Those Eyes
Chapta 2: Unexpected and Expecting
Faye's POV
I cried pitifully. I hate remembering the pleasure. It hurt so bad to know the truth.
I woke up late the next morning. Spike was in the living room, having an awful hangover. He ignored me when I sat next to him.
"Spike, what's wrong?"
He grunted and laid his head back to stare at the ceiling. Hurt.
"Spike… You um, didn't say anything."
"Hm?"
"Last night… when I said I loved you." My heart throbbed when I saw him flinch at the word love. No…
"We shouldn't have done it."
"W-what?" I asked weakly. This can't be happening.
"We shouldn't have had sex. It was a mistake."
"Why!" I looked at him half desperate, half damaged.
"I'm sorry Faye. I just don't love anymore. Not after… her."
I felt like I had been slapped. He meant Julia. He was practically her love slave. Imagine that, a dead woman that still has the power to enslave him. She's dead and he can't understand that.
I drew back from the couch, trembling. My eyes were watering. He couldn't even look at me, but I refused to cry in front of him. I shook my head and laughed insanely.
He glanced at me, confused. I backed away from him and toward my room. I knew he would say something any second. No, he won't get the last word.
"You're right Spike! Guess an easy fuck like me can never be loved!" I dashed into my room and locked the door.
"Faye! Faye, let me in!" I fell to the floor crying as he pounded at the door. I wanted to hurt myself. The belt lay in the corner… I grabbed it and began lashing my back. Insanity.
I knew I was sick, but I wanted him to know how much he hurt me.
Jet came and tore Spike away from my door. I leaned my head against the door and could hear them yelling in the kitchen. Quietly, I gathered my things into a suitcase and waited.
I waited until all the lights were out and the ship fell silent before making my escape. Breathlessly, I crept out of my room and to my ship, Redtail. My grip tightened around my gun as neared the ship.
"What are you—" I heard his voice and immediately spun around. My gun pointed to his head. Don't you dare move!
"Do not follow me, I am leaving." I backed away, gun still pointed at his sad face. When I felt Redtail behind me, I leapt inside and jammed the keys into the ignition.
As I sped away, I secretly wished he had followed. He knew I didn't have the guts to shoot him… At least it would've meant he cared.
0000000000
Money was scarce. I was able to get a few small bounties…
After a few months I knew it had happened. I was scared shitless. First of all, I didn't have any shelter but the Redtail. Second, I barely earned enough to support myself. What was I supposed to do? I was pregnant with Spike's child.
Months past. I was good to the baby. I gave up smoking and drinking, yes, even coffee. And damn let me tell you, I'm a complete bitch without my coffee.
However, fear stayed with me everyday. I had been to some doctors a few times and it was easy to see I was due very soon. I didn't have a clue what to do except…
I looked down at my bulging belly. More than my pride was at stake. A few clicks on the Redtail navigation system and I knew where to go. Bebop was pretty close to where I was at the time.
After starting the engine, I punched some buttons and pulled on the steering levers. Bebop, here I come.
0000000000
The Redtail's old landing space was left empty, so I plopped my ship down in the spot. I sat there for maybe a minute, hyperventilating. Who even knows why I was so scared… Spike… Damn you!
Jet came out as I slowly crawled out of Redtail. He saw my stomach and stood there in awe. My eyes pleaded to him.
"Come in, Faye."
"…Thank you Jet. I didn't know where else I could go."
"Broke?"
"Oh that doesn't even explain the half of it." He smiled wearily at me as I followed him inside.
"Er… When is it due?" we arrived in the kitchen and I sat down at the table. He was preparing me something to drink. I hope he isn't dumb enough to give me anything alcoholic.
"In a week. I've had many contractions and false labor a few days ago."
"Oh my God. Were you scared?"
"To death. I was all by myself, just cruising along. After it happened I knew I needed to go somewhere. I couldn't give birth in a ship! But, I can't afford staying in a hospital."
"When the time comes, we'll take you. None of us know how to—ahem—deliver a baby, but you should stay here for now." He nodded and handed me some hot milk. Great, my favorite…
"Hey Jet, who's here?" Spike came in and froze. I knew he probably would have insulted me if he hadn't seen my stomach.
"W-who's the father?" he said in shock, not even saying hi.
"Some guy I know… I don't want to talk about it, Spike. I'm just gonna have my kid and then I'll leave."
Spike relaxed a little, obviously having no clue it was his kid. How dense can someone be?
"I never knew you wanted a baby, Faye." Jet said curiously.
"Well I didn't really plan it, but there's no way in hell I'll get rid of him. I will not let go of this responsibility!" I felt strong saying those words.
"You said 'him'? It's a boy?" Jet asked.
"Yes, it's a boy. I've been to a few doctors when I had the money… I saw the sonogram."
Awkward silence passed between us three until Jet suggested I go lay down while he made something for dinner. I struggled to stand up. This child was heavy!
"Here, let me help you to your room…" Spike offered his hand.
"No thanks. I'm used to this." I ignored his outstretch hand and hobbled to my old room.
"This is gonna be a long week." I mumbled before closing my eyes, enjoying the comfort of a real bed.
0000000000
Days went by with Spike always questioning me about the father. I never let him know, too scared of what might happen. No, I would not let him hurt my baby emotionally!
This child… my child was all I had left. I loved him with everything I had left in me. I was going to have a family for the first time.
"Do I know the father?" Spike's never-ending questions. Grrr.
"You might." I replied dully.
"Does he love you?"
No response.
"Do you love him?"
"Spike please just leave me alone."
"H-he raped you? Didn't he!"
"No you stupid baka! We got together and it… it just happened."
"Swear?" he didn't believe me.
"Why do you have to do this shit? I asked you to come off! If I wanted to tell you, I would." Patience no longer existed to me. I was tired of it.
"Don't have to be a bitch about it." He mumbled and I laughed coldly.
"You would know, right?" Spike opened his mouth but choked. Why do I feel like I just pissed myself?
"Your-your water broke!" I looked down and felt myself turn white.
0000000000