These tears are something someone else made ... but I have to leave with them falling from my own eyes
"ARRGGGGH!" you scream as you tear up another letter from Draco. It had been a week and all you have done is sit up in Hermiones dorm. All your classes were over for the year so you didnt have to worry about missing classes, or seeing Draco in class more importantly. Draco had sent you 3 letters a day, since that .. that day. You read one of them, which made you so angry you couldnt stand it. How could he lie like that and say he didn't know what had happened. You had saw him. You heard him. 'AHHHHHH!' you scream out again. You were hurting, you were frustrated, you felt as if your heart had been ripped out, stepped on, and stabbed a zillion times. You had cried yourself asleep so many times you couldnt stand it. You wanted the pain to end. Hermione, Harry, and Ron were really helpful. They really did care about you. Ron and Allie had broken up. They both thought it best, since Allie wasnt going to be returning to Hogwarts next year. Her parents wanted her to attend a private school, so she was respecting her parents wishes. Rons break up with Allie didnt seem to fase him, he was actually quite fine with it. So now that Ron had a lot more free time on his hand, he was always around when you needed him. He would tell you jokes to make you laugh, did everything he could to cheer you up. A lot of the time it worked, but when you felt like crying you didnt have a problem crying infront of him, he would just take you in his arms and let you cry on his shoulder. You were thankful for that. You fell back onto the bed that Hermione had set up for you near her own, since you did not plan on going back to Slytherin common room for the rest of your time there. You were only at Hogwarts for two more days, and you just had to keep reminding yourself that. You let out a loud groan and put a pillow over your face. "Well with sounds like that no wonder everyone thinks there might be a boggart or something up here." you here a friendly voice say. "Go to hell Ron" you reply with out taking the pillow off your face. "Such words for a lady like yourself" he says laughing a bit. You can hear him close the door behind him and walk over to your bed. "Want to go get some dinner?" he ask gently rubbing your arm with his finger, you thought he was checking to see if you had turned into a zombie yet, and wondered if your skin was rotting. You giggle a little to yourself at that thought. "Im not hungry" you mumble. "Oh sorry, who am I to assume that your hungry after not eating anything since yesterday, around noon" He says sarcasticly. "How would you know when I have or havnt eaten?" you ask sliding the pillow down from your face, a little annoyed he knew that you haddnt eaten. "Because, Harry and Hermione went on that long weekend trip to Hogsmeade with the school, and left just after they brought you lunch yesterday. And you didnt accept anything I brought you last night, and this morning you wouldnt go down to breakfast with me, and since I wasnt around for lunch due to getting stuck helping Mcgonagall with classroom cleaning, along with some others, you havnt eaten." he finishes feeling rather proud. You start to giggle but hide it buy groaning in annoyence and pull the pillow back over your head. "Oh come on Chels, its been a week, and no ones really seen that git around, well.. except those few times.. But still. Sitting in your .. actually Hermiones room all day cant be good for you" he says sadly. "Im fine Ron. Im perfect, never better." you say completly lying. "Thats the biggest load of pig shit Ive ever heard" he says now sitting down on your bed. You and Ron had grown close ever since that day. It wasnt awkward for him to be around, and holding you, or having him sit on your bed alone with you. It wasnt weird at all. Ron had opened up a lot and wasnt ever afraid to say what he was thinking with you. "Come on Chelsey" he said grabbing the pillow away from your face. "Ron give it back!" you say sitting up and trying to snatch it away from him, but you couldnt reach it, he was holding it with his arm farthest away from you, and he was already so much taller then you. "Ronald please!" you say still trying to grab it. "I see you actually showered and got dressed and oh wow.. did you actually brush your hair?" he said teasing you still holding your pillow out of reach. "Yea, so what if I did?" you snap at him. "I was just playing love, you know that" he says still laughing. You roll your eyes and reach for the pillow, but before you grabbed it he flug it across the room. You dove for it but Ron grabs you by the sides and starts to tickle you, you try to tickle him back but couldnt reach him. You turn around onto your back and grab his shirt trying to make him stop. "Ronnnn stop!" you laugh trying to get away. "Not untill you eat something" he says laughing still tickling you. "Okay okay.. if you go get me something I'll eat it, but thats my only and final offer" you say, and Ron stops tickling you. You sit up and realize you were in his lap by this point. You turn to look at him and notice he was smiling at you. Your face was very close to his. You felt his warm hand on the low of your back...
...Suddenly you hear a screatch and in through the window flys a dark brown owl, the owl drops a single rose onto your lap then swoops back out the window with one last screatch. You pick the rose up off of your lap and study it. No doubt it was from Draco, because carved into the stem of the rose were tiny letters spelling out 'Im sorry' You stare at the rose in your hand. Memories of things you had done with Draco in the past fill your head, for a second you forgot what had happened and started to smile, but then it hit you why he sent the rose in the first place. Your face becomes red and hot and you feel the tears form in your eyes, you break the rose in half, then crush the blossom in your hand. You stand up from Rons lap and walk over to the window and toss the broken flower out. Tears start to fall from your eyes and you feel them land on your warm cheek. A sharp pain went through your body everytime a tear stung your face. You turn around and fall onto the floor and leaning against the wall. Ron gets up from the bed with out a word and rushes to your side, he sits down on the floor besides you and puts his arm around you. You lean into him and cry. You were sure you were making a lot of noise crying but you didnt care, and you were sure Ron didnt either. Ron held you tight and rocked you back and forth, he didnt say anything, he just let you cry. At that moment you realized you had to do something. You couldnt just sit locked away in a dark room wishing you were dead. You had to do something with your life. You had to move on. Draco had hurt you in a way no one else possibly could. But you knew you some how had to get over it. Easier said then done though right? you thought to your self as you just let yourself lay in Rons arms.