This is the first OTH fic I have ever written, it just kinda popped into my head. So I am sorry if it's rubbish!
Its AU really, in a way, it could fit in anywhere. The storyline involved didn't actually happen. I guess that you would have to read it first. PLEASE REVIEW
ShinyNewShoes
xoxoxoxoxoxo
I was always there for her. Always. And that one day, that one time I went away and left her, this had to happen. Why? Why did you do it? I loved you. I will always love you, for god's sake, you were my world! And I'm sorry you went thorugh what you went through, I never meant for anything bad to happen to you. And I am so, so sorry I wasn't there to protect you, sweetheart. When I said I had to get away from you, I didn't mean it, I promise. I promise! I lied to you.
And you lied to me.
Why didn't you tell me? Why couldn't you talk to me about it? I would have held you, told you everything would be OK. Shh, there's no need to cry, baby! I'll dry your tears. I'll stroke your hair until you fall asleep, the way I used to. And I promise you, I will never let anyone hurt you again. Hurt your memory, hurt your spirit left behind. I'm sitting in your room. I love this place, but I hate it too. Yes, I know, that doesn't really work, does it? But it does. It smells of you, it sounds like you. You hair is on the pillow. Beautiful. The only thing left. You destroyed yourself.
No! No. I'm sorry. It wasn't your fault. Something bad happened to you. Someone hurt you in ways I can't imagine. Do you know how much it hurts me to say that, to think that? And I could not help you. I couldn't soothe your pain, I couldn't stop those tears from falling down your perfect face. And i'm thinking of the times we'd talk, right into the early hours. All I want to do is hug you, and stop you hurting. But you're gone. Gone. I hope you don't remember what happened, wherever you are now. I hope you are free. That's what you wanted, right? You didn't want to be marked by the memory.
You should have TOLD ME! You let yourself wallow in your own misery for days. Days! How could I not notice? God, I am so, so dumb! Days of not sleeping, not eating, not talking, not breathing easy. That was you, then. This is me, now.
And I am so sorry. I never meant for anything bad to happen to you. I love you, and I wish you were here with me now. I wish I could take all of your pain away.
Are you an angel now? You'd make a perfect angel. Go be free in a happier place, in Heaven. The world wasn't good enough for you. It drove you out. You drove you out.
The perfect blonde haired angel. Blonde curls. I always said it looked like angel-hair.
I'm staring at a picture of us together so hard my eyes burn. Peyton and Brooke 2003. You're smiling, and I'm smiling and there's no pain. There's nobody hurting you. And I'm coming. I promise.
I won't be long.
So...did you like it? PLEASE REVIEW! Thanksss!