Dear Diary,
Sorry I haven't written in a few days, I just haven't been in the mood to. Anyway, Jamie's burial is going to be in a few hours, and I'm kinda freaked out. I had to cancel the rest of my tour (not really a big deal to me, but to other people, it was), tell Kat (which really wasn't easy), and tell Jamie's parents. For some reason, I think they actually seemed happy for some reason. Anyway, I decided to write last night because writing was the only thing that could really keep my mind off today. I feel like sharing it with you, so here it is.
-One Big Mistake-
She lives a life of lies,
She thinks it just like a wild ride.
She works all day,
Just to play all night
He spends his days at home,
Trying to keep his secrets.
No one knows about what's going on at home,
Not that anyone cared.
They both reached the end,
But at different times.
One can't handle the pain,
One was driven there.
But as they both jump off,
They see everything they've left behind.
It's all a big mistake.
He's leaving behind his family,
She's leaving her friends and future.
Both of them leaving them all with pain.
She lived a life of lies,
He kept a secret for most of his life.
It never should've happened.
But as they we're pushed too far,
They realized it was all a mistake.
For ending their lives wasn't what they had wanted,
But it was all they had.
I know's it kinda sad, but I had to write it. I really needed to get all of it out somehow! I need to go, I'm getting all teary as you can tell from the teardrops on this page. I really miss Jamie, you know, but I have to let him go. Speaking of going, I have to go. Tommy's waiting in the car.
Always,
Jude
Jude closed up her diary and stuck it in her purse along with a pen. She hoped, for some reason, she would get inspired while she was at the funeral, even though it seemed kind of mean. She heard Tommy honk the car horn once more. Running out the door, she couldn't help but see how much of a mess she had become. Her once bright red hair was now dull and lifeless, you could see the pain in her eyes, and where the mascera had run earlier while she was writing. She studied herself a little longer, as if trying to figure out what to do. She almost felt sorry for herself. As she was about to apply another coat of mascara, she heard Tommy honk to horn and his car door open and slam shut. Walking in the door, Jude saw that Kat had come in. Her eyes were red and watery, and you could tell she had been crying.
"Are we going or not? Becuase I want to get there before they bury him you know." Kat said harshly. Jude had never seen this side of her before. Jude nodded her head sorrowfully.
"Yeah, let's go now. I just needed to think for a second.I just can't believe he's gone." Jude said. Her eyes began to well up with tears. She wiped her eyes before wrapping Kat in a tight hug. Returning the hug, Kat started to cry. Jude just comforted her. It was all she could do. Puling away, she gave kat a small smile.
"Let's go." Jude said before dragging Kat off to the car.
When they were all safely in the car, Tommy could hear jude softly humming "Skin". He sighed. It was going to be a long, hard day for all of them.
A/N: So..you guys like this chappie? lol..please R&R!