What If?

Chapter Sixteen

Wanna Know How You Feel

Emma, Shay and Alex took the limo back to the hotel. When they got back, Alex and Emma went up to the pent house and Shay went to go talk to a manager.

Shay walked up to the manager's desk, "Hi. I'm Shayna Whalen. I'm staying from Pent House A."

The manager stood up, "I'm Clark. How can I help you?"

"Well, I now have two friends staying with me. I'm sure you've noticed that on a normal day there are seven people in and out of my room. So, first I would like a 4 bedroom suite with a lounge area and living room with a TV area. Along with a kitchen and a good sized table. Second, I would like all of my friends to be treated as a guest and not like scum. The security guards give them trouble every time they come in. It's rude."

Clark nodded, "Of course. Ms. Whalen. I'll let the guards know to leave them alone. How long do you wish to stay?"

Shay thought for a minute, "How about I pay you biweekly?"

"That's fine. You still have more than a week paid up. Would you like to put any more money down?"

"Sure, I'll give you $2,000. I think $1,000 a week is fair. That's also including breakfast and dinner, right?"

Clark nodded.

"Good." Shay filled out a check for $2,000 and gave it to Clark.

Clark smiled, "Your room will be ready in about an hour."

"Alright. I'll go get my stuff together."

"Would you like any help?"

"No, I think I can manage. Thank you."

Shay went up to her room and go pack up her things. She opened the door and found her friends hovering around the bar, "Guys! Let's go. I changed to a 4-bedroom suite. Back up."

They all nodded and packed up the random stuff they had over.

Shay walked over to Emma and Alex, "Lex, we need to get to your house and get you some clothes. You, too, Em. You didn't grab anything when we left."

Alex sighed, "OK. But, we're bringing the guys with us when we go to my house."

Emma nodded, "You gonna talk to your mom?"

Alex laughed, "Like she would remember adopting me."

Shay walked away from them to pack up her stuff. She went through every draw to make sure she had everything. She ended up with triple the clothes she had when she first went to the hotel.

After everyone finished getting their stuff together, a bell hop knocked on the door with luggage carts. The guys loaded it up and Shay took the key to the suite.

They found it easily. It was right by the pool. After about 3 hours of unpacking, they headed to Alex's house. The guys in Jay's car, and the girl's in Shay's car.

When they arrived at Alex's house, all the lights were off. They all followed Alex inside. After Alex let them in, Jay walked up the stairs to Alex's room, first. Just in case. The house was empty. And within minutes Alex had packed everything she owned.

Next, they went to Emma's house. Emma decided to just climb through the window and grab her clothes. She walked over to bed and there was a box on it, that said 'Shayna and Alexis'. She picked it up and put it in her bag. She threw her stuff out the window and Spinner helped her put it all in the trunk.

A few hours later, everyone was pretty much asleep. Emma and Spinner went to bed almost right after they got back. Sean and Ellie went back to their apartment. Craig was asleep in Alex's room. Alex, Jay and Shay sat in the lounge area, just shootin' the shit.

"So, Jay...have you always had a thing for sisters?" Alex asked, half drunk.

Shay let her body fall to the floor in laughter.

Jay rolled his eyes and took a sip of his Smirn Off, "Hey, I didn't know you guys were sisters! I'm innocent."

Shay and Alex were rolling on the floor, laughing. Shay looked at him, "Innocent my ass!"

"I hate drinking with chicks!" Jay got up and walked over to a shelf. He saw the box that Emma took out of her bag earlier, "Hey, you guys gonna look at this?"

Shay and Alex both got up and walked over to Jay, "Sure. Why not?"

They brought the box back over to the floor. Shay looked at it closely, "Wait, this box was in Spike's dresser...I was helping Emma look for some weed...But there was a lock on it when I found it."

"Well, it's unlocked now. Let's take a look."

Shay and Alex carefully opened it. It was full of pictures and hospital bracelets.

Jay picked up a picture, "Look, it's you guys and Emma."

Alex grabbed the picture from him, "She actually allowed people to take pictures of us?"

Shay sighed picking up another picture, "Maybe...Maybe she was going to keep us?"

Jay got up and sat on the couch. He quickly fell asleep.

"Shay, look there's an envelope here with our names on it." Alex helped up and envelope that said Shayna Michelle and Alexis Danielle. They both moved closer to each other to read it.

June 25, 1988

My dear girls,

I'm sorry that this happened. I'm sorry that I had to give you up. Please forgive me. You don't understand how hard it was to watch that lady take you both away. She promised you would both be adopted together. I hope she didn't lie. It's so quiet now. Your sister, Emma Christine is such a quiet baby without the two of you. Your grandmother says it's for the best. I just don't know. I'm so young. I knew I wouldn't be able to handle one baby. So, imagine my surprise when you both came. I love you, both. Don't ever forget that. I don't know when this letter will reach you. Or if it ever will. If it does, I hope it fines you both well and happy.

Love Always,

Your mother,

Christine

Shay and Alex looked at each other and both said, "Wow."

They kept looking through the box. Alex got mad when they finished and threw it against a wall. When it fell, something fell out.

"Um, Alex? Something fell out."

They both walked over to it and picked up another envelope.

My Girls,

I'm sorry. There's not much more I can say. After, you both were gone, I would dream about you finding your way back to me. I dreamt that we would all live happily ever after. But, as I got older, those dreams stopped. In their places were nightmares filled with you both crying. Some would be of you both with your new family. Laughing together. Without me or Emma. I was promised you would both be together. Now, I know you weren't. Alex, I'm sorry you've been abused almost your whole life. I hate thinking about it. Shayna, I'm glad you had a good life, and I 'm sorry your parents died. Nothing I can say will make this feeling of betrayal go away. We can't pretend. We have to talk about this. Please, don't hate me. I hate myself enough without you both hating me. Always remember, I've never stopped loving you. There hasn't been a day I never thought about you both and what it would have been like if none of this happened.

You three have seventeen years of catching up. As do we. I want to know everything about your lives. Just let me know when you are ready.

Love Always,

Your mother,

Christine

Alex and Shay sat in silence. They didn't know what to say. Alex stood up, "I'm going to go to bed. It's getting late."

Shay looked at the clock, "Getting late? It's been late. It's 2 a.m."

Alex laughed, "Night, Shay."

"Night."

Shay watched Alex walk into her room and she turned to a sleeping Jay. She walked over to him and lightly shook him, "Come on. Let's go to bed."

Jay opened his eyes, "I'm in bed..."

Shay laughed softly, "No, hun. You're on the couch. I'll help you."

Shay pulled Jay up and helped him into her room. He flopped down on the bed, wide awake, "Thanks, babe."

Shay threw a pillow at him, "You ass! I just carried your fat ass in here and you were awake?"

Jay nodded.

"I so hate you."

"No you don't." Jay pulled her next to him.

"Sure I do."

Jay smiled, and pulled her closer, "No, you don't."

"How would you know?"

"Because I know."

"Know what?"

"That you love me."

Shay rolled her eyes, "And how do you know that?"

Jay pulled her face closer to his, "Because I love you."

Jay kissed her, and Shay pulled away, "I love you, too."

Kinda of a dull chapter. I just wanted to update before I go to bed. I'm hyped up on tons of candy and caffine...but my sugar high is fading...So, r&r!