When we got there he closed and locked the door…Mark sat me down on the couch…and handed me a picture of a beautiful blonde with brown eyes… (that's not genetically possible…she had to be bottled blonde)…Mark was pacing back and forth in front of me like a caged animal ready to pounce…I stayed perfectly still just looking at the picture…
I said, "This is Sara isn't it?"
Mark said, "Yup…4 years ago…I met and fell in love with that woman…we got married after a very short 3 week romance…but we were happy…13 months ago, she comes to me and tells me she's pregnant…I'm going to be a father…no surprise…it's not the first time…I have two other sons I rarely see from my previous marriage…I was ecstatic…I couldn't believe fatherhood was gracing me again…but this time it was with a woman I loved more then anything in my life…including my career…If at any point in my life Sara wanted me to quit…I was fully prepared to hand Vince McMahon my walking papers…Sara had been involved with a story line with Diamond Dallas Page a month in advanced to her finding out she was pregnant…writers assured me it was done and over…there wouldn't be a sequel…but three days after she found out she was 6 weeks pregnant…they decided to give it one more tussle…I was against it and thought Sara was too…but she changed her mind…said she'd do this one last Pay Per-View…and then that would be it until she had the baby…unless it was just to make an appearance…no fighting or getting physical…"
Mark took a deep breath and paced a little more…and continued, "So we went to the Pay Pre-view…it called for her to climb up on the cage during my hell in a cell match with Page…she didn't care she was a tom boy…it didn't bother her a bit…and I figured if it didn't bother her and she was comfortable…I'd go with it…towards the ending point of the match…both me and page were on top of the cage…and so was Sara…Now the script called for Page to be chasing after her…and me stalking after Page…so that's what we were doing…I grabbed him...socked him…he bumped into Sara…and as she was falling over we both tried to grab her…but she fell 20 feet off the cage to the steel ramp below us…"
Mark sat down on the coffee table with his head in his hands and let out a heavy ass sigh and said, "She was dead before she even got to the hospital…but the doctors still tried everything they could to help…but it was no use…both her and the baby were dead."
I looked over and Mark had slow tears sliding down his cheeks…I crawled over to the coffee table and touched his knee…he never moved…I said, "Mark I'm so sorry…Why didn't you tell me?" Mark stood up and walked away whipping his tears away like they were never there and said, "Why…so you could feel sorry for me…and pity me…I don't need that shit …"
I stood up and said, "I don't feel sorry for you…and I don't pity you…but you've been going through something the last couple of months…and you didn't want to talk about it…but Mark you've got to let it out sometimes…because if you hold it in…it's going to get worse and worse…and you'll go from being depressed, to being angry…to eventually self destruct mode…and I don't want to see that happen…I watched my mother go through it for 7 years…I will not stand by and watch someone else I care for…slowly kill themselves without realizing it…the only difference between you and my mother, is she tried to take me with her…And sometimes I'd like to thank her…because I didn't have to see the bad things going on around me…but sometimes I hate her…cause I missed all the good things."
Mark said, "It's just life little girl…that's the hand God dealt me and Sara…that's it…" I said, "Stop calling me that…I'm not a little girl…I'm far from it…I saw more in the last 13 years then I could ever imagine…and I didn't need my vision for any of it." Mark said, "What do you want from me…you want me to break down crying and tell you everything happens for a reason? You want me to confide in you because you remind me of Sara…We'll you're not her and you could never replace her."
I said, "I don't want to be her…and I don't want to replace her Mark…I'm just a girl standing here telling a guy she's trying to be his friend…Why would I ever want to replace Sara…it's obvious when you think about her she brings you nothing but pain and heartache…If I'm going to be that big of a burden on you…then hell no I don't want to be her…"
It got quiet…