I don't own the SVU character's. Only the original one's.
A/N this chapter contains the N word
"This isn't the answer, it won't help you get over it." She released the hug and then left leaving Serena with silent tears streaming down her face.
Sarah wait" Serena said as Sarah was going out the door. Sarah turned around and looked at her
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to snap at you. I'm just a little"
"Serena it's okay, you don't have to explain" Sarah said cutting her off. She nodded then got up
"hey whos gonna pay for all the drinks vodka lady had?" the bartender said crossing his arms. Sarah went up to the counter and gave him a twenty.
"Keep the change" she said heading back over to Serena. They both went out side and then they looked at each other.
"Ready to go?" Sarah asked getting out her keys.
"No, I want to have a few more drinks. Theres a bar near by that I heard from some one that has a really good long tea" Serena said drunkingly.
"No offense Serena but, its only your second night of drinking, are you sure you really want a long island ice tea?"
"yes. And what are you saying, that I can't hold my liquor?" Serena said stumbling.
"Yes, thats exactly what I'm saying" Sarah said crossing her arms. Serena glared at her
"well, your a little hippie, and not even Kennedy would fuck you."
"any one ever tell you your really mean when you drink?"
"no, and so what if I am. I have every right to be."
"look Serena, I know that what you went though was horrible, but-"
"but what? what if your going to tell me something you should just say it. And frankly you have no right to tell me what to do, and your just a big stupid bitch, so there" she added. Then she passed out.
"Oh my god Serena" Sarah cried out trying to catch her before she hit the floor, she didn't. Sarah bent down to lift her, but she couldn't.
"What the hell happened?" Brian said pulling up and getting out of his car
"what the hell do you want?" Sarah asked angrily. Brian smiled then went over to her.
"Besides you, I want to help Rena. Now I'll ask you again, what happened?"
"I don't need any help" Serena said still on the floor. Brian looked at Sarah who mouthed drunk.
"Well, I was lyeing on the ground, drunk, I would like some help." Brian said looking down at her
"leave me alone" she said still on the ground, her drunken voice mumbled because of the ground.
"All right" Brian said and began to walk away, but Sarah grabbed his arm and glared at him.
"Help me" she said moctioning to Serena
"she said she didn't want to be helped"
"she does, she just doesn't know it." Brian looked Sarah up and down
"what will you give me if I do help her?" Sarah glared at him
"how about I don't kick your ass, and you know that I can, so just help me please"
"fair enough." Brian bent down and scooped her up
"no let me go" Serena mumbled
"sorry Rena, no can do." Serena groaned and then passed out again. Brian laid her down on his back seat and shut the door. Then he turned to Sarah
"Can I offer you a ride stranger" he said opening his passenger door.
"I'd rather get an afro. Drive her home safe" then Sarah got in her car and drove off. Brian shock his head and got in the car and drove off. In the back Serena started groaning again
"no, no stop" she mumbled. Brian pulled over on the side of the rode and looked back at her
"hurry up, just don't puke in the car, I just got it cleaned." But Serena didn't get up. Instead, she just started thrashing around
"no, please, stop ow, no please" she said thrashing even more.
"Holy shit" he said getting out of the car and going to the back seat and opened the door.
"Rena, Rena wake up" he said shaking her awake. Serena fought against him, but he grabbed her arms
"no let go of me!" she yelled still fighting him.
"wake up" he yelled giving her one quick slap across the face. Serena botled up and looked around.
"Whats going on? she said pulling out of his grasp and going to the other end of the side of the car.
"You passed out, then woke up, then passed out again, then you started screaming and moving around. I woke you up though" he added with a small sense of pride in his voice. She looked confused for a second then pushed him out of the way and got out of the car. Brian looked away to give her some privacy
"had one two many did ya?" he said as she got up and wiped her mouth
"shut up" she said sitting down on the ground. She felt tears in her eyes and wiped them away
"don't cry, crying just make you weak" she told herself. she wiped them away then stood up. Brian was looking at her kindly
"are you okay Rena?" he asked kindly
"I'm fine just take me home" she said getting in the passenger side of the car. He nodded then also got in the car. They drove off with out speaking a word. Brian kept looking over at her
"You can't just keep this all bottled up inside you, one day its all just going to explode like the H bomb, and it won't be pretty" he said suddenly.
"I'm not keeping it bottled up. In fact, I'm useing the bottle to help me she said not looking at him
"not funny Rena" he said sternly.
"I'm just joking, look, I'm not going to flip out one day and lose it. I'm fine, and I don't need to talk about it" she said a little bit angrily. Brian rolled his eyes
"yes you will. Remember that one chick Kayla Stanza? how she was raped, and then one day in class, the teacher told us that she committed scuicide. Well turns out that she never got any help at all. And I don't want you to happen to you."
"Nothing is gonna happen, so will you please just shut up!" she yelled. She mumbled something
"um what?"
"I said let me out"
"but I promised Sarah I'd drive you home safely"
"I am home you idiot!" she yelled pointing out the window. Brian looked out the window and saw the college.
"Oh well, I'll walk you in" he said unbuckling his seat belt
"I'm fine" she said getting out of the car. She headed for the college and looked around
"it's the college, I'm perfectly safe." But she couldn't get the feeling of fear out of her.
"Calm down, it's fine. Just walk to the doors, you'll be fine." She looked around and walked for a second then broke out to a run. She ran to the doors and swung them open. Once inside she leaned against the door and breathed for a moment
"damn it get your self together Sernea." She stood there for a moment before she headed to the elevator. She rode up to her room and was thankful that there was no one else in there with her. When she got to her floor, she got out and then walked to her room and unlocked it. She saw that she had messages on her answering machine.
"You have two new messages" the robotic voice on the answering machine said
"Mrs Benson, this is the dean. You haven't been in any of your classes in two days, please come to see me tomorrow at nine a clock in the morning to talk about this, thank you." Serena groaned, she was the valedictorian, but she hated the dean. She deleted the message and played the other one.
"Hello Serena, this is your mother. Please give me a call, you haven't in such a long time. You probably won't even get this message because some nigger probably stole your phone. Oh well, if you do, witch I doubt, call me. Bye Serena." Serena rolled her eyes. Her mother and father were major bigots. Serena deleted that one to and laid down on her bed, but then she lifted her head suddenly
"I haven't told my mom yet. Do I have too? She'll probably just flip out and fuss over me" she thought to herself.
"Why the fuck did this have to happen to me!" she yelled out loudly. Her door opened and a girl stuck her head in.
"Are you okay, I heard yelling?"
"get the fuck out!" she yelled at the girl
"sorry" she said shutting the door behind her. Serena ran a worried hand through her hair, then got up and went to the mini fridge that was in her room. She opened it and looked through it, and smiled when she saw what she was looking for. A bottle of beer that Sarah had brought over last week when she visited. The dean was always checking Sarah's room, but since Serena was the valedictorian, she didn't check it as much, so Sarah sometimes brought beer over here and stored it in her fridge. Serena opened the bottle and took a long sip.
"Thats better" she said as she sat back down on her bed and drank the beer. After she finished it, she went back o the fridge but didn't find any more.
"Damn it" she said as she shut the door. She laid back on her bed and covered up.
"Why the hell did this happen to me. I didn't do anything to anyone. Well thats just it, I didn't do anything" she said to herself as she felt tears roll down her face again.
"No, I'm not going to cry, I'm not going to cry" but she felt more tears roll down
"damn him! Damn him and his whole family! Damn him, damn his parents, damn all of his little devil children!" she thought to herself. Then she fell asleep thinking the same thought over and over. Damn him, damn his parents, and damn his children. All of his children.
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