Chapter 5: Cry
I awoke around three A.M, still dressed, shoes and all. I changed, took off my make up and went back to sleep. Only to be woken up again at nine A.M, a time I preferred to be sleeping. It was my cell phone. It was Clark. Happy as I was that he was calling, he still wasn't on my good list at the moment.
"Hello?" I answered sleepily.
"Juliet? Is that you?" Clark asked confused.
"Yeah, this is just me still in sleep mode." I said yawning.
"I am sorry to have woken you up. I will call back later if you…." I cut him off.
"No it's fine. I need to get up anyways." I told him quickly. Knowing that I would never be able to go back to sleep now.
"Ok well, I was wondering if maybe you would like a tour of the town today. I know it is a little lame and all but still, it could be better then being cooped up all day." He said.
"Sure, sounds great." I said.
"Great, I'll pick you up around eleven?" He asked. I told him that was fine and went to get ready.
After showering, doing my hair, make-up, and having a forty-five minute wardrobe crisis, I was finally pleases with my appearance. I noticed I had about 30 minutes until Clark would be here so I grabbed my music folder and walked into the library. Once I was situated at the piano I found a song I had been working on and started playing with it. Every now and then a guard would come by when I would start vocalizing. Then within fifteen minutes I had finished the song, lyrics and music both. So I sat, played and sang.
"So much left unsaid
From the thoughts that whisper in my head.
You need to know what I feel.
But still…
I'm not ready to say goodbye." I sang, letting the music take me away once more….
"And there in your arms I never wanted to leave,
And as you fade out of sight
I feel there's nothing left for me...
Don't make me fall apart again,
You're the best I could have asked for…
And I'm sorry I have to go now..." I stopped for a minute to recollect but I didn't proceed.
"Ever thought of having a career in music?" I turned to find Clark.
"Yes actually I have, but I've also considered acting, dancing, journalism, and law or medical practice as well." I told him as I stood up and walked towards him.
"Pretty risky ambitions don't you think?" He asked.
"Not if you are determined to succeed." I replied. "What about you? What are your ambitions?"
"Journalism is cool, but I like helping people too." Clark told me. I smiled at him.
"Helping people, I like that. Ready to go?" I asked. He nodded and we got into his trust and headed to a coffee shop called the Talon.
"This is basically the main social gathering of Smallville." Clark told as we stepped inside. It was a cute place, filled with teenagers talking and drinking latte's.
"Clark?" A voice said. Clark turned around, there were two girls standing there.
"Chloe? Lois?" He asked smiling. They all greeted each other and I felt a little out of my element so I let them talk and got a cappuccino. Then I saw Clark looking around. When he spotted me, the two girls and he walked over.
"Juliet, this is Chloe and Lois, and Chloe, Lois, this is Juliet." He said introducing us.
"Hello, nice to meet you." I said smiling some. Amazingly smiling was becoming an easier task.
"Same here." Chloe said. "So you're Lex's cousin? Wow what's it like living with a billionaire?" She asked.
"Umm, different, I guess is the word." I answered honestly. We all started talking then some one else came in.
"Chloe? Lois? Clark?" They all turned around and greeted a girl named Lana. Once again I felt a little bit like an outsider. Then I was introduced to her.
For the next two hours the five of us talked and drank coffee. I liked these people; I just hoped they felt the same way. Clark decided to resume the tour, so Lois, Chloe, Lana and I exchanged phone numbers then Clark and I went one our way.
He showed me the school, Luthorcorp, and some other places. We talked and laughed and had a good time. Then we went and got some pizza before he took me back to the mansion.
"Thanks for today." I told him. "I had a great time."
He smiled a little, then for some strange reason, butterflies hatched in my stomach.
"No problem, I had fun too. I also think you made quiet an impression at the Talon earlier." Clark told me smiling.
"Yea I guess I am on my way to making friend." I said.
"I think you already have." Clark said honestly. There came the butter again.
Clark was facing me, and then I had an urge.
Any normal person would have kept this urge to themselves but unfortunately, I am not normal. As Clark was facing me I leaned towards him and kissed him. He didn't pull away like I had expected, but he welcomed it, and actually deepened the kiss into more then I had expected. It almost turned into a full blown make out session, but then the fireworks stopped exploding in my head. Instead there were flashing lights and honking noises. The scene seemed so familiar. Then I broke away from him, breathing hard and tears burning in my eyes. I quickly closed them in extreme determination not to let them fall.
"Juliet?" Clark asked concerned. "Are you okay?" I was still trying to grasp onto oxygen.
"I'm sorry, I, I have to go." I said, stepping out of the truck. "I'll call you." I said before shutting the door. Clark tried to say something, he looked so hurt. I felt bad for walking out like that but I felt so guilty. He didn't pull out of the driveway until I was inside. Even then I am not sure how long he was out there.
Once I got to my room, I collapsed on my bed, and for the first time since my mothers death… I cried.