Chapter five… I hope you all love it!
Sorry if I took too long by the way.
Suze's POV
When Jesse had gone in, I looked back at my house. I saw Sleepy getting out of his car and going inside. I never thought the day would come when I would miss Sleepy… and I didn't only miss Sleepy, but I missed Dopey too. I guess deep down I always did like my stepbrothers. But I only liked them, nothing more.
Sigh! And now I don't have a chance to show them how much I actually did care for them.
SIGH!
Before, I didn't mind death… I always thought I'd come back as a ghost and live the rest of my life. For me, death was never as final as it was for other people. I guess that was because I was a mediator and I knew about ghosts.
But now that I actually am a ghost, I knew how hard it really is. You get see everyone living, breathing, enjoying their life and all you can do is watch them do so. You see but no one sees you, you hear but no one hears you. You get to see your family deal with your death, grieve over you, wonder how you died and you can't even tell them.
Sigh! Life, or well death, sucks.
Not knowing what else to do, I dematerialized back to the apartment.
When I got there, I saw what a huge mess I had made earlier. There were bits of glass everywhere, all the dishes were broken and I even saw a couple drops of blood on the kitchen floor.
Seeing that made me feel so horrible for what I had done. If there was a chance of Jesse ever having feelings for me, I had just ruined it with my little spasm attack.
Trying to make up for what I had done, I picked up all the glass bits and broken dishes ghost method and put them in the garbage can.
Then I pick up a rag to wipe the blood of the floor with. I bent down and touched the blood, Jesse's blood. It was dried now and kind of disgusting.
I don't know why I even touched it… I used to scream whenever I saw blood before.
If Jesse had AIDs, I would have caught it now. Except that ghosts don't catch AIDs, or any other disease for that matter. And I don't think Jesse had AIDs. You could totally tell that if he ever wanted to have sex, he would use every kind of protection there ever was.
And if we ever had sex, he has nothing to worry about. Ghosts don't have AIDs, or any other STIs. And we don't get pregnant. So me and Jesse can have sex with noth…
Why am I even thinking about this? Of course we're never going to have sex. Out of all the girls in the world who are actually alive, why would he want to sleep with me? J-Lo would have sex with him if he ever asked her to.
I'm so stupid to even think about this…
Jesse isn't an idiot. And only an idiot would ever fall for some one dead.
More reason to hate being a FUCKING ghost.
To take my mind of being a ghost, I went into the bedroom to zone out.
I really miss sleeping and dreaming. I still can close my eyes and zone out, but that's not really sleeping. It's just an illusion, like everything else. When you're a ghost, nothing is real… as far as the rest of the world is concerned, you're not even real.
So I guess you could say I went to illusion sleep… or well illeep.
Tee hee!
I'm going to illeep… I hope I have good illeams.
Man, I need a life… no I really do need a LIFE!
I'm pathetic!
So I went into the bedroom, and lay down on Jesse's bed.
Yum… it smelled like Jesse. It had that fresh, soap-y, guy deodorant-y sent to it.
For reasons beyond me, that sent turned me on. And Jesse wasn't even here. Good thing too. I probably would have ripped his cloths off if he WAS here right now.
Anyways, I closed my eyes and zoned out. Even though I'm a ghost, I still get tired. Or well, I think tired. I guess that's just my human-ness. I'm still not used to being a ghost I guess.
Meh… I have the rest of eternity to.
Time to rest my mind and body and let my soul run wild… though all I have left is a soul but whatever.
Flashback
"Hello Mrs. Ackerman. Is Suze ready?" I heard him from downstairs.
"Hi. I'll call Suze down for you. She should be ready by now."
"Thank you very much," he was polite. I guess I'd never really got to know Kevin very much. I'd always thought of him as Sleepy's hot best friend.
"Suzie, Kevin's here." My mom yelled up to me.
I looked in the mirror to make sure I looked good for my first date with him.
I guess you could say I looked sophisticated in my long black dress. I loved all the little glittery bits on it and jeweled belt-ish thing at the waste. And the silver necklace my mom had got me went great with it.
I'd styled my hair so it fell in curls against my back. I made sure my make up was ok and headed down stairs.
Holy shit!
Stop drooling Suze. You'll ruin your lipgloss.
Kevin looked so HOT standing there with a bouquet of blood red roses. And they were for me.
He was wearing a pair of nice black jeans that seemed to fit him perfectly. He had on a navy blue sweater with a white t-shirt underneath it. Not too formal and not too casual.
"Hi Suze," he said smiling at me.
"Hi," I said walking beside him. I smiled up at him… he was so gorgeous.
He had this golden, brown hair that was slightly curled at the ends. His eyes were this really nice yellowish, green colour and he had the longest eyelashes I had ever seen.
He also had a great build; great abs, big biceps, broad shoulders. And I'm pretty sure he was over 6 feet tall.
Sigh! He's so hot.
And he wasn't only good looking; he was so down-to-earth and sweet. He was such a gentle man.
He was a God and he was all mine! Tee hee…
"Ok, well be careful. Kevin, please have her back by 11:00 and drive safely." My mom started her pre-date talk.
"Of course! Don't worry Mrs. Ackerman, we'll be careful."
"Here Susie, I'll take your flowers in for you. Be careful and have fun."
I handed the roses to my mom.
"Ok mom, bye"
We headed outside and my mom closed the door behind us. When the door was closed, Kevin rapped an arm around my waste.
"You know my mom can still see us." I teased him. Personally, I really didn't care if my mom saw us or not.
And I could tell Kevin didn't care either. He just smiled down at me and walked toward his sleek, silver Mercedes.
Tee hee, he had a Mercedes. My boyfriend was not only extremely hot and sweet, but he was also pretty rich.
I loved him so much, he was so amazing. I feel like he was the perfect guy for me. Even my mom was ok with me dating him even though he was two years older than me.
The only person who didn't want me dating him was Jake. He said that he wasn't good for me. He said I shouldn't be with him and though he might look sweet, I still don't know him very well.
I think he was just jealous because I was dating his best friend. I mean, if he was so bad then why was Jake always hanging out with him?
Whatever, what does he know about guys… he thinks just because he's older he's also smarter. Though I highly doubt that, or I wouldn't have named him Sleepy.
When Sleepy found out that he couldn't convince me into staying away from Kevin, he went on to talking to him. Though he wouldn't be convinced either and they got into this HUGE fight.
And now Jake totally hates Kevin and me. He won't talk to, or even look at me. One morning he even left without taking me. Andy got way pissed at him and grounded him for a week.
Deserves him right for not minding his own business. And when I told him that, he just gave me the dirtiest look I have ever received. And now he's way angry at me.
Whatever, I don't care. All I care about is being with Kevin. And that's what I got in the end…
But I can't help but wonder about Kevin. There has to be something about him that made Sleepy go so far to keep me away from him.
"Here you go Suze," Kevin said holding the door open for me.
"Thanks," I said getting in. His car was so cool. I love having a perfect boyfriend! And Kevin really was perfect.
He started the car and we were on our way. I didn't even know where we were going… I was too distracted to ask.
And if you had seen Kevin you would be distracted too. He was so good looking it hurt to look at him at times.
"Where are we going?" I asked after a few minutes of silence.
I didn't really care about the place, I just wanted to know…
"To this really nice Italian restaurant. They have great food there. I hope you like Italian," he said glancing at me.
"I love Italian."
"Good," he said smiling.
He was such a good driver. Just another thing to add to his perfect-ness.
Sigh… perfect. Something I'll never be!
When we got to the restaurant, Kevin parked the car and we got inside.
Oh my God, it was so nice and romantic inside the restaurant.
The walls were painted this nice maroon colour and the whole restaurant was lighted with candles. It was so nice and cozy!
"What do you think?"
I turned around so I was facing Kevin. I had forgotten he was even there…
"It's really nice. And cozy and romantic." I said looking around.
"What do you say we go find a table then," he asked in that soft silky voice. Whenever he talked it felt like a blanket of softness and warmness was coming out of his mouth.
Poetic much, Suze…
Anyways, we sat at a table for two and waited for a waiter. While waiting, I looked around at the other people in the restaurant. Everyone was dressed so formally in dresses and suits. I guess this was the ultimate date restaurant for rich people.
Five minutes later a waiter showed up with manus.
"May I take your order miss?" he asked me.
Let's see what to have… being the unoriginal person I am, I ordered some spaghetti. Kevin ordered the same thing.
While we waited for the food, we enjoyed our drinks and talked about stuff. The conversation was really awkward and dry. He mostly talked and asked questions, I just answered.
I didn't really know what to talk about with him. We were totally different, yet we were still together.
The food came and we both started eating. We didn't talk much during while eating; Kevin just asked me how I liked the food a couple of times.
When we were both finished eating, Kevin looked at me with this really weird look in his eyes. Like he was trying to read me but he couldn't.
"Um, do I have something on my face?" I hope I didn't, that suck beyond the sucking point.
"No Suze. I was just… never mind. Are you all done eating?"
Ok, what's up with the whole never-mind-the-changing-the-subject thing? Could this date get any more awkward?
"Yeah I'm done eating." I said a little confused. I hated him not telling me what the hell was up. Having some one stare at you is kind of weird.
He smiled at me and moved closer. He moved so close that I could smell his breath… mint-y fresh.
He leaned in and kissed me softly on my cheek.
"Are you having fun?" he whispered in my ear.
I am now… tee hee.
"I guess so…" I said.
He started trailing kisses down my neck. It felt so amazing, like having drops of hot water splatting against your skin. I moved my head so I was facing him and he started kissing my lips.
His kisses were so soft, but passionate and fierce at the same time.
I immediately dragged my arms up to his face. I tangled my fingers in his hair feeling every strand of it.
I felt like I'd died and gone to heaven!
I opened my eyes for a moment to make sure I was still in the restaurant. I saw that there were a couple of people staring at us.
I pulled away quickly, blushing.
"What's wrong Suze?" Kevin asked. Ooh, I think I made him upset.
"Um… nothing. It's just that there are people staring at us here." I said looking down at the ground.
He laughed when he'd heard. What was so funny, it's not like I told him a joke or something.
"Then let's go somewhere were no one will see us." He said getting up. I got up too and followed him out of the restaurant. We got in his car and he started driving.
"So where are we going?" I asked.
"You'll see." He said.
He continued driving to God knows where. Feeling a little tired I leaned against the seat and enjoyed the drive.
Minutes later, I saw that Kevin had started to speed up. And not just a little, a lot.
"Maybe you should slow down." I said.
"Stop worrying you pretty face."
Tee hee, he said I was pretty.
I looked up and saw a traffic light up ahead. The light turned yellow as Kevin was getting closer to it.
What happened to his perfect driving skills?
Kevin sped up even faster the before. There were no cars, so I guess it was ok…
No, it wasn't. We could so have an accident right now.
I felt my heart beating faster then ever. I made sure I had my seat belt on just incase.
"Kevin, SLOW DOWN." I yelled. This was so ruining my date. Why couldn't he just drive like before?
"Don't worry Suze. There are no cars around."
I looked up at the traffic light and saw that it was red now. I looked around and I saw another car speeding…
"Kevin, stop the FUCKING car. There is a car coming the other way."
"Stop worrying. We'll pass him."
I looked and saw the other car getting closer.
Oh my GOD!
"Kevin please stop, we're going to crash." I said. I was crying now, I just knew we were going to crash.
"Shut up Suze. You're such a…"
SMACK!
The other car had just crashed into the car on Kevin's side. The door had smashed and there was broken glass every where.
When I was sure I was ok, I looked around at Kevin. Though I wish I hadn't…
His face was totally covered in blood. He was unconscious and his skin was as white and snow.
"Kevin. KEVIN."
No response. I undid my seatbelt and moved toward him.
He wasn't breathing… HE WASN'T BREATHING!
"Kevin, breath. Please breath." I said slapping his face.
I put my ear against his chest. I moved around trying to locate his heart but I couldn't find it.
"OH MY GOD. Please be alive. Wake up, Kevin please get up."
I looked up and saw that his face was as white as ever. I continued looking for his heart.
Why couldn't I hear anything? Where the FUCK is his heart?
Not knowing what else to do, I started screaming as loud as I could.
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