Silented Screams

Rating: M for Mature

Genre: Angst/Drama/Suspense/Romance (eventually)

Couples: Paige/Spinner, Jimmy/Hazel. (They wont be in the story much.)

Summary: This is about Alex's life that no one really knows about.

Authors notes: I do not own the characters of Degrassi, but I do own the characters I make up so I would appreciate it if you do not take them:) Leave me feedback, feel free to critique me, or anything.

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Chapter 1: Why doesn't anybody like me?

"Alex wake up!" I heard my little sister say as she threw two rounds of pillows at my face, I groaned and pulled the pillow over my head, didn't she understand that I spend saturday's sleeping? I turned my back on her and laid on my side.

"You have to walk me to school, please? Mommy and daddy aren't home and I don't want to walk by myself." She whined and continued to pull on my leg, in response I curled my leg away from her. "Don't you want to go to school?" she curiously asked she moved to sit on my bed and waited for me to answer.

"No," I scoffed, moving my hand to cover my ears I had half hoped I wouldn't be able to hear her, and that I would be able to go back to sleep but being an annoying six year old that she is, she never gave up.

"Please?" Amanda begged pushing the covers away from my head, she moved to lay her body ontop of mine, I flinched and lightly pushed her off not wanting to push her to hard which could cause her some sort of injury. I raised my hand in surrender. "Alright I give up, i'll get ready and walk you to school." rolling my eyes I moved to get out of bed and watched as my little sister ran out of my room.

IFinally the little twirp is gone/I I pulled out some clothes and looked at a pair of clothes that were laying on the opposite side of the room and scoffed. Moving to stand in front of the mirror I examined my face and then looked at my entire body, i shook my head and grabbed my hairbrush.

"I look like shit." I touched my cheek lightly as I leaned forward and took a closer look at the light bruise that was at the corner of my eye. I brushed my hair, and kept it down in front of my face and put in my earings and left my room.

"Lets go!" Amanda said, her voice was filled with excitement, she placed her hand in mine and pulled me towards the door, i barely had time to grab my bag I let go of my sisters hand for a moment to close and lock the door. She grabbed my hand yet again and pulled me down the street, I shook my head, it was my sisters first day of school and she was all up in the excitement. Not really my scene.

Once we turned the corner I saw her school it was filled with annoying little twirps her size and twice her size, narrowing my eyes a little bit I pulled her behind me and started to walk towards the enterance of the playground where I was stopped by Amanda. "Hey what is it?" I asked curiously, I turned around and kneeled on the ground to get a good look at her.

"I changed my mind, I want to go home." Amanda uneasily stated, she looked past me at all the other kids who were hanging out together, I took a glance at them for a second and then looked back at my sister. I picked her up and gave her a good long stare.

"Don't be a scaredy cat, you know where that gets you? Nowhere, now when you go into that playground you're going to introduce yourself to everyone. Loudly, I don't want you to have a quiet introduction. Be unique, and be loud." I placed her down, she smiled big at me and I watched as she entered the playground, I wanted to go after her it was weird dropping her off at school instead of leaving her at home. I have grown to be overprotective of her, smiling I stood there for a few minutes.

"Hello! I AM AMANDA!" I heard my sister announce as she stood ontop of the monkey bars, grinning I saw more than a few kids climb up the monkey bars to greet her, turning around on my heel I walked towards Degrassi. IThat's my girl./i while walking I saw a car slowly pull up next to me and the window roll down.

"Hey Alex." Marco said as he stuck his head out the window, smiling at me he pointed towards the back of the car. "Do you want a ride?" he offered to me, I looked around for a moment as if I were looking for a stranger to pop out of nowhere and then got in.

"You looking for someone?" He asked me, he must of noticed my sudden paranoia, I shook my head and looked forward. I knew he was staring at me for a moment trying to figure out if i were lying or not but gave up once he figured that the look on my face wouldn't change.

The car came to a stop once it reached the destination of Marco and I, sighing I opened up the cardoor and exited, nodding a thank you to Mr. Del Rossi I walked up the Degrassi steps to be stopped by Marco he grabbed my wrist, flinching I whirled around and sneered.

"What was that for?" I snapped, I yanked my wrist away from him and craddled it, there was a huge bruise on it which he must have seen, before he could ask any questions I quickly turned around and made my way inside the school. I shook violently trying to get everything out of my head.

IThere are just some secrets, that need to be kept secret. This is one of my dirty little secrets/I