TruFate: Thankies, I'd love to make the review longer, but school is being evil, as usual
TearsOfEcstasy: The couples? Ouumm...so hard, arg, I guess it's Ryan/ Pete, possibly Marco/Ryan. or Possible Marco/ Andy, possible Brian/Andy, Michael/Jake, possible Michael/Robert, possible Jake/Remy. possible Jake/Alex, Adrian/Nate, Adrian/Michael, Adrian/ Trent...pmmh...I dunno what elese, tahkines for reviewing
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Azury: Poor baby, I feel your pain, um and no, spinner and jimmy and criag aren't gay, they were just teasing each other. And it's a physcitrist, he was making sure that Michal wasn't cutting again. I wish i could reply more, but ugh, school. so ciao! loves and prayers
Chapter 4: Your Diary pt2.
Why'd you love him
He's asking you why'd you love him
He's asking you why you loved him
But you couldn't say why you loved him.
Oh…
"Why do you continue to push away loved ones?" Someone asked Jake, who was busy writing down notes in his class.
He blinked and shrugged," The same reason why you do, Alex, it's pretty simple actually. It's quite fun to see the look on your best friend's face right before they crumble to the floor, short of breath and shaken due to the fact that you, the only support system in their life, is leaving them because they are just tired of taking care of them."
Alex smirked, his light pink lips tightened around his pencil as he shook his head," No…" He paused, writing some notes down himself. "I do it because it's a way of life,"
"And I know that you did what you had to do" Jake offered a genuine smile at him. Alex was the closest friend he had at the moment, a sure spit fire with the intelligence and elegance of a real classy boy. He was well respected, caddy, coy and sarcastically genius, so him and Jake clicked automatically last year.
Alex knows everything. From how Jake got there to the abuse, to Marco, to Michael, to Rory…
All of Jake's problems were stored in his head.
And he wasn't about to spill him.
You see, Alex didn't have the cleanest past either.
"Well, I need you"
"I know" Jake said, sighing.
"Oh, you don't say it like that you asshole!" Alex suddenly laughed,." You make it sound like I'm part of your hetero-sexual mayhem"
"You're a special case" Jake winked.
Michael chewed on his pencil," Thank you , Robby"
Robert shrugged," Your welcome"
"No…I mean, thank you" Michael repeated, softly.
Robert blinked at him," So what about Tilly, does she really have any concept of Ad-"He stopped," Michael, are you okay?"
Michael was twitching on the floor again. (A/N: I'm sorry, but I know this is supposed to be serious, but it just makes me giggle when Michael twitches like that)
Robert pulled him back up," No, not at all. Or at least I don't think so" Michael whispered," It just hurts the way that I feel responsible for her now, her bearings and what not, I mean, I am responsible for a life now, how do you cope with that?"
"I'm responsible for 4 of them" Robert sighed, " How do you think I feel"
"Fragile…" Michael whispered, his hands shaking, making the tea swish in the cup violently.
"Michael?" Robert asked, reaching over and touching his arm, but Michael just snapped away," I- I'm so sorry…"
"You didn't do anything" Robert said reassuringly.
Michael blinked a couple of times," You know Robert, do you want to hear a secret?"
Robert nodded," Yeah…"
Michael's green eyes flickered to the floor and then back up, " Once…like a really long time ago, I met this person that promised me the world, that they'd always be there for me, to protect me, and to help me through all the trials and issues, whatever may come my way"
Robert nodded.
"I was really young, like, I maybe 4 or 5 when it happened. I remember it was a rainy day, because I caught a cold after it, when I met them for the first time. My dad was a singer, you know , and a pretty good one at that, but one day when he was over in Europe on some tour his plane crashed into the sea-"
"Same thing with my dad"
"Similar fates I suppose" Michael said coldly," My mom, if you were to call her that, was a depressed hair dresser, who eventually died from depression, or so they say. So what happened was that I was walking down the block, trying to figure out what the hell was I going to do with myself when I saw this kid and their brother, sitting on a bench, fighting"
"So I walked over there and went to go see what the hell the problem was, I couldn't hear this whole conversation"
"Hey, hey Rory" Jake said, poking his brother,
"What, twat?" Rory asked, momentarily stopping his incessant rambling over the hot girl he saw today and looked at his brother.
"Stop calling me that, you retard! Look, that kid is there, the one we saw before. He's staring at us"
"Why are you so interested in that dirty looking kid?" Rory asked, glancing over at Michael.
"I like his eyes." Jake murmured.
"Kid, look, your 4. Stop looking at other boy's eyes. You gotta focus on boobs!" Rory smirked, poking his brother," You're gonna be a ladies man"
"But I like his eyes…" Jake wined," I wanna be his friend"
"You said the same thing about the squirrel that you saw yesterday"
" Mr. Nuts was my friend"
Rory smirked," Mr. Nuts? Where do you get this stuff from?"
"Look, mister, I wanna be his friend-" He stopped when Michael walked right into him,
"Ow!" Jake snapped.
"I'm so sorry!" Michael said, getting up and pulling him up," I just don't like it when people argue…"
"We were merely expressing our thoughts in a loud manner" Jake said coyly.
"Stop throwing around your vocabulary, geek" Rory said teasingly," I told you about that"
"Don't mind my brother, he's a little slow"
"We're all a little slow in some areas" Michael shrugged, grinning.
"Yeah, I guess" Jake shrugged," Hey, wanna be my friend?"
"Okay" Michael said.
Jake hugged him.
Michael blinked.
Rory smirked. "This is the beginning of a twisted relationship" He murmured.
Robert blinked," Odd, how you two met"
"Yeah" Michael blinked a little:" It was like…perfect day. I mean…I never had a friend before. No one to talk to, or smile with, or joke with. When I met Rory and Jake…everything changed. I was actually wanted-"
"You're wanted now" Robert pointed out.
"But it's not the same feeling" Michael sighed.
"You're coping with 2 people's death" Robert said, " These things happen. You just need time alone,-"
"My doctor says I need to go and visit Jake one last time before I supposedly move on" Michael said quickly.
Robert blinked at him cautiously," So…are you going to do it?"
Michael looked at him, dull green eyes churning," Should I?"
Robert snorted," Your asking me of all people?"
"Yeah, you're the only one I trust" Michael replied, swallowing.
"Are you prepared for another break down again?" He whispered, staring darkly into his eyes," Can you handle your whole world crashing again?"
Michael nodded," I don't think I have a choice"
"Well then, by all means, get some closure, so maybe then you can regain your…self again, wherever that maybe and then, maybe then you can finally…" He trailed off, patting his leg," Move on"
Michael looked up at him.
"I'll go get some more tea" Robert said, hand slipping away, and got up.
Michael sat there alone, looking at his hands.
Randy smiled knowingly into the phone while Remy yelled at him," I want out of this school, now! Immediately! Can't you see that I'm getting beaten up everyday! And the food is so horrible! And why are you laughing at me?"
"You sound like Matt when he broke his arm"
"Matt broke his arm?"
"Opps, sorry, slipped my mind. He's okay…though, well, as okay as you're going to be, but enough about him, what about this school of yours? I heard that Jake was giving you a riveting time?"
"You know I hate it when you act dumb, though I've been doubting that it's acting-"
"Ouch, brother" Randy said sighing," Look, stop acting so frail and be a good boy and stop complaining!"
"Randy!" Remy snapped," I really don't like it here"
" Little brother, we all do things we don't like. I have to go, give it a week, I'm sure you'll fall in love with it then"
And with that he hung up.
He turned around to see Jake smirking at him.
Marco smiled a little, glancing down at the flowers on his bed and then at the card inside his hand. As Ryan wandered into the room, looking messy, hot, bothered and dazed and flipped down onto the bed, Marco sighed out a long and sullen breathy "Hey"
"Ugghhhmmm" Ryan murmured out.
"Hot enough for you?" Marco asked.
Ryan rolled his eyes," My lungs are incinerated" His eyes rolled up, "Hey, nice flowers"
"They're from Dylan…"
"What?" Ryan asked, siting up.
"They're I'm sorry flowers from Dylan" Marco repeated and then covered his mouth," You didn't know?"
"I'm kind of confused right now" Ryan said, laying back down," I don't need anymore drama, tell me in the morning"
"Drama?"
"Yeah"
"How am I drama?"
"Because you're queening out right now" Ryan sighed, turning over," And your name spells drama"
"It doesn't!"
"Marco, please, spare me"
"Look if you're talking about my neurotic abusive son and his best friend who happens to have severe emotions issues, I can't help that. If your talking about my boyfriend, who happened to be dating one of Hollywood's top actors I can't help it. If you-"
"Marco, shut up!" Ryan snapped," Christ, I have a headache, I've had enough issues on my own and I don't want to hear about anything anywhere near happiness at the current moment, so please, just let me get some sleep!" Ryan clapped his hands and the light on the side of the room snapped off.
Marco blinked in half darkness at him.
I have a little depression problem going on, as usual, so I'm sorry if I seemed drained and not perky in my reviews, like i normally do. I'm working on The Art Of Black Nail Polish. Remeber that story? It was my baby, my first story, I'm editing it and revising it. But if you guys want to check up on me, go to livejournal and go to the user name All For You Remy, no spaces though. You know? I hope you like this chapter as well, xoxx until next time