be continued...