Thanks to everyone who reviewed, it was really inspiring! In case you couldn't tell already, this is my first fan fiction. Enjoy!
Oh and I don't own Degrassi or any characters from there.
P.S. Swear words below! (Sorry, I just can't imagine Alex or Jay, not swearing).
The bitch was stealing my man. Not that she meant too. No, that would be too hypocritical for Emma Nelson who had dropped Manny like a hot potato when she went after Craig who was dating Ashley. I mean, yeah, they made up when Manny was pregnant, but the initial slut comment was all you needed to know about Emma's feelings.
God, I sound like freakin' gossip queen Paige! Damn girl.
The worst part about it was she didn't even want Jay. Barely noticed his presence except to scoff at him in between staring at Sean. She didn't realize that one smile and my boyfriend would be eating out of her hand. I guess that's why I went out of my way to push her. To shake her out of her perfect little world. To get back at her for taking the only good part of my world.
It is also why Ellie and I got along so well. The punk girl and I didn't really seem to fit at first glance till you realized we were both at the mercy of Emma Nelson. I mean, at first, Sean really didn't want to speak to Emma, but that was just cause he was hurt. Seeing her day after day got to him this summer and Ellie didn't even know it.
I did though. Cause I had seen it happening to Jay, too.
He could swear to me up and down that he was only helping Sean get back at her. Or whatever lie he had told himself. But I knew.
He was different in the summer, away from her bewitching presence. But as soon as summer ended it was worse than ever. I guess Ms. PETA had finally found make-up that didn't test on animals or something.
We weren't so different she and I. Both of us stood up for what we believed in, although I did it with my fists and she did it with her words. Both of us grew up without fathers. Both of us had only a small circle of friends, although mine robbed stuff and hers studied stuff. Great, now I'm comparing Towerz to TOBY ISAACS! Whatever. Both of us acted like we were better than the world, me with my sarcasm, her with her perfection. I just was better at keeping up the act.
Maybe it was the cracks that attracted Jay to her. So I tried cracking my armor a little bit. If Ms. Priss could get a little detention, I could get a little school spirit, right? Except the whole election thing blew up in my face. In the end, it was nice to have someone believe in me, even if it was the queer.
So I changed tactics. Rick was the perfect opportunity. Not that I didn't hate him as much as anybody else. I had heard too many tears and things breaking to not want any guy who so much as raised a hand to a woman to be punished. But why waste such a golden chance as when I caught her feeling sorry for him. She was caving.
So I told Jay, knowing he disliked the violence against women thing as much as I. We have similar backgrounds him and me. Except my mom put my dad in jail, his mom still stands up for Daddy Dearest. Emma befriending Rick would make him see that the girl was not worth his time.
Except I hadn't counted on two things. One, Jay has a thing for damsels in distress that is worse than even Cameron's. When we first met, I was a mess and Emma was perfect and strong. Now Emma's become that mess and I can take care of myself.
Two, Emma is gullable. While I, and other people in their right minds, find her tendency to find the best in people annoying to say the least, bad boys like Sean and Jay love that about her. That she will see the best in them even if others in her world can't.
I just can't compete with that.
And so my comments about Rick's crush were designed not for Jay, but for Paige and her cronies. If Emma is taking Jay from me, I'll make sure she's alone, too.
Until Jay stepped into his shining armor. Emma actually tried to stop him. Didn't the idiot realize he was protecting her?
And as she fought me away from Rick, I had a moment of supreme triumph. Emma is on one side, with the psycho, Jay is on my side with the sane folks.
Now, flipping through channels, home all alone, I realized my biggest mistake. Jay's mom wouldn't let Jay stand up for her either. No matter how badly his dad hurts her, is mom stays by his dad's side. Just like Emma protecting Rick.
And if there is one person in the world who Jay loves its his mom.
So in spite of all are similarities, I was losing Jay to our one difference. And the bitch didn't even want him.
A/N: Again, sorry for the harsh language and the slur on Marco, but I think this is an honest portrayal of Alex's thoughts, not mine! Let me know what you think.