I just got the mouse to work so I am back. I am crying. because FRNAZ FERDINAND was taken of OF BLOODY NOKIA UNWIRED! But I am not trying to bitch at you guys, enjoy

Chapter 14: An Honest Mistake

People, they don't mean a thing to you

They move right through you-

just like your breath

But sometimes I still think of you

And I just wanted you to know…
My old friend

I swear I never meant for this…

(An: dontn the lyrics always fit the chapter so perfectly)

Panic.

Panic.

Marco covered his mouth. He stared at the TV.

Ryan closed his eyes.

Pete bowed his head.

Andy was crying.

Brian was in shock.

"No…impossible"

Panic.

Panic.

"Daddy?" Tilly asked, looking at the screen.

Mrs. Del Rossi got up quickly and left the room.

Robert sat there in shock, " No…"

Alex threw down the remote control and ran out into the hall way," Jake!" He screamed out, tripping over his own feet and running as fast as he could to the door.

All the boys spilled out of their dorm rooms and into the hall ways to crowd around Jake's door. Alex shoved through them, grabbing Scott's hand from the crowd, pulling him with him and yelling over the shouts "You saw?"

"The whole building did!" Scott cried out," Unbelievable"

"Move!" Alex yelled, getting to Jake's doors and opening it.

Jake sat there crying with Michael's eyes wide open.

"I didn't mean to" He kept whispering.

Alex stalked over to the closet and yanked open the door to find Remy there with the camera, fiddling around. Alex yanked him up and out of it" Do you have any idea-"

The dean stormed in," What the hell is going on!"

Remy flipped the switch off. " Nothing sir"

"I didn't mean to" Jake repeated again as sirens filled the air.

"Who called 911?"

"It doesn't matter" Alex said, " Come on"

The paramedics ran inside and pulled Michael onto a stretcher, along with Jake, Scott and Alex along for the ride. Remy stayed behind as all the boys were rushed back into their rooms to get dressed and then go inside the auditorium for an emergency school wide meeting.

Mrs. Del Rossi placed a hand on Robert's shoulders," Get your coat, come on"

"Where are we going?" He stuttered out.

"The hospital, I called 911" She said, "Bring Tilly too. I already called Marco, everyone else is on their way"

Robert coughed uneasily before grabbing Tilly and her coat and getting up and all but running towards the car. ( I just realized that there would be no one to watch Mark and Mike, but let's just say that Lizzy is old enough to do it)

" Back again?" The doctor smirked at Marco, who was beyond ready to deck the fucker," What happened this time, another break down?"

" His boyfriend stabbed him in his fucking side!" Marco yelled at him," Now go and fix him the fuck up or I swear to god I will trash this motherfuck-" Ryan covered his mouth," Just go and help him!" He yelled.

Dr. Turner smugly turned away and gathered another doctor with him before turning off down the hall.

Ryan let Marco go as he turned around and buried his head into Ryan's chest and Ryan whispered into his ear," It's okay" He whispered, guiding him down into the seat next to Pete and Andy. Brian stood up, shaking his head," Poor Michael"

"Where's Jake?" Marco whispered.

"Over there" Pete pointed to the kid in the corner, hands curled through their hair, quiet and cold, closed off. Alex sat down on one side, Scott on the other, each of them holding his hand.

"I didn't mean to do it" Jake repeated," I didn't mean to…I loved him, I would never…god…"

"Shhh" Alex said, wiping his tears away," We know"

"Yeah…" Scott trailed off as he spotted Marco coming towards them, Ryan, Pete, Andy and Brian side by side. " Umm…here comes Marco" He said to Alex," What are we going to do?"

"I-" Alex stopped when Marco tried to pull Jake up into a sitting position but he just fell limp.

"Do you have any clue what you did?" Marco yelled," You killed him!"

"He's not dead yet" Jake whispered.

"Look at me…look at me!" Marco snapped, Jake's eyes slowly reaching his," Jake…I …god, what did I do? Where did I go wrong?" Marco cried out. " I love you Jake, but I swear to God, this is it, I can't handle this anymore…you need to go back…to Kyle."

"I loved him" Jake murmured, looking away." I didn't mean to"

Marco slapped him," This isn't about you!"

Jake's cheek stung sharply as he looked to the side," I loved him, Marco!" He cried, clinging onto him," Please…don't let me go…" He clung tighter as Marco pulled away," Alesso…"

Marco's eyes watered.

"Please, I need you…dad"

Ryan looked away and pulled Pete with him.

"We'll…go get something to eat" Andy said suddenly, taking Brian with him," You want anything?"

"Shouldn't we stay with Mar-" Brian began when Andy shot him a look " Umm…I'll go help"

"Scott why don't we go get something…anything.. I don't want to bother Jake and Marco" Alex said, getting up. Scott nodded and followed along so it was just Marco standing there, holding his son, both crying for everything.

Don't look at me that way

It was an honest Mistake

Michael's eyes closed softly, slowly, perfectly aligned and together.

He was dreaming.

Blue and white clouds hovered above him, stark pink images and vivid blue lights. He smiled as someone tapped him on the shoulder. " Mikey" Jake called out, his childish voice full of happiness," Guess what? My mommy said I could have a birthday party, do you wanna come?"

"Okie, Jakey" Michael smiled, turning around. He was wearing a blue and black jumper with his curly black hair around his eyes. Jake laughed," Why do you wear your hair like that?"

"I dunno" Michael shrugged," I like it"

"Me too" Jake smiled.

They laid in the grass. Looking at the clouds.

"I see a train!" Michael called, pointing up.

"It looks like a monkey to me" Jake smiled," But yeah, it does look like a train" Jake handed Michael the apple juice box that he was drinking and watched as Michael finished off the rest," No fair Mikey!" Jake giggled, rolling over and tickling him," I want the rest!"

"You gave it to me" Michael stuck out his tongue, laughing as Jake tickled him, making the apple juice squirt out his nose. "Cool!" Jake called out. Michael rolled his eyes and went back to looking at the clouds," I see a coconut"

"I see a heart" Jake pointed.

"I see…Barney" Michael said.

"Where?"

"Right there" Michael pointed

"I see it!" Jake laughed again," This is fun! See Mikey, I made you forget all about your dad…" Jake trailed off, sighing.

Michael looked sad. " It's okay, I just miss him."

"I know…you can share my daddy with me and Rory if you want"

"What is this about sharing?" Rory asked as he sat down next to Michael," Are you two looking at clouds again"

"Yep" Michael nodded." Wanna join us?"

"I'll take a rain check, dad said to tell you two that the dinner's almost done" He got back up and ruffled their hair before walking away.

"I wanna stay here forever Jakey" Michael said, rubbing his sleepy eyes.

"We can…." Jake nodded," Let's do that"

"Okie" Michael nodded," We'll be together forever!"

"Yep" Jake nodded. " That one looks like a strawberry…."

Sometimes, I forget I'm still awake

I fuck up and say these things out loud

The doctors left the emergency room with blood covering them and Dr. Turner pulled off his mask as Jake and Marco walked up to them," So what is it?"

"Well…he doesn't have cancer" He laughed.

Jake was about to punch him but this time Alex held him back," Shut the hell up and tell us the news"

"Well…let's see…from what we can tell, he got stabbed somehow…by a knife, apparently."

Everyone rolled their eyes," What is his diagnosis, dead or alive?

" Well…he's resting, coma like state at the moment, so everything is up in the air, we stitched him up, obviously, and he's going to need some serious pain killers if he does get through this. He's going to be out of it for a while. But first he needs to rest, the more the better, so I think all of you should go home and wait for a few days before you come back so we can tell" Dr. Turner said and then turned away.

Jake felt like crying again.