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Kel: I don't want to give away too much, but it does have something to do with the story. I base everything I write (or at least try too) off of the books, so you can basically predict the ending if you pay close attention to the books.

Thanks to everyone else that reviewed

Also I realized a mistake I made in chapter five and never got around to fixing it. So I'm sorry. I said that when Carly received her letter from her mother from Gideon I said that Gideon was asked by Carly's mom to give to it to Carly. When it really is that Gideon got a letter from Fabian that said to give the letter to Carly. I'm really sorry and I probably just confused you even more so I'll shut up now.

Chapter 10: Love?

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"So what happens now?"

"What do you mean?"

"Well I don't know. I always figured it would be the end of the world when me and you got together."

"Like you told me many times before… So how good of a kisser is the giant squid?"

Lily and James, who had been patrolling for the night, always had meaningless conversations that ended in a stupid comment made by James. That was their basic conversation for the night. The rest of the time they would just walk in a comfortable silence hand in hand.

Lily thought about what she asked him while in bed later that night. He never would give her a straight answer. It always made her wonder, 'What would happen now?' Her and James were together, but was she just another notch in his bed post? This thought caused a tear to leak out of her eyes. Was she good enough for James? Or did she really mean something to him? Lily rolled over. She had been asking herself these meaningless questions ever sense James kissed her that time.

Every night she would curse herself for crying about it and actually getting involved with James, but then, 'come on. Who wouldn't fall for him! He was perfect, well no one was perfect, but that's what she liked about him. His imperfectness. Does he feel the same though? Of course he does, he respects me. No other guy I've been with has before, but was it just how James was? Did he always act like this to get into girls' pants?' She went around in circles every night trying to figure it out.

Tonight, though was different. She realized that all her blockades that she built around her heart melted after that kiss between her and him. 'What did this mean?' She thought. She needed an answer from James. 'What did he really think about her?' With that last thought she ripped off her covers and stormed down the steps and into the boy's dorm looking for her answer…

James sighed as he flopped onto bed. He really liked Lily. More than any of his other relationships. Did that mean that he loved her? He shook his head and pulled off his glasses. 'There's no way I could love her. She is finally letting me have a chance and I can't screw this up. How could I love her? Do I?' A small voice in the back of his head answered,

'Yes,'

'How do you know?' He shot back,

'Because I'm the one that told you all those months ago to stop acting like a prat around her. Plus if I was smart enough to tell you that then shouldn't I be smart enough to know that you love her,'

'Who are you? And do you know how old I am? I'm 17 I can't possibly know what love is.'

'That is where you're wrong Master James. It doesn't matter how young you are. Love can show itself at the young age of…lets say 12.'

'What do you mean 12? Do you mean that I've loved Lily sense the age of 12?' The little voice didn't answer, 'How do you know what love is?' He asked it,

'What do you feel like around her? Don't answer that I will. Every time you see her your stomach does back flips. Every time you touch her your spine tingles to the core. Every time you look into her eyes your own reflect how she feels. That Master James is love.'

'Alright then. So maybe I am, but does she feel the same?' The voice never had a chance to answer because the dorm door creaked open and a slim figure slipped through the crack. He fumbled for his glasses and sat up, "Lily?" He whispered. She jumped and began to walk over to him. She had a tear stained face and her hair was a mess, "Lily what's wrong?" He asked pulling her down next to him and wrapping his arms around her.

"I…don't know." She said pulling her face off his chest and looking up into his eyes. What she saw in there was a mix of emotions. One emotion she had never seen before in any ones eyes.

"I want to…talk to you…" He said pulling away and running a hand through his hair. Her eyes became wide and filled with fear, "Lets go downstairs." He said as an after thought when a loud snore came from Peter's bed. He led her down the stairs holding on tight to her hand, "Do you want to tell me what's wrong before I start?" He asked sitting down on the couch next to her. She shook her head. "Alright then promise not to interrupt me, because once I get started there is no stopping." She nodded thinking,

'Oh no, James is notorious for his break up speeches. Damn it Lily! You screwed it up! Way to go!'

"I wanted to say that every time I see you my stomach begins to flutter. Every time someone says your name my breath catches in my throat. Every time I touch you I feel like I can never let go in fear that you'll leave. Every time I look in your eyes my heart beat begins to rise. I have to say that this has never happened with any other girl before. Which leads me to believe that your not just any girl. Your different Lily. And I know this might be fast and I'm sure that I'm going to scare you and make you run away, but ever sense I turned 12 these feelings have started. At first I guess they might have scared me so I acted like a jerk and teased you. Then when I turned 14 I realized that maybe those feelings aren't as bad so I started asking you out. Finally when I turned 17 something began to click." He didn't realize he had just said all of that. Sure he felt it come out of his mouth, but he had no idea where it came from. "Lily…I think…I love you." Lily gasped. They only had been going out for about a month and already he knew that he loved her? James looked at her worried face, "It's ok, and I'll understand if you don't feel the same. I just had to tell you." Lily's eyes became wide as he said this. Just because she didn't love James yet didn't mean that she would never love him. She thought for a moment as she looked at him,

'I feel the same was every time I see, touch, and look in his eyes. Maybe…' He stood up and was about to say something, "Wait James can I speak now?" He nodded, "I'm not exactly sure what love is, but if it's what I think it is then I think…I don't know…It's so confusing…Oh bloody hell." She said throwing up her arms in defeat and standing up. James gave her a crazy look and she demolished it by wrapping her arms around his neck, "James Potter, I think I might just love you too." He gave her a lopsided grin.

"You know what happens from here?" He asked her wrapping his arms around her waste and pulling her closer,

"I have no clue I just figured we could make it up as we go." He nodded in agreement,

"How about this for making up?" He said before he leaned in to sweep her off her feet with one tender kiss.

I realize that this happened all to fast, but its not like I can cut it off. Because I'm a really big romantic and I realize this is cheesy and fluffy. I can promise you that better things are coming and not everything will end happily ever after.

Also James is not schizophrenic (did i spell that right?)I promise you.

Thanks for RR

-Tandemswipe