I am sorry again. I love all of you on Monday there will be a new post.

Incomplete: Backstreet Boys

There he was. Alone. By himself. Staring out of the window day dreaming of something perfect that would never happen. He had tried everything to get that perfect being, yet always he was shot down. His friends begged him to give up, to just leave it alone. But every time he ignored their pleas and where had it gotten him? Every time he was rejected of this perfect image his friends never had the heart to tell him 'We told you so'. The boy rolled away from the newly risen sun outside.

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess

Now he was facing the perfection itself. He lifted his hand and traced the frame in which the perfection was held. The perfection turned away from him and walked out of the frame. The rejections caught up to him in one whirl wind of anger. Grabbing the frame he threw it across the room. It hit the door in a crash and the perfection fluttered to the ground face down.

The crash startled the other occupants in the room. Three figures shot up in their beds with their wands pointed at the broken frame on the floor. One slowly lowered its wand and looked back at the boy, "James?" the figure whispered. The boy called James ignored the call of the figure and rolled the other way. One of the figures grumbled and lay back down while the other two looked at each with worried expressions. The one that spoke nodded at the other one motioning towards James. With that the spoken figure laid back down leaving the only sitting figure left.

"Prongs?" The figure said now standing up and walking towards James' bed. James ignored him making sure his face was hidden by the pillows. The figure sat down on James' bed, "Come on I know your not sleeping."

"Go away Sirius." James muttered,

"No." Sirius said, "Not until you tell me you give up on this Evans business."

"I can't." James whispered. Sirius let out an aggravated sigh,

"Yes you can. Look at what's she's doing to you! She's killing you Prongs and you don't even know it."

"That's stupid Sirius." James said burying his face deeper in the pillows.

"You're changing James. You're not around anymore-"

"Yes I am!"

"Listen to me. You are there with us physically not mentally. Look mate she's changing you and she doesn't even no it. You are not the same James. And it's not for the better." Sirius said slowly choosing his words carefully. He got up and stormed out of the room shaking his head. James turned around and stared at the door slamming shut rattling some of the shattered frame. The other figure sat up at this point and walked over,

"Don't tell me the same thing Remus." James whispered trying to disguise the hurt in his voice. Remus shook his head,

"Just forget her James. At first it was fun. Then you became obsessed. Lily is not good for your health mate. Just let her go." Remus said staring at James. When he said nothing Remus turned around and followed Sirius out of the room.

"I've tried." James whispered when the door shut.

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

"What's wrong with Potter?" A brown haired girl asked nudging her red haired friend and pointing at James. He was sitting alone at breakfast the next morning. He looked horrible. His face was un-shaven he had dark circles under his bloodshot eyes, and his hair was more of a mess then usual. Sirius and Remus were no where to found that morning making many people in the great hall wonder about the Marauders. They had not done any of their usual stunts sense last year. Was it because they had finally grown up? Or was it that they finally grew apart?

"Why do you care?" The red head shot back,

"Why are you so touchy about it?" The brown haired girl countered. The red head shrugged, "You can not deny it Lily, and he has changed."

"What are you talking about?" Lily glared at her.

"You know exactly what I'm talking about. He looks completely different. I can't believe you can't see the way he looks at you." The brown haired girl said with aggravation in her voice,

"He looks at me the same way he looks at any other girl in this school, Bianca. With pure animal lust. He just wants to get in my pants." Lily said now annoyed that her friend brought it up again,

"And you're supposed to be the smartest girl in the year." Bianca said standing up. She walked away shaking her head at Lily,

"What's that supposed to mean!" Lily screamed after her. Bianca stopped and turned around. The whole great hall was silent watching the two girls. Bianca stormed up to Lily who was now standing also. Bianca jammed a finger at Lily,

"You are to dense to realize that there might actually be a man in this world that wants you for your love not for your body! You are obviously held up in this lie that all men are scum. Your wrong, Lily Evans, for once you are wrong! There are plenty of good men in this world; you just never open your eyes wide enough to realize that one has proclaimed his love to you over and over again. You are the pig Lily not him." She hissed the last part pointing at James to make her point clear. With that Bianca stormed out of the hall. Leaving Lily there stunned not knowing what to do. James was now looking up at Lily his expression un-readable. At that point Dumbledore stood up,

"Its time for class." He said. The other students eyed the professor and stood up to leave slowly keeping their eyes on Lily and James.

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

Both of them stood alone in the great hall staring at each other. Finally James stood up picking up his bag and started to walk out of the hall. Lily opened her mouth to speak, but nothing came out. She struggled to let out the simple on syllable word; 'wait' but it wouldn't leave her mouth. She slumped down on the bench burying her head in her arms.

"Lily?" A soft male voice whispered behind her. She didn't answer, but she could feel the owner of the voice sit next to her, "Look Lily, this thing, thi-this love, James has for you is tearing him apart. He's not the same James and it hurts the rest of us to see him like this." Lily wiped her eyes on her sleeve before looking up to find Sirius sitting next to her and Remus behind her.

"What am I supposed to do?" She said in a small voice staring down at the table,

"Just try." Remus whispered.


I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

Incomplete