Chapter 2

"Earth to Rory…Come in Rory…" Dean yelled at his girlfriend. "I got the movies."

"Oh, Dean, hi when did you get back?"

"Two minutes ago, Lane had to go home and your mom told me to tell you she's going to Luke's and she'll be back in a couple of hours."

"Oh, okay." It was weird all of a sudden Rory began to feel uncomfortable being in her house with Dean alone. She tried to brush off the feeling. "So..um what movies did you get?

"I got Hide and Seek and the Boogey Man, I thought it might be fun to watch a scary movie together."

"You know what Dean. I am not really in the mood to watch a movie anymore. Do you want to go to Luke's?"

"Actually Rory, I thought maybe we could hang out together here. I mean it's been a while since we've been alone together."

It started to come back to her. That feeling in her stomach she had been getting around Dean lately, and it wasn't butterflies. It was nerves bad nerves. She remembered now why she had avoided being alone together for so long.

Flashback

"It was really great of your mom to let us have the house to ourselves tonight."

"Yeah, well our one year anniversary doesn't come around all the time now does it." She replied.

Suddenly he leaned down and kissed her. She wrapped her arms around him and deepened the kiss. He pulled away.

"Rory, wait a second. I have something I need to ask you. I've been giving this a lot of thought and I think now is as good a time as any."

"Dean you're not proposing are you?" Rory joked.

"No, but I do think it's time we take our relationship to the next level." He replied.

"What do you mean, the next level?" She asked confused.

He bent down and kissed her gently. She looked up at him still confused.

"Well, I think that we should sleep together. Be each others firsts." "Well actually your first" he added with a smirk.

"I don't know Dean. I mean that's kind of a big deal. Maybe we should discuss the pros and cons first, you know make a list."

"Rory you're being ridiculous you don't make a list of pros and cons before having sex. Do you love me or don't you?"

" I-I do l-love you." When she heard the words aloud she couldn't believe how un-convincing they were, yet for him it seemed to suffice.

"Ok, so then what is there to think about. We are both responsible seventeen year olds who are in love and ready to take their relationship to the next level."

Suddenly he pushed her up against her bedroom door and forced his tongue into her mouth.

It used to be enough. It used to be enough for her to melt into his arms. There was no electricity no sparks. She just wanted to push him away.

Suddenly his hand was going up the front of her shirt. She grabbed his hand and took it out from under her shirt. He refused to give up that easily. He just did it again. He kissed her with more force. Her lips felt limp and her tongue was dry. Yet he kept going. He took his hand out from under her shirt and started fumbling with the buttons trying to get it to open, not even caring about her feelings just trying to satisfy his own wants. Everything was happening to fast for her to react. She wanted him to get off of her. Her muscles just wouldn't function. She was in shock. Suddenly she found herself pushing him away.

"What, what's wrong?"

"Dean I am not ready for this, I am sorry."

"But Rory, come on I promise it'll be fun. I have protection are you afraid of getting pregnant?

"Dean, I am just not ready."

"Come on Rory, you know you want me."

The thing was she did want him…to get the hell off of her.

He tried one more time. He was never a quitter. She had always admired this about him until now.

"Dean, please, leave."

Frustrated, he left. She was scared and angry she knew she should break up with him but instead she chalked it up to teenage hormones. She knew he would never do anything like that again. He didn't talk to her for days after that. Then her forgave her. HE forgave HER. It should have been the other way around.

End Flashback

That was two months ago. She had never told her mother. She had never told Lane. She remembered why she was scared. Why she wanted more than anything to leave.

"Rory…Rory…You keep Spacing out. Maybe this will keep you from spacing out again."

He leaned down and kissed her. It was a soft kiss. Nothing like what had happened a few months ago. But it was enough to make her feel sick. She looked at him, she felt disgusted.

"You know what Dean, I have a lot of homework to do, I have to finish typing an essay for English, so I think we should just call it a night."

"Actually I wouldn't mind hanging out and watching you write."

She reluctantly agreed after he begged and pleaded. What used to be so appealing about Dean now seemed utterly pathetic.