CHAPTER 2

"Good morning." said Calleigh cheerfully as she walked into the breakroom.

"Hey sugar. How are you doing this mornin?"

"Pretty good I slept like a baby."

Alexx looked at Eric worriedly. "Cal...you sure your ok?"

"I'm fine...why do you ask?"

'I don't know." said Eric as he sat his newspaper down on the table. "You lost your husband a week ago. And you go on as if you never even knew him."

Calleigh looked at Eric eyes watery. "Eric, have you ever thought that maybe I do this so i won't have to face the pain. The pain that I feel everytime I wake up without him next to me...or the pain I feel when I walk by the trace lab. Or how about the pain that I feel when I see me little boy's look past me as to except there father behind me when I go to pick them up after work?" started Calleigh. "Have you ever lost someone you loved?"

"No I haven't."

"Then you don't know how I feel."

Eric sighed. "I'm sorry Calleigh...I didn't know."

"Yeah well there's alot you don't know." said Calleigh and ran out of the room.

Eric sighed and ran his hands through his hair. "I'm just not making it any easier am I?"

Alexx gave Eric a sympathetic smile. She wished she could help him. But she knew she couldn't do anything. Not yet anyways. "Honey just give her time."

Eric nodded and walked out of the room.

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"Hey Tim." said Calleigh as she walked into trace. Not looking up from her folder. Calleigh sighed as she saw Ryan sitting there. "I'm sorry Ryan...I..."

"It's ok. It happens."

Calleigh smiled slightly. "You have that trace anaylized yet?"

Ryan nodded. "Yeah..." started Ryan looking at the file. "It was sun tan lotion."

Calleigh nodded. "Any specific brand?"

Ryan smiled. "Now would I do that to you?"

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Calleigh smiled as her two sons played in the bathtub. "Alright you two. Time to get out."

"Awwww...we having fun mamma." said Conner Speedle.

Calleigh smiled. "I know that. But if I leave you in here any longer you two are going to turn into two little prunes and we can't have that now can we?"

The boys shook there heads and Calleigh got them dried off and into their pajamas.

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"Good night sweetheart." said Calleigh as she kissed Conner's forehead.

"Night Mamma."

Calleigh smiled and walked over to Colby's bed. "Night sweetheart." But Colby didn't say anything back but just rolled over. Calleigh sighed and kissed the side of his head. "I'll see you two in the morning." Calleigh got up took one last look at her boys and turned the light off.

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Calleigh was awoken by her cell phone. "Speedle..hi...no I was asleep...no its ok...yeah I know...Conner's ok. But Colby...I think i'm going to have some trouble with him. Yeah...I know...alright...i'll be here...bye." Calleigh sighed and hung up her phone. She was going to go back to sleep when she heared screams coming from the boy's room. Calleigh quickly put on her bathrobe and headed to the room.

Calleigh looked into the room and saw Colby tossing and turning in his bed. Calleigh quickly went over to him and shook his shoulder lightly. "Colby sweetheart..."

Colby turned his head a few more times and opened his eyes. "Sweetheart are you ok?"

Colby shook his head and Calleigh took him in her arms. "I had a bad dream."

"Aw...sweetheart...you wanna tell mommy about it."

"It was about daddy. He was...chasing a man and he... I knew the man but...mommy I want daddy."

"I know sweetheart. I do to."

Colby sighed and as the minutes passed by fell asleep in Calleigh's arms.

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"Horatio." said Stetler as he entered Horatio's office.

"Rick...what can I do for you?"

"Your mandatory counsling session after Speedle's death you never went."

"Yes...like I said before. I don't need therapy."

Stetler grinned and sat down. "Horatio...your suffering...your whole team is changing. I've known major differences in your team and I-"

"Major changes? You should be a CSI Rick. You have a keen grasp for the obvious. My team...suffered a loss. And what... you expected for them to just get right back up on their feet..act like nothing happend?"

"No that's not what I thought would happen."

"Well then what do you want to happen Rick?"

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"No we've got nothing so far. I've got no leads. So if you ask me this is a complete waist of time."

"I know it seems like nothing is happening now but you just hang in there. It comes with the territory They'll slip up sooner or later."

"That's the problem with you FBI'S you have way to much patience."

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"You didn't get anything?"

"Sorry Sir...nothing there all acting normal."

The man sighed. "Well...give them a few more days...one of them is bound to slip up sooner or later. But do me a favor."

"Anything."

"Keep a close eye out on Calleigh."

"I thought your target was Horatio?"

"It is...but I've been watching her lately and...something's not right. So try to become her friend. It maybe hard but...just...try ok. Can you do that."

"I have a few tricks up my sleeve."

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Calleigh jumped slightly when she heared Horatio speak. "Calleigh."

"Horatio? You scared me."

"I"m sorry...how uh...how are you doing."

"Bits and pieces. Just taking it one day at a time like you told me to."

Horatio smiled. "Calleigh...look um..."

"Horatio...look. I don't blame you. OK. I could never blame you for what happend. What happend was an accident...a terrible accident...and i'll get past it one day but its just going to take a little time." Horatio nodded and watched Calleigh walk out of the room.

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"Detective Speedle thank you for coming to your session."

"Well its mandatory right. So its not like I have an option."

The women nodded. "So would you like to tell me how your feeling?"

"How do you think I feel?" stated Calleigh saracstically.

The therapist sighed. "Mrs. Speedle...I understand your loss but I am only trying to help you."

"Why does everyone say they understand? They never saw there husband lying dead on a floor. They never saw his blood pooling around him. They never saw...they never saw the look on their boy's faces when they told them that their father was never coming home." cried Calleigh.

The women got up and sat down next to Calleigh pulling her into a hug. "It's ok Calleigh just let it out. Its ok. Just let go of the pain." The women continued to rub small circles on Calleigh's back as she cried.

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"I swear I tell you academy... award... performance."

TBC...Please let me know what you think.