Chapter 14: Dreams

The Kent's had agreed to let me stay with them until I started college in January. Which

Of I had already sent in applications a couple months before. Lex stayed away, his only contact with me would be sending the Kent's and me a monthly check, which was part court ordered and part guilt. But I was happy, still a little shaken up, but happy. Then one day in early December, things got even better.

I walked in the kitchen to see the entire Kent family, Clark included.

"Clark!" I didn't think you were going to be back until late tonight. What happened to your midterm paper?" I asked smiling. I was actually very happy he was there; we hadn't seen much of each other in the past two weeks because of his midterms.

"Well, I just wanted to be here when you opened these." He told me, handing me four letters.

"The letters from some of the schools I applied to…" I said nervously. There they were, NYU, UCLA, Stanford and Julliard. The only ones missing were my safe schools, Met U and Central Kansas.

"Yes, they are, now which one should be first?" Clark asked smiling. Mr. and Mrs. Kent walked over beside us. I smiled nervously and opened the letter from UCLA.

"My least favorite pick." I said as I pulled the letter from the envelope. I read it over and smiled. "I got in!" They all congratulated me. Then I opened Stanford, which was a no, and NYU, which was a yes. Then it was time for my dream school. Julliard.

"Okay, here it goes…" I slowly opened it, more nervous then I have ever been in my life. Images of my audition in Metropolis the month before came rushing through my mind. I pulled the letter out and started reading. Tears filled my eyes and I started shaking.

"Jules I am so sorry! But you still have…" I cut Clark off.

"I made it." I stated quietly, still not grasping the fact. "I got into Julliard!"

I swear my smile was probably ear to ear at this point. I started jumping up and down with the letter in my hands. Martha and Jonathon were smiling and congratulating me, but I couldn't read Clarks expression.

"Good job, I'm proud of you." He said in monotone.

"Thank you..." I said confused. Clark kissed my forehead and walked out the door.

"Okay?" I said hurt, with all my enthusiasm gone. "What was that about?"

"Possibly fear of abandonment, the last time someone he loved went away, she came back with a new boyfriend." Mrs. Kent told me.

"Lana? Yea I heard about that. I guess, I'll go talk to him." I said sighing. I walked up to the loft to find him staring into his telescope.

"Must be pretty relaxing." I said. He turned around slowly.

"Hey…" Clark said shortly, looking uncomfortable.

"Let's quit the small talk and cut the chase. What's wrong?" I asked, leaning up against one of the columns.

"Nothings wrong okay?" He said, almost rudely. I had never heard him like this before.

"No! It's not okay!" I exclaimed agitated. "What's wrong with you? This is possibly the best thing that could ever happen to me and you… you're acting like a child! I know you better than to know nothings wrong. So tell me what it is!"

"I just don't want to lose you okay?" He said in the same tone, but it was lightening.

"Clark, you won't lose me." I said softly as I sat down on the couch. I motioned for him to come sit next to me, he obeyed. "I love you, you know that! I could never let us lose what we share."

"How can you promise that? What happens if you go away to New York and meet some other, more interesting, more everything guy?" He said worried. I laughed.

"Clark, trust me, I don't think there is anyone in the world more interesting than you. And you are everything I could ever want, or could ever need in someone. But you just have to trust in love. If we were really meant to be together then we have nothing to worry about." I told him sincerely. He smiled and looked ten times better. I wrapped my arms around his neck and embraced him. After we pulled apart, Clark surprised me by kissing me, very passionately. I completely melted. We broke apart after a couple of minutes, breathing unsteadily.

"Wow, what was that for?" I said panting.

"The only was I could think of at the moment to say congratulations." Clark said smiling.

"Well it was definitely appreciated, but I could use a reminder of just how happy you are for me." I joked.

"I think I can manage that." Clark said before pressing his lips to mine again.