Chapter 4
A/N When I said I loved you all I mean it more every single time I go online. So thanks again for reviewing. Because when you guys review I hate leaving you all hanging so I write quicker.
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So here is chapter 4 of I'll Do What I Want!
Martin and Ruthie continued their long walk down the block. Finally Martin began to talk again, "before you say anything, Ruthie you have to know I didn't want it to happen and I still don't want it to. So you need to agree before I tell you what happened that you won't think any less or worse of me then you do now." Ruthie thought about his statement and then nodded in encouragement to continue.
"Okay" Martin began "Last summer remember when I went up to Simon's college and stayed with him for awhile?-Ruthie nodded- well that was when I met Sandy. Simon and Rose and Sandy were all hanging out and I went with them and well me and Sandy got to talking and we went off by ourselves. At the time I thought she was pretty cool and here's where you have to believe me, I didn't want this to happen I don't know how it happened."
Ruthie stopped him here and said "Okay so your up at school with Simon you meet a girl her name is Sandy and now she's hounding you proceed." Martin looked at her sighed and continued. "Okay well this is the part where you get mad at me and the part you can't tell anyone about. Me and Sandy um…. Well we had sex" -Ruthie sputtered incoherently and Martin continued- and then I wanted to forget about it, I didn't want it to happen it just did. Now she thinks she's pregnant. What am I talking about she knows she's pregnant and I'm to young to have a kid and what about Meredith." (Ruthie winced at the word Meredith.)
"So I just want to forget about it." Martin concluded. Ruthie had been quiet long enough. "Martin how could you do that, weren't you the one who was so good and righteous. Martin and oh my god this is so not good, does Simon know does my dad know what about your dad. What are you going to do? You can't just desert her can you? Are you sure it's yours? Wow that sounded bad. Okay I didn't mean to make her sound like a slut. Okay um what are you going to do that's the first question?"
Martin looked at her and then enveloped her in a hug. "Ruthie, I am so happy your not mad at me. Your not mad at me are you?" Ruthie who was thoroughly enjoying the embrace though reminding herself not only is he off limits but he also has a pregnant person he has to deal with who is not his girlfriend. "No, I'm not mad at you I'm disappointed but not mad there's no time to be mad. So what are you going to do?"
"Hope and pray, this all just goes away. Ruthie it was my first time I really was not supposed to get her pregnant, I was supposed to leave and forget about her. Maybe it's not mine. I mean she's had sex before and maybe after then, she told me that day at church. So what am I supposed to do I'm not an adult I'm seventeen I'm two years older then you. It was stupid and I don't want to deal with it. I want to be free to date anyone I want." He said with a significant look towards Ruthie. Which she disregarded as it probably didn't mean anything.
"So what should I do, I mean until I know it's mine I'm not doing anything. I don't even want to talk to her. I think I'll just keep ignoring her. You can't tell anyone though okay?" Ruthie didn't say anything for a minute. Then finally she said "Alright whatever you want. But this doesn't mean it's going to go away you're my friend I don't want to see you hurt and I don't want to see you in pain but right now if you keep ignoring you'll be in a lot of pain. Pain no one can get you out of maybe it won't be yours. Maybe it will, I hope it won't for your sake." For mine too, she added inwardly. Stop it Ruthie! She thought to herself. "Martin I want you to be okay and what are you going to do about Meredith."
"As of now," Martin started "I'm going to go out with her tomorrow night and forget about all this. If we have fun I'll go out with her again and see where it takes us but as of now all I can say is I'm going to forget what's going on and have fun. Lots of fun."
"Alright, do what you want I'm walking back talk to you later." Ruthie started to move away. "Hey! I thought you weren't mad at me?" He asked with a worried question in his voice. "I'm not I just, need some time to think." Martin looked down and kicked a rock under his shoe and said "Well I should walk you home." Ruthie wasn't so sure about this. "Fine, lets get a move on."
They started walking back, towards the Camden household-together.
A/N2 Okay chapter 4 I hope you enjoyed um thanks for reviewing so much I know I've already said that but I am really happy that you guys really like it. This is so much more fun then doing homework or anything else.
So be happy and have fun because well lifes too short to not do what you love to do.
Sam