Lupin's Little Dark One
A/N: Tra la la. No clue why I even have an author's not here. Thanks for the nice reviews everybody!
Last Time:
"As long as I know everything about you and I can be there for you when things get like this next time." Kieran smiled back and softly kissed him. He pulled away. "Not so fast Kieran. Not so fast. I want this to last, so take it easy. I don't want anything forced or pushed or rushed." Kieran raised an eyebrow.
"My first classy boyfriend." Kieran said with a smile.
"Glad to be." Ron replied. "Glad to be. Let's go downstairs, maybe even back to class." Kieran nodded slowly and he led her downstairs by the hand. Remus and Harry smiled. Draco sighed and Hermione clapped silently.
Chapter Fourteen: A Forced Trip of Memories
Life had once again taken a month of almost normality. Ron had gotten Kieran closer to Kieran, a surprising feat in Remus's eyes. Harry was still pining for Hermione and Hermione for Draco, and Draco, now surprisingly, for Hermione. Alas, Draco didn't have it in him to confess his feelings for her. Kieran hadn't cut a class since that day, and her detention had been long forgotten as Remus told Filch off for keeping her from class. Classes were getting ready to dismiss for the holidays and Kieran would, of course, be staying in the castle with her father. Ron wanted to stay, but his mother sent a howler to him demanding he come home, and bring Harry along as well. Hermione and Draco were both going to their homes, again a plea by the parents. Draco had been rather grumpy about this the whole time, and had pleaded to Dumbledore to let him stay, who declined. The group was now in the library, studying for a Potions exam.
"I don't see why you all want to stay." Kieran said. "I'd love to get out of the castle for a few days."
"My mum invited you to come home with us." Ron said softly. "I mean, if it's okay with your dad."
"Kieran at the Burrow," Hermione said, "You'll never get her out. It's too homey in there Ron, we have enough trouble getting her up in the morning."
"Leave her alone Hermione, you're not exactly the easiest person to wake up either." Ron said in defense.
"Thanks Ron, I'd love to come." Kieran said. "Put names with the faces I see all the time. Maybe make some of the memories you have."
"You know, I wish for once, that I could know something in your past without having to ask you." Ron said.
"No, you don't Ron." Kieran retorted.
"I think you should trust her on that mate." Harry said.
"You never know Potter, Weasley could enjoy seeing death." Draco commented. Kieran paled and got up and left.
"That's not funny Malfoy." Ron said.
"Didn't say it was, just said it." Draco replied. "That what you'd see isn't it?" Ron rolled his eyes and went to find Kieran. She was tucked away in the Restricted Section. He sat next to her and she leaned into him, and he put his arms around her.
"He's a bitter jerk." Ron said softly.
"He's right, that's what you'd see." Kieran said. "I see it all the time. No matter what I do."
"I'm sorry." Ron whispered. "I didn't know it bothered you like that."
"It's not your fault now is it? You have the right to know about me, I know about you."
"But obviously your past bugs you."
"Only because I let it."
"If I witnessed something like that, I know it would haunt me too."
"I'm sorry Ron."
"Don't you dare be sorry about this."
"You deserve so much better than me." Kieran said.
"Why do you think that?" Ron asked her, looking at her.
"You're closer with Harry than you are with me, I just can't talk about things like you guys can."
"That doesn't matter, so you have issues expressing yourself, it's not that big of a deal. Sooner or later, I'm sure you'll open up." Ron said. He listened to his words and he felt little butterflies in his stomach.
"I'm glad you have faith in me."
"Why wouldn't I? I'm your boyfriend." Ron asked. Kieran just simply shrugged. Ron smiled. "Wanna go back over there with them?"
"Sure." Kieran replied. They got up, he took her hand, and they walked back over there, to find the group staring intently at them.
"Everything all right?" Harry asked. Ron nodded.
"Kieran?" Hermione asked. Kieran nodded as well. Harry and Hermione smiled. Draco rolled his eyes.
"Picture Perfect, as usual." Draco scoffed. Kieran raised an eyebrow at him and he smiled. "Just fooling." Ron put his arm around Kieran's waist possessively. Hermione and Harry exchanged concerned looks, as this was something new to Ron's ways. Draco shrugged and the group went back to studying.
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"Dad, I'll be fine, I'll be with Ron and his family." Kieran pleaded.
"I'd like to spend Christmas with you Kieran." Remus told her.
"Then just pick me up on Christmas!"
"No Kieran, stay here."
"But Dad! They invited me, how rude would it be not to except."
"How rude is it to come to me the day before we let out for the holidays and ask me to go home with Ron, to a place you've never been, with people you've never met? Maybe you can go there over the summer."
"Dad, c'mon! You know Ron's family. There's no reason why you should be scared about sending me there."
"Kieran, you're not going."
"Please, c'mon, I'll do almost anything!"
"Tutor first years and grade papers for the rest of the year?"
"Yes! Please let me go!"
"All right. But you are spending Christmas Day with me."
"Okay, thanks Dad, I love you!" Kieran said smiling. She hugged him tightly and ran off to pack. Remus shook his head and laughed.
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"Kieran, this is my mum, you know Ginny right?" Ron said. He was holding Kieran's hand tightly as he gestured to both members of his family.
"Yea, um, pleasure to meet you Mrs. Weasley." Kieran said with a sweet smile.
"It's Molly, Dear, and it's a pleasure to meet you as well. Now come one, the four of you. We've got to meet the twins at their shop, and Percy in the Leaky Cauldron." Mrs. Weasley said, leading Ginny, Harry, Ron, and Kieran off.
The group walked to the Leaky Cauldron, where an excited and jittery man walked over to them. Kieran recognized him at once from Ron's memories. He hugged Mrs. Weasley
"Percy!" Mrs. Weasley exclaimed, hugging him back. He smiled.
"Hey Mum." Percy said. He hugged Ginny and shook Harry's hand. Then he turned to Ron and Kieran. "Who's this?" He eyed Kieran carefully.
"Percy, this is Kieran Lupin, Professor Lupin's daughter, and my girlfriend." Ron said slowly. He tightened his grip on Kieran's hand. She smiled slightly, knowing Ron had some kind of tension with this brother and another of Ron's memories flashed before her eyes.
"It's a pleasure to meet you Percy." Kieran said confidently. Percy nodded, eyeing her again.
"Where to now Mum?" Percy asked, changing the subject and turning back to his mother.
"The twin's shop." Mrs. Weasley said quickly. The group now headed into Diagon Alley, a new experience for Kieran. They went into a shop the had a colorful sign reading, "The Weasley Wizarding Wheezes: A Joke Shop." Kieran smiled as she got another of Ron's memories.
"Mum! Percy! Ginny! Ron! Harry!" One of the identical twins yelled out.
"And someone new that seems to be rather close to Ron." the other said.
"Perhaps a girlfriend?" the first said.
"She looks a lot like Remus." the second replied. Kieran suppressed a giggle.
"Fred, George, this is Kieran, yes, she's my girlfriend, and she's Lupin's Daughter." Ron said almost laughing. The twins came over and hugged Kieran.
"You know, if you two ever get into a fight, we have a whole line of things to get even." Fred said.
"Plus, a whole lot of blackmail information." George continued. Kieran smiled.
"Thanks guys." Kieran said. They went on to hug the rest of the group, minus Percy and Harry. Kieran realized that they also had some issues with Percy. They all went into the back, after the twins closed and locked the doors, and flooed to the Burrow. Kieran got out of the fireplace and looked around. Ron was already there and took her hand again as three more men entered the room.
"Dad, Charlie, Bill, this is Kieran, she's Remus's daughter and my girlfriend." Ron said quickly. Kieran smiled.
"Pleasure to meet all of you." Kieran said. Bill and Charlie walked up to her and eyed her carefully.
"You're father is Remus Lupin?" Bill asked. She nodded nervously.
"You have his eyes." Charlie said. She shifted uncomfortably.
"You love our little brother?" Bill asked.
"You guys!" Ron finally exclaimed. Bill and Charlie burst out laughing at Kieran, who was now looking petrified from Ron to them, to Ron's father, to Harry, and back to Ron. Ron led her up stairs to where she'd be staying.
"Your family is cool." Kieran said, now laughing about what had happened.
"Yea, they're a bunch of nutters." Ron said shaking his head with a smile. "So, this is Ginny's room, if you don't mind sharing, but she snores something awful, so you might be better off rooming with Harry, but my mum said you should try this first."
"Who are you rooming with?" Kieran asked.
"Percy... bloody rat he is." Ron growled. Kieran just nodded softly. "Maybe he can room with Ginny, and Harry can room with me and you can have your own room!" Ron said with a smile.
"Or, Harry and Percy can switch and you can room with Harry." Kieran said. Ron nodded.
"Or you and Percy can switch..." Ron said. "No, nevermind."
"What? It's not like we're ready to do anything, you want to wait, I'd like to wait." Kieran said.
"Your dad would freak out." Ron said.
"He'd get over it."
"I guess, we should just stay on the safe side though." Ron told her. She shrugged and nodded.
"You're right, as usual." She said with a smile. He laughed and hugged her tightly. She laughed at him and hugged him back. Harry came up behind them and just watched the two for a moment.
"Too cute you know that? Wonder what the kids will look like though." Harry finally said to them.
"Shut up." Ron said. Kieran smiled and looked pointedly at Harry.
"What's the height difference anyway? A foot maybe?" Harry continued.
"I'm 6'3." Ron said, shaking his head.
"I'm about 5'4" or 5'5' so, Mr. Potter, you're wrong." Kieran said. Harry rolled his eyes.
"Close enough. So Ron, how far have you two gotten?" Harry said, obviously teasing them.
"He pleads the fifth." Kieran replied.
"Yea, I plead the fifth." Ron said, oblivious to what she was talking about.
"That's an American Amendment to their constitution, not ours. Welcome to England." Harry said. Kieran sighed in defeat and looked at Ron.
"So I have to tell you?" Ron asked.
"Yep." Harry replied. Ron looked to Kieran, who nodded slowly, in defeat. He smiled softly as he got an idea to get back at Harry.
"This far." Ron said, pulling Kieran close to him and pressing his lips against hers. Harry's eyes widened as Kieran's left leg bent up at the knee as she returned his kiss. Harry turned around in shame and attempted to ignore them. Ron pulled away from Kieran and smiled. Kieran suppressed a laugh and smiled, shaking her head at Ron and hugging him tightly.
"You done yet, I'm going to barf." Harry said.
"We're done mate." Ron said. Harry turned around.
"Isn't there something about PDA's somewhere that you have to not be that close." Harry said.
"Yea, if Mum or Dad catch you two snogging I think they'll flip." Bill said, as the three noticed him in the doorway. "Dad didn't know you two were dating."
"I told Mum, not my fault!" Ron said defensively.
"If it's a problem, I can just floo back to Hogwarts, or even apperate to Hogsmeade and walk up, I don't want to cause any problems." Kieran said.
"No, don't worry about it, just keep the PDA low." Bill said. "Like don't snog and don't like touch each other other than the hands and stuff like that, at least not in front of people." Ron's ears turned red and Kieran, taking note of this nodded and smiled. "C'mon, let's go on downstairs." The group went downstairs, and Ron and Kieran took special care not to do anything besides holding hands.
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The week at the Burrow passed rather quickly. Kieran deeply involved herself in the Weasley Family, Making a visible effort to get to know everyone, even Percy. She, Ron and Harry spent less time together and she ended up staying with Ginny. Ron's parents became a lot more comfortable as time stretched on and they started to accept the relationship more. The night of Christmas Eve came and Ginny woke up Kieran quickly and quietly.
"Wha? What happened?" Kieran groaned loudly sitting up.
"SHH!" Ginny hissed. "Ron's outside the window! On his broom!" Kieran scratched her head and went over to the window and opened it.
"Kieran, grab you cloak, c'mon hurry up!" Ron beckoned to her. She smiled brightly in the night and grabbed her Hogwarts cloak and climbed out the window. He helped her onto his broom and wrapped his arms around her.
"What's the occasion?" she asked.
"You're Dad's coming to pick you up at 6, and I wanted to get you your Christmas gift."
"Ron no!" Kieran said, with a warm smile, "you didn't have to."
"I wanted to." he replied, and took off with her. They got ways out from the Burrow, and Ron landed.
"What are we doing way out here?"
"I got you a real gift, but what I have planned here isn't a gift for you, per se, I did research, on Psychic Abilities, and there's a spell, so that I can see your past, and I figured that way, you wouldn't have to talk about it, because I know how much it bugs you to not be able to." Ron said, hoping she understood what he was saying. She was staring at him.
"You did all that, just for this?" She asked, amazed. She didn't think that he would go to all that trouble.
"I just want for you to be more comfortable with me, because I know you aren't." Ron told her, "I just think, if I knew what happened, so you wouldn't have to tell me yourself, because I know you don't want to, that you'd be more confident about us, as a couple."
"Ron, I, you didn't have to do this, I mean," she was about to begin a very long little talk with him. He silenced her.
"I want you to feel comfortable, Kieran, I love you, and what happened in the library with Draco that day made me realize it, and that I want us to be close, and I know you won't let us be as close as we should be without me knowing as much about you as you know about me. You said it yourself. That's why I looked up this thing. You also said you can't talk about it, and I respect that. I don't want you to do something you don't want to." He thought over what he said and added. "I know I sound like I'm desperate to get in your head, and I am, I want to know everything you can't tell me yourself." Kieran smiled rather weakly. She wasn't so sure about this.
"Ron I know you mean well, but I don't think you can handle this, not on Christmas at least." She tried to plead with him. He shook his head.
"I want to know your pain." He told her, looking deep into her eyes and she sighed and gave in with a slow nod. He smiled softly and cast the spell, which threw him into her worst memories.
Flash of Memories
"Don't dude, that's not cool, get off me!" came Kieran's tense and struggling voice. Ron saw her in another guy's tense grip, she looked quite a bit younger than she did now.
"C'mon now Kieran, relax a little, you want another, stronger, drink?" the guy said.
"No, I don't want anything from you, creep!" Kieran said as she pushed him off of her. He retaliated and hit her. Kieran whimpered and pushed him in her own retaliation.
"You wait you little whore, I'll get you later." the guy said and walked out. Kieran was now fully visible to Ron, she was in a tight micro mini-skirt and a halter top.
"I'm not a whore." she whispered after the guy. "I only did it once." She smiled softly at her own little comeback and walked back out to the party. It was rowdy and the music was blaring. There was a girl waiting at the door with two, full bottles of beer.
"What happened? He stormed outta there like you told him no." the girls said, handing Kieran a beer.
"I did," Kieran said, taking the drink and sipping it, making an odd face at the taste.
"If you don't step up and get into the groove of things, I'm not taking you to parties anymore. You can't handle alcohol, you tell almost every guy no, you don't smoke, you're not into drugs, then what's the purpose of you going to parties?"
"There's more to it than that! Dancing, hanging out, talking, playing games. Staying out late. Having fun."
"You're talking like a twelve year old."
"I'm thirteen."
"God, I didn't know you were that little. You look older, you know that, you look at least sixteen."
"Yes, I know that. I'm not little."
"Then live a little. Get shot up, have a smiley. Give someone head. Do something to prove your worth my troubles." Kieran nodded slowly to her 'friend' and followed her, and did everything her friend mentioned to her. By the end of the night, Ron watched as Kieran struggled to stand up and staggered towards the door to go home and was stopped by the guy from before.
"You look a little more willing now. So, how about I help you to a room?" the boy took a firm grip on Kieran, stabilizing her.
"I show you the best night of your life." Kieran slurred, wobbling. He smiled and picked her up and carried her off.
Next Memory
"Kieran you are not going out tonight, no more of this." came a stern man's voice. Ron saw Kieran, again dressed rather inappropriately.
"Stop me Dad, go ahead and try." Kieran challenged. The man slapped her, hard. Kieran whimpered and fell to the floor.
"Don't you EVER talk to me like that Kieran Marie. I am your FATHER." the man growled. And he lifted her up by her hair and led her roughly to what Ron assumed was her bedroom.
"Oh now you care what I do with my life, because I'm your daughter, and it reflects poorly on you that I'm failing classes." Kieran snapped back. The man threw her against a wall.
"You will not treat me like this Kieran, I won't have it. I'll kill you if you step foot off this campus before summer break and I hear of it." the man said. All of the sudden there was a green light and her father fell dead to the floor. Kieran screamed and tears started down her face as Lucius Malfoy came upon her.
"You killed him! You killed my father!" she dove on Lucius and started pounding on him. A rather flustered looking Snape pulled her off.
"I'll take care of her." Snape growled. He led her to a room and threw her in there. "Look Voldemort wants you dead, so I suggest you stay in here and stay silent. Keep hidden."
"Who in Merlin's name are you? Are you with the guy that killed my father! I'll murder the lot of you!" Kieran snarled, drawing her wand. Snape disapperated. Kieran sunk down against a wall and sobbed. Another death eater came in, that easily passed as Lucius Malfoy under a mask. "You... son of a bitch..."
"Ah, our target for this evening, how lucky it will be for me to be the one to..." the man began, but never finished.
"Adveda Kedevra!" Kieran screeched. The green light from her wand hit the man and he fell dead to the floor. She whimpered as her mother ran in.
"Kieran please, I heard you scream, your father what happened?" her mother was pleading for answers and holding her daughter now.
"They killed him, and I was being so mean to him, I didn't know, I didn't mean it..." Kieran cried. "I told him that he didn't really care about me and I know he does, I know you both do." Her mother shushed her as footsteps approached. Kieran swallowed her sobs and shook in fear and silence.
"Get under the bed Kieran." her mother commanded. Kieran immediately obeyed her mother, for the first time in a while it seemed by her mother's reaction. "Good girl, now don't you come out no matter what. I love you Kieran." The door slammed open.
"There is a girl in this room by the name of Lupin. She has the blood of the wolf in her veins." came a voice that sent chills up Ron's spine. Ron knew that this was what Kieran hadn't wanted him to see.
"Voldemort. She's not in here, she's out, with friends." Kieran's mother, quickly sputtered, not sounding convincing at all.
"I know you lie, for you are the mother of the child and will protect her without concern for yourself." Voldemort replied. This was the first time Ron got to see his face, and he instantly hated it and never would forget it. "Marie Wilson, death has beckoned you and I intend to deliver." Ron heard Kieran's whimper of a 'no' as she emerged from under the bed.
"Leave her alone! She didn't do anything to you! You creep, what gives you the right to come here and kill innocent people!" Kieran said, her wand still out.
"Do you not know my name Child? I am Lord Voldemort. I will soon rule all the Wizarding World once you are dead." the man said. He raised his wand. "Adveda Kedevra!" Ron saw Kieran shut her eyes in preparation for the green light but it didn't hit her, it hit her mother.
"Momma!" Kieran screeched, kneeling down beside her. "You monster! I don't care if your Merlin, it doesn't give you the right!" Ron wanted more than anything to stop what was coming next.
"Foolish little girl, I give myself the right, she was the one that wanted to save your life, but she can't stop me any longer." Voldemort cackled gruesomely. "Adveda Kedevra." The green light hit Kieran and she fell to the floor. Voldemort cackled again and all traces of him vanished. Kieran's shirt became soaked in blood.
Next Memory
Kieran was in a hospital, Ron observed, and woke up, holding her stomach. Remus was sitting at her side, patiently.
"Who are you? Where am I? Did I overdose?" she whispered. "I had the most awful nightmare..."
"I'm Remus Lupin, Miss Wilson, I'm your guardian." Remus was very calm as he spoke, but never made eye contact with Kieran.
"This is a lame joke... you don't fool me, where are my parents?" she asked, shakily.
"They've passed on." Remus said uncertainly. Kieran shook her head and got out of the bed, running out of the room. It was the same building she'd been in before, but, it was littered with bodies of children and pools of blood. Kieran whimpered.
"No." She muttered, fiercely shaking her head. "No." She continued her journey, pausing at every body that she found familiar and letting out a sob. Then they came upon a room of living people, the other survivors.
"Oh Kieran! I'm so glad you're okay! I was so worried, I mean I came to get you when you didn't show and found you like that..." it was the girl from the first memory.
"You didn't find anyone else alive?" Kieran asked weakly.
"We didn't look, everyone was already visibly dead, pale, the room was cold." One man claimed.
"You could have checked, what if there had been one like me, that needed help?" Kieran screeched. Remus grabbed her arm.
"You're lucky to be here Kieran." Remus said. "Voldemort used a killing curse on you."
"I know that." Kieran whispered. "What brought Voldemort to Canada anyway?"
"He wanted more power, if he found supporters here, he could take them to England with him." Remus said. "He was looking for one in particular."
"He seemed so bent on killing me though, he said something about wolf's blood, total psycho." Kieran said. Remus shifted uncomfortably, but was ignored.
"Maybe because you'd seen his face and could identify him." Came one survivor's suggestion.
"Harry Potter has had to have seen his face before! Surely Albus Dumbledore as well." Kieran reasoned.
"But he can't kill them either, Kieran, you're right up there with them." her friend said. Kieran shrugged.
"I kinda wish he'd succeeded." Kieran muttered. She walked off farther, away from the group, Remus still at her side, and Ron trailing. They reached her father's body and she sobbed hysterically. Remus tried to comfort her but it was no use. "I'm so sorry Daddy." She kneeled and touched her father's face, with an almost expectant look. "I didn't mean what I said." Remus put a firm grip on her shoulder.
"He knows you didn't." Remus said. "I'm sure he understands."
"How would you know, you've never met him." Kieran snapped angrily. Ron saw the hate that filled her eyes so commonly now.
"But I knew your mother, very well, and I know her taste in men." Remus said. "Come now, let's get out of here, I'm taking you back to England with me, Albus Dumbledore has secured you a place as a sixth year at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry." Kieran nodded slowly and stood up.
"Just one more place, please Mr. Lupin." Kieran said softly. Remus nodded and she led him to the room where there on the floor her mother's body still remained. She broke into uncontrollable sobs, soon joined by Remus.
"Marie, what did I do?" Remus choked. He reached out and touched the woman's hand. Kieran swatted at him.
"Who are you?" Kieran screeched. "How do you know my mother? What did you do to her?"
"I was in love with her through-out our academic career, we were engaged, and I let her go." Remus whispered. "And I've regretted that decision every day of my life since." Kieran stared at him and crawled up on him, hugging him.
"We'll miss her together." Kieran whispered. "Because Momma always told me about first loves."
"You always love them, no matter what comes along, and she believed that." Remus said. Kieran nodded and cried some more, seeming to get used to the feeling of Remus. She soon fell asleep and Ron was jerked from her memories
End Memories
Ron sighed and opened his eyes to find Kieran in a fit of tears before him. He pulled her close to him and shushed her in a comforting manner. She held onto him tightly and continued to cry.
"Oh Merlin Kieran, I'm so sorry." Ron whispered.
"You see now why I don't want to talk about it?" Kieran asked him. "Are you satisfied?" Her crying began to still and her tone turned bitter. "Seen it all now? Know you can't help? Don't want to help? Bit off more than you can chew?Then go on. I'll walk back." She started up the hill, angrily shoving him away, completely assuming what she thought in her head.
"I want to be with you more than ever Kieran." Ron said. "I want to be someone you can come to now when you have nightmares about it. When you're sad. When you get so hateful and resentful like this." He grabbed her arm to stop her and she stopped dead and looked up at him.
"I saw what you saw, and it was the first time I've seen it over again." She hissed almost angrily. "I see it every time I close my eyes." She pulled away from him again and ran back up to the house as fast as she could.