If I can't have her, neither can you!
Summary: Lilly had a sad life until a mystery man popped up. The only thing is he's hiding something.
When I say falling, it's figuratively
Last Time: "You're glad, right James?" Nyla asked suddenly. James looked up and frowned.
"About what?" James asked curiously.
Nyla smiled sadly and tugged atone of her loose curls. "That Lily and Tom made up."
James sighed and rubbed at his eyes. "Yeah, I'm glad." He whispered.
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Months. How many had it been now, 1-2? Something like that, and it was quiet the wonder. Two months without any drama, well save for miniscule arguments between James and Tom.
Lily sighed and rolled her eyes at the idea. Jamie said he was only trying to protect her and make things right, but if he wanted her to be happy he would things as they were, because she was happy.
She raked a hand through her messy red hair and glanced at her watch. Only 10 minutes now until her date with Tom. So far they'd had no fights! It was amazing really, their relationship had been rocky in the beginning, really rocky, but now the road seemed clear and smooth.
All things must come to an end at one time or another though, Lily was sure another fight would come up sometime soon, tensions would rise and nerves would burst, she just hoped their tempers wouldn't flare tonight. Goodness knew nothing good would come of a fight and bad temper on Tom's part.
She sighed once more as she felt some body's fingers begin to massage her forehead.
"Hey James" She said softly. She heard him chuckled behind her and kiss the top of her head.
"So, I'm guessing your waiting to leave on your date?" James asked casually.
"Mhmm," Lily mumbled, relaxing into the feel of James' pianist like fingers skillfully working their way over her head.
"Well that's good." James said, suddenly letting his hands drop to her shoulders to massage them as well. Lily smiled and loosed the tension in order for James' fingers to work their magic.
"What about you Jamie? What are you doing today?" James shrugged, but then upon realizing her eyes were closed and she could not see him he sighed and thought about it.
"Nothing I suppose, I'm single right now so I've got no girlfriend to go and see."
"Well you are capable of going and just getting one you know, with your reputation. By Merlin I can not believe I'm encouraging you!" James laughed and patted her shoulders before taking a seat on the cushion beside her.
"You make me laugh Lil's, but you should probably get going, you've only got two minutes now." Lily checked her watch and smiled.
"Thanks for the warning James," She stood up, kissed his cheek, and left the room. James sighed and took off his glasses to rub his eyes. This was just too hard, why did he have to go through so much hard ache? Why is it that the girl he loved, loved someone else, and even though it killed him inside, he was supporting and helping her to make it work?
He put his glasses back on his face stared into the fire.
Lily ran to the front door and jumped into Tom's open arms. "Hello love." He said, grinning goofily.
"You made it." Lily smiled and linked her fingers with his.
"Of course I did, do you really think that I would make you wait for me? I'm great, but not that great." She said airily and pulling on his arm to lead him out to the grounds.
Tom laughed and squeezed her hand. "Haha, I think you're falling for me." Lily suddenly tripped and fell flat on her bum. Tom's laugher grew and he doubled over gripping the sides of his stomach.
"Wow, Lillian, when I said falling it was only figuratively, but ok, if you'd like to fall on your backside, that's fine with me."
Lily stuck out her tongue and then held out her hands. "Help me up Thomas." Tom quickly sobered and helped her up.
"I hate that name Lil's," Lily dusted herself off and her eyebrows formed a perfect v.
"Why? It is your name after all."
"Yes, the name of my father actually," Tom comment stiffly, latching his fingers firmly, but delicately on his thing arm.
"You don't like your father?" Lily asked curiously.
"I only ever met him once, never will again…"
"Did he leave the country or something?" Lily asked, becoming slightly confused.
"No, he died."
"Oh, I'm sorry Tom, how'd it happen?" She asked sadly.
"Don't be sorry, I hated the man, and the way he died isn't important, it's just that he's gone now." (Everyone who read the 6th book knows all of what happened to Thomas sr.) (BTW, if you're curious about how I made Tom's father died, even though Tom hasn't had the chance to kill him yet, read it at the end of the chapter)
Lily nodded and stayed silent as they finished their walk down to the lake and watched the squid splash a couple of frightened first years who immediately screamed and ran away.
Remus and Peters P.O.V's
"Hey Peter, would you pay attention? Merlin, you act like someone stuck some flobberworms in your trousers and told them to lick you." Peter blushed and tried his best to sit still.
"Sorry Remus," He apologized softly, "I was just looking for someone." Remus gave him a knowing eye and set his book down.
"It's Lily isn't it?" Peter blushes again and began to pluck grass from the ground. "It's fine, you can fancy lily if you want, it obvious to the world that you do, except for maybe her and Nyla, no matter how smart they are, they're oblivious t guys feelings. Sirius and I both fancied Lily at one point, Merlin, I fancied her first and second year, but James was so barmy about her that I didn't ever mention it. Sirius liked her third year, he wanted to shag her so bad, but he could see by the end of the year that she would never give into his charm." Remus laughed and picked his book up again.
"So feel free to fancy her mate, but just keep in mind that you won't be getting anywhere with her on that level, she's into guys like Tom Riddle and Prongs."
Peter looked at his friend curiously, even though his blush was still very bright and evident. "Prongs? You think Lily likes James too?"
Remus patted his friend on the head and smirked. "Oh my simple minded friend, I KNOW she likes him, it's a given. Have you not noticed how they look at each other, or are you really that thick?" Peter blushed again and licked his lips nervously.
"Blimey Pete, you're a blushaholic today aren't you."
"I-I, yes I suppose so." Remus patted his head again and chuckled.
"Don't worry, she really can make a guy feel rather flustered, just don't ever walk in on her changing, whoa that really roots you to the spot and BOING, there he goes."
Peter turned a bright red at the idea and covered his crotch as if to hide it. Remus laughed loudly and started to read again.
back to normal
"James, I appreciate that you are just trying to help me, but for once would you butt out of my life and let ME live it, not you!"
James scowled and flexed his fingers from their tights fists. "I still think he's playing you Lil's you really can't trust him. He cheated on you, who's to say he won't do it again?"
"You're right Jamie, maybe he will, but that doesn't mean I shouldn't forgive him. He was really sorry about last time. He said he'd never do it again and I believe him." James snorted and flopped down on the couch.
"So he says Lily, why do you always have so much trust?"
"I don't James, maybe I should just give up on trusting people. You know what, you're right, I've got no faith in anyone anymore, not even you James."
"What? No, have faith in me, just stay away from Tom, I'm trust worthy!"
"So is Tom! Merlin James, you don't even know him, you don't bother to get to know him because you have this silly idea about all Slytherins and how they're all bad, well guess what, NOT ALL OF THEM ARE! If I'm having faith in you, I'm having it in my boyfriend too." James took that as his cue to leave and stormed up the stairs.
Lily groaned and fell onto the same cushion he'd been sitting on just moment before. "Why does he have to make this so complicated!"
"Because he loves you," Lily jumped and looked to her side. Nyla smiled at her and patted her knee.
"What?" asked Lily, not sure she'd heard her friend correctly.
"I said, 'because he loves you' He only wants the best for you Lil's, he just doesn't want to think that maybe you already have it." Lily sighed and played with a strand of her long red hair.
"He's about as complicated as a teenage girl, honestly. Do you think I should talk to him?"
Nyla smiled again and nodded. "Yes, you don't want him to be mad at you, aside from me; he's your best friend, which if you think about it from last year's point of view, is really weird to say." Lily laughed and nodded too. She couldn't believe she'd hated him last year; he was so wonderful, although when they fought he was insufferable!
But any other time, he was the most wonderful man she'd ever known….OH and Tom, y-yes he was wonderful too! Lily stood up and opened the door to James' room just after knocking.
"Jamie?" She asked softly. James grunted from on his bed, his head shoved into his pillow and Lily walked over to him. "James, I'm really sorry I fought with you. I know you're just trying to look out for me, and I know that you just want the best for me, but did you ever think that maybe I already have the best?" James looked up at her and sighed. Lily tried to control her heart beat as she looked straight into his face.
It was frustrating how she always had to do this when she looked at him directly, but now that he had his glasses off, he was even more handsome, it was an almost impossible task to control her self from jumping on him and attacking him with kisses.
"Yes, I thought about it, and tried to deny it too," He said bashfully, "I mean, what in your life ever goes wrong? Honestly, you've got a loving boyfriend, many admirers, a group of best friends, two loving parents and a sister."
"Oh James, not everything in my life works out the way I want it to, as a matter of fact, most of it doesn't, if it did that would be pure luck. Besides, did you even hear yourself? Admirers, Friends? You've got those too, Merlin you've got more admirers then I could ever hope to have, I don't even care about my admirers. As for friends, we've got the same bunch of them.
I'm really sorry about your mother, but I believe she is looking down on you saying, get up James, be a big boy, you're my son and I want you to be happy. Your mum doesn't want to see you sad and neither do I. Now, on the hand of girlfriends, you could get almost any girl in this school, aside from the Slytherins, and even some of those you could get if you wanted." James laughed and sat up.
"Only the tarts."
Lily smacked his head, but laughed too, "You're so bad James Potter."
"I know." James said teasingly and then motioning for his glasses. Lily picked them up and placed them on the bridge of his nose. "Thank you Lily." He said softly.
He leaned in to kiss her on the cheek but Lily turned her head and kissed him quickly on the lips. "Just remember I love you James, ok? Promise me you'll always remember that!" Though shocked, James nodded and hugged her.
"I promise Lil's."
"Oh, and by the way James, I heard about the row you and Tom had the other day." James blushed and looked away.
"I'm sorry; he said something that had it coming."
"It's fine James; just next time, cool your jets." The two smiled and then Lily stood up and left the room.
Later that night, just after dinner, James jumped up the main staircase two at a time and began to head for the common room but spotted Lily and Tom having another one of their usual rows so decided to wait so that she could have a shoulder to cry on or a friend to rant to.
"Fine, be a jerk Tom!" Lily finally said before stomping right in James' direction. She jumped as she came around the corner and saw him.
"Did you hear all of that?" She asked cautiously. James shook his head and smiled.
"No, I only heard your last line, what were you two fighting about this time?" lily began to walk to the common room so James followed.
"Oh nothing, he was just being an overprotective, possessive prick." James mock gasped and clutched his heart.
"I have converted you!" He shouted in joy. Lily couldn't help but laugh. She ran over to James and gave him a hug.
"I'm glad I have you around to help me through this."
"You know me," said James softly, "Always here to help…" Lily smiled and snuggled her face into his chest.
"…And never here to be loved," He whispered to himself.
"Mmmm, you smell like peppermint, my favorite." James smiled roguishly and squeezed her tenderly.
"Come on, let's get you to bed, you look exhausted."
"Mmmm, thank you Jamie." Lily said, looking up into his face once more and smiling.
"For what?" He asked, looking down at her. They stood at the base of the girls dorms and Lily finally pulled herself from his grip.
"For everything," She leaned in to kiss his lips, but James turned his face and she got his cheek instead.
"Goodnight Lily."
Hey guys! I really hope you liked this chapter! Ok, I'm going to explain this whole Tom and his father thing because I'm sure you're wondering. This is going to probably really boggle your mind; it's doing it to mine right now. Ok, so Tom not only has got his teenage memories but his future ones because his older self has already lived them, if you can understand that. Older Voldomort is still alive and kicking, keep that in mind, so of course that means every memory that he has, is automatically in this younger Tom's mind. Try picturing this, younger Tom I guess you could say is almost like a memory, or a figment of their imagination, except he really is there in person, which I know is hard to comprehend, but if you've read the 6th book then you know about lots of Tom's future after school so naturally when he talks about his fathers death above, still being in school, the young Tom hasn't killed his father yet, but the older one has, so Tom sr. is dead. The young Tom, only came to the future for one purpose, which I can not tell you, but you will find out (in the final chapter I'm afraid, sorry) All the other things that he's done in the future, all of the evil bad things, have already been done because the older Tom (Voldomort) has already lived his life. So naturally, when the young Tom goes back to his time (that's right, he goes back) all of what's happened with Lily and everything is automatically in the older Tom's mind (Voldomort) bringing around the ultimate consequence…which you'll have to wait for ;D Ok, I hope that wasn't too confusing!
R&R
D. Avery