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Chapter 3

Doctor Ariel Mizuno flung into the room at the sound of Celine's screams. An orderly was already there, futilely trying to calm the increasingly panicking Celine, who was desperately straining against her restraints.

"Don't you see?" Celine pleaded. "I have to kill that monster! So I have to die! Please!" She looked and saw Ariel enter the room and implored her. "Please Aunt Ariel... You have to let me die! I have to! Please!"

"Hold her steady!" Ariel instructed the orderly. Celine was not likely to be able to escape her restraints, but she was pulling and thrashing at them so much that Ariel was afraid she might further injure herself. "Hotaru!" Ariel called out. "Get me 5 cc's of Benjisidrine! Stat!"

"Celine! Listen to me!" Ariel demanded. "Listen to me." She repeated as she fought to hold Celine's focus on her. "Listen to me..." She repeated again as Celine looked at her. Celine's eyes still showed a tide of panic, but at least Ariel had her attention for the moment.

"That's not going to happen." She insisted. "We will treat you, talk to you, I'll even hold your hand if you want me to... We are going to do everything we can to help you... But we are NOT going to just let you die."

Celine began shaking her head, desperately crying. "No! Please! No... Please no Aunt Ariel!" She was begging with tears in her eyes.

Ariel's eyes glanced at Hotaru as she entered the room. At a nod from Ariel, Hotaru uncapped the syringe she held, double checked it and injected a dose of the sedative into Celine's shoulder. The struggling ceased as Celine slipped back into unconsciousness.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" Annika questioned her daughter.

"I have to mom." Brooke answered her.

"Brooke..." Rei began.

"Celine has done some terrible things." Brooke acknowledged to her mother and grandmother. "But we were friends once and I can't just turn my back on that."

"I know." Annika smiled sadly. "I know..."

"Why?" Isao asked. "Why did she do it?"

"Was it my fault?" Tiffany asked. Gloria gently squeezed her granddaughter's hand in comfort.

"No Tiffany." Amy answered her. "This wasn't your fault. Don't ever think that." Amy knew that the news of Celine's attempted suicide had hit Tiffany hard. Tiffany's reaction had been a mix of anger, grief, and confusion.

"Your mother apparently has been holding a lot of pain for a long time now... If you hadn't gone to see her, then something else would have triggered it. So don't ever blame yourself for any of this."

Amy hesitated. Among Celine's writings from those last few days were letters to the members of her family and to several of the other senshi. The very last letter Celine had written was addressed to Tiffany. Amy had some concerns about giving it to Tiffany; unsure at first how she might react, but it was necessary Amy decided.

"Tiffany..." Amy said. "When Mina and I went through your mother's things, there were several letters." Amy said carefully looking to each member of the Aino family present: Mina, Gloria, Tiffany, Minako, Isao, Chomei... "She wrote to all of you." She said then looked at Tiffany squarely. "But as far as we can tell, the last letter she wrote was to you, Tiffany." Amy said. "I think you should read it." Amy added and handed the letter to her.

Tiffany apprehensively took the letter from Amy. It was so confusing. She was angry, yet she was worried and sad. She was also curious: Why had her mother done all the things she had done to her. What had caused her mother to become like this. Her mother had never answered those questions before... Perhaps she finally had.

Tiffany began reading:

'Dear Tiffany:

First I want you to know why I am writing this. I can't make excuses for the things I've done to you. I can't ask for your forgiveness. And I guess it's far too late for being sorry... Though I am sorry for all I have done to you...

But you asked me "Why?": And you deserve an answer for that.

You see... It was a lie when I said you were unwanted and unloved...

It wasn't you...

It was me.

It was always me.

I've been jealous of you since before you were born... and I always knew that one day you would come to hate me.

When I was ten, I was sent back in time to your Greatgrandmother. Myself and the other Chibi Elysian senshi. Of course I already knew the Sailor senshi, and the Cosmic senshi. I didn't understand why you hated me back then. I hadn't ever even met you and yet you and your friends all hated me. I know now that it was because just like your Greatgrandmother and the other original senshi, you already knew what kind of monster I was destined to become.

It just seemed that every time I loved something, It was taken from me.

I know now that it was because I never deserved love. Monsters don't get loved.

Marrying your father was probably the one thing I did right in my life. I think he almost saved me... I had already pushed away one very good man because I was afraid of losing him... But your father... He actually was able to make me love myself again... at least for a while. And we had your brothers. It was all I could ever dream for. But then, people would hint about the next Venus Scout... And I always had a fear in my heart...

When I became pregnant with you, your father began suggesting the name Tiffany. When you were born, I knew you would come to hate me.

I should have loved you, I just couldn't get past my own jealousy. I watched and saw how much your greatgrandmother, and your grandmother, and all the other senshi adored you, looked on you as they never did me.

I wanted to be loved like that... but I knew deep inside that I didn't deserve it. Your father loved you so much Tiffany. It was obvious from the day you were born, you were the world to him.

And instead of loving you, I hated you. I hated you for having the love I wanted to have. I hated you because I knew you deserved that love and I didn't... I drove your father away... I wanted to punish both of us... You for having his love... Me for wanting it. And I couldn't do it without blaming someone else. I couldn't face that it was my own doing. That would have hurt too much to admit... So it had to become your fault... And I told your brothers that it was your fault because I wanted them to love me and I wanted them to hate you.

Tiffany... Please remember that none of what has happened was ever your fault. Remember what you told me? ...You were right.

You have lots of people who love you. No matter what happens in your life, you will always have someone you can turn to.

And remember you are a strong young lady. You're stronger than I ever was. And you were right. You don't need me.

Tiffany... I love you.

Goodbye.

Tiffany finished reading the letter. Tears were streaming down her face.

"Tiffany." Amy said. "We are going to do everything we can to help her. And I'll be here to help you in any way I can. All right?"

Tiffany nodded her head.

Mina and Gloria nodded as well.. They had already seen the letters. Gloria had been shocked to discover that Celine actually blamed herself and not Gloria for her father's death. "I was scared." She had written. "I saw you on the news with that terrible youma and I was scared. I made Daddy go out after you. It was my fault Daddy died."

"Tiffany." Gloria said. "I promise we'll get through this... Together."

Celine awoke to find a familiar face sitting by her bedside. "Brooke?" She asked in a surprised voice. "Why are you here?"

Brooke smiled gently. "I thought you could use a friend right now."

"I thought you hated me." Celine said, turning away in shame.

"Celine..." Brooke began. "Celine, I never said I hated you... I hate many of the things that you've done. And I've been furious with you ever since I learned what you did to Tiffany...

"Let's be honest Celine. The things that you did are among the worst things one person could do to another..." Brooke stated flatly. "And the fact that you could do those things to your own daughter..." Brooke shook her head.

"But right now, a friend I once knew needs me." She said softening her voice.

"I never deserved a friend as good as you. " Celine said, turning back to look at Brooke.

"Look at you." Celine said, marveling at Brooke's youthful appearance, while thinking of the youth she had thrown away. "Look at us..."

"A pretty, young lady like you and an ugly old woman like me." Celine said.

"You just look mature." Brooke replied.

"No." Celine answered shaking her head. "I've been ugly for a long time. It was just no one could see it."

"I always envied you Brooke." Celine said. "You and the other Elysian Scouts... You all had such close and loving famillies. I envied how close you and your mother and grandmother are and how much your daughters love you. All of you... I envied you that even as I was pushing mine away...

"And then I pushed you all away, because I didn't deserve friends like you." Celine said.

"Why did you do this?" Brooke asked, gesturing at the hospital bed. "Why, Celine?"

Celine looked helplessly at Brooke. How could she expect her to understand? "Because," She said. "I can feel her... inside me. This thing that I became, that I am... She's still inside my heart."

"I know she wants to get out." Celine told Brooke. "She won't stop 'til she gets out again and I can't let her."

"Why didn't you turn to us for help?" Brooke asked sadly. "Let us help you..."

"It's too late Brooke. I have to destroy her now... Before I lose myself again." Celine squeezed Brooke's hand. "But thank you Brooke. Thank you for being here... I was right. You're a lot better friend than I ever deserved."

Brooke shook her head. "I'll always be there if you need me. Please don't push us all away again."

"I'll come see you later all right?" Brooke asked gently. Celine nodded.

As Brooke left, she had a very uneasy feeling. Something about what Celine said. Brooke planned to do a fire reading, but there was someone she needed to see first...

A short time later, Celine drifted into sleep.

"Welcome back Celine." Dark Celine said. "You and I need to have a little talk..."

Author's note: I'm sure that readers will note the reference to Benjisidrine. Not being trained in medicine or pharmacology, I opted to use a known ficticious drug to avoid making any inaccuracies concerning any currently known medicines. While Benjisidrine was given in ST:TOS as a Vulcan heart medicine, It was never stated that the medicine did not develope on earth or what its effects might be in human patients.

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