Disclaimer: I do not own Inu Yasha

This is rated PG-13. Some swearing and violence

Genre: Romance/Tragedy/Angst/Drama

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19 reviews now, and I am so glad. Thank you to all of you who have reviewed my story. I appreciate it and I hope the reviews will continue. Do you think the rating should change to R? You'll see what I mean when you read.

Kagome sprinted towards her room. A Gun! Why would Inu Yasha keep a Gun in his room? Would he really try and harm someone with it? Kagome couldn't let go of what she had seen. Abruptly, she opened the massive door open, and stared in wonder at her new room. It was magnificent. Lime green curtains drooped upon the sparkling windows. A bed with pure white sheets and glimmering silver took up the room on her right. A dresser with a beautifully decorated mirror stood next to the bed. All this made Kagome tear.

He is so nice! He is so sweet, yet he keeps a Gun. It doesn't make any sense!!! Maybe I should tell him about what I saw. Maybe he doesn't know he has it either. But that possibility was slim. Inu Yasha would have noticed a Gun poking out of his drawer by now! This was when the door behind her opened and a boy walked in.

"Kagome? Are you crying?" Inu Yashsa's soft voice reached her ears.

"No. I'm not crying." Hurriedly, Kagome whipped her obvious tears away. Inu Yasha walked over and sat down beside Kagome, and started stroking her hair.

"Not crying? Then what are those tears I see?" he questioned with a half smile. Kagome looked up. She saw a smile, an innocent smile. Quickly, Kagome lowered her head again and started to weep once more.

"Kagome. Tell me what's wrong." No answer.

"I promise, I'll try and help you. But I can't if you don't tell me what the problem is." He reasoned.

"You can't do anything about it!" A sharp cry escaped Kagome's lips. At the instant she said it, she regretted it. "I mean, you can't do anything about it." She added softly this time.

"No matter. It won't help if you keep it to yourself."

Should I tell him? What if he decides to use the gun on me? She peered a look at Inu Yasha. His eyes showed concern, something nobody has shown to her before. He also cared for her, she knew. So why keep this from him, she thought.

"You can't get mad at me Inu Yasha. Please don't." she pleaded.

"I would never get mad at you. What's there to get mad at?" Inu Yasha brushed away her remaining tears and placed his hand upon Kagome's.

"I saw it, Inu Yasha. It was poking out of your drawer, and it was just lying there! I couldn't tell you before because I thought you were going to get mad at me! Please don't!" Kagome rushed through her words. A very shocked Inu Yasha looked down at her.

"You saw exactly, what Kagome? You've got to slow down." He said.

"The Gun Inu Yasha. I saw it."

"Oh, that old thing." Inu Yasha said thoughtfully.

"You wouldn't really kill anyone, would you? You didn't use it already right? You wouldn't kill me right?" Kagome was rushing all over again.

"Hold up, hold up Kagome!" he raised his hand in protest. "No, Kagome, I didn't really kill anyone with it. And, kill you? Why would I want to do that? Why would I even think of doing that?" he asked. "Did you think I would?"

"I …" Kagome felt bad about accusing, Inu Yasha of killing. She felt like an idiot. "No Inu Yasha. I don't think you would kill. It was just that … it was a Gun, and I …"

"Don't worry about it. I understand." He cut her short. A few minutes dragged on, and there was an uncomfortable silence.

"Do you know why I have a Gun Kagome?" Inu Yasha suddenly asked, almost like he was talking to himself.

"No, I don't Inu." She answered. Inu Yasha walked himself to the lime green coated window. He slowly turned to face Kagome.

"It's something I regret Kagome." He sighed.

"Something you regret?" she echoed.

"I almost used the Gun Kagome. I almost used it on someone I should be caring for." His voice showed anger. Kagome sat quietly, waiting for Inu Yasha to finish. "I almost used it on myself. I was so close to Death. I was foolish. Foolish enough to even think of taking my own life away."

"You did WHAT!" Kagome couldn't help herself.

"I was in a club, a long time ago. All the kids who lead bad lives. For any kind of situation. As you might have guessed, my reason was my parents. We gathered, and the leader handed us Guns. I just stood there, holding the weapon in my hands. Feeling the trigger that would kill me between my fingers! I heard it then. A horrible sound. Someone dying Kagome. Someone dying. Right in front of me, he fell screaming. He killed himself. Then a few more followed him! I could do it. I ran away. Ran like some crazy guy screaming and crying." Kagome thought she saw a tear slid down his smooth cheeks. "That's what I regret. I live with it now. The guilt of trying to kill myself. You don't' know how much that hurts. Betraying possibly the only person you can trust. Yourself."

Intense silence filled Kagome's room.

"Oh, Inu Yasha …" Kagome breathed. "I had no idea. Live with that guilt no longer. Forget it, and start anew." Kagome whispered ever so silently. She stood, and made her way to the silent Inu Yasha. She placed her hands on his bare arms and grasped him in her warmth. "You didn't completely betray yourself Inu. You came to your senses, and ran. Besides, I'm not going to let you live with such a guilt. You didn't only save yourself, but you saved me too. You gave me something I have never experienced. You actually cared for me. So, in return, I shall care for you."

"You've already proven that on the first day we met. That day I also knew …" but his voice trailed off. Oh damn you Inu Yasha. You almost told her you like her!

"You knew what?" Kagome urged.

"I knew … that you were someone special." He finished. "Listen. I'll be like a brother to you."

"A brother …" she repeated. And you thought Inu Yasha might say he liked you! How foolish! "That'd be great."

iii

Both had lied about their true feelings. Inu Yasha and Kagome on their feelings for each other. Yet, they adopted each other as their brother and sister. They spent day after day with each other. Feeling comfort and happiness as they did. Their love for each other grew, but both kept denying. It had been almost a month they spent together in each other's presence when a new person joined in to share their happiness. It had happened when Kagome and Inu Yasha were out downtown.

So, do you think the rating should change to R? I am talking about the suicide club and the Gun shootings. You read it, now please, review it! Thanks for reading.