Chapter 5: Depths of Despair

A/N: So…. Thanks for all the reviews and without further ado let's begin.

Oh, and by the way, it's the next day and Lily has been awake all night crying into her pillow. Pretty much, Lily and James upset and all that, sorry if it's clichéd.

She was afraid.

That's what it all came down to. She was afraid that if gorgeous-wrapped in a towel-smart-athletic-funny James Potter ever found out that she loved him he'd break her heart.

She loved him. The thought alone sent her running for cover. But dating him didn't seem to be a viable option, since she overreacted about everything.

Once again, she buried her head in the tear soaked pillow. But was not dating him the alternative? After one day of being with James and then breaking up with him how could that make the world seem so empty?

Someone pulled back the curtains around her bed and for a moment she thought it was James. As it turned out, it was Rebekah.

"Uh…Lily are you okay? I know we've only been friends for like a day, but I'm pretty good at listening, if you want to talk."

With a groan Lily dropped her head to the pillow.

"How could I love him? We've only been dating for a day."

"Well, if you don't mind my saying so, I don't see it either."

Lily's head shot up, "What?"

"I mean you two are totally different people and he doesn't really seem your type."

"You haven't known me very long, that's probably why you think that. Actually, he's just the kind of guy I'd choose."

"If you say, so it's just you didn't like him for so long, and he's played so many pranks."

"He's done a lot of nice things too. In fourth year he helped Hagrid mend one of the school owl's wings and in my first day at Hogwarts he helped me find the Charms classroom."

"I guess he sounds okay, I guess, if you're sure…"

"I'm sure."

Lily turned her head to see Rebekah grinning hugely. "Sounds to me like you've got yourself convinced."

Lily grinned back and threw a pillow at her. "But what if I've pushed him away? What should I say?"

"I'd go with 'James, I love you' and then snog him, he seems to respond well to that."

"I really hope you're right, although one look at me and he might run the other way."

"Now that you mention it, you do look rather unfortunate looking."

Lily jumped up and hurried to look in her mirror. Then she groaned, "How can I make him talk to me now?"

"James, come on, we'll be late for breakfast."

"Go on without me."

Sirius pulled open his bed curtains and James winced at the bright sunlight.

"What?"

"I'm not hungry."

Sirius sat on the edge of the bed. "That's a first. Alright, I'll play along, why?"

"Lily broke up with me."

"And ripped out your stomach in the process?"

"Yesterday was the best day of my life, Sirius. Leave me alone, I'm in the very depths of despair."

"Lily wouldn't give you the time of day last week, what is the problem now?"

"Last week I still had hope, the future. That's all gone now. I never want to leave this bed again." James said all this in a fervent voice.

"Whoa, are you mad? Prongs, there are other things in this world besides Lily."

"Not for me, there aren't. You don't get over Lily Evans in a day. I'm pretty sure you don't get over her ever."

"You've got it bad, but you'll have to get up for classes."

"Tell them I'm sick."

"What?"

"Don't tell me you're getting morals now."

"No, of course not, it's just…."

"If you don't hurry you'll miss breakfast."

Grudgingly, Sirius left although James could hear him muttering something that sounded suspiciously like "mad as a hatter" as the door closed.

A/N: I took depths of despair from L.M. Montgomery, f.y.i. Hoped you like the next chapter is almost done, but you know what you have to do. Anyway, thanks for the love guys. The next chapter should be really funny, too. If you didn't review feel free to skip to the bottom.

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