"So umm.. what are we talking about today?" Monica asked a little awkwardly.

"What do you want to talk about today?" John asked looking at her.

"I don't know.."

"Well I don't have anything specific to talk about today. I plan to have a couple of these. We'll just talk about whatever... so do you have any questions?"

"Actually I do." Monica nodded and folded her hands together. "I was talking to Anne earlier today and I asked her when I was able to leave and she said that you were actually the person to decide that."

"Right."

"When do you think I'll be able to leave?"

"I'm not sure.. maybe two months." He shrugged.

"Two months?" Monica's eyes widened.

"That's what I said."

"It can't be two months. That's a long time."

"This isn't a fast process Monica."

"I know but.. my kids' birthday is in 2 weeks and I need to be there! I can't miss their birthday John. I mean I know I'm already missing so much right now."

"I know your kids mean a lot to you Monica, but you have to take care of yourself first."

"What can I do to speed up this process?"

"Nothing really."

"I'm eating everything I'm given."

"I know, and I'm glad you're doing so well in that. But I honestly don't think you're emotionally ready to leave."

"Emotionally ready?"

"Monica you're not expressing yourself. I can't make you say things that you don't want to say. I know what subjects I need to focus on are. But I need you to figure out what caused all this. I know it's not because you gained a little weight.. It was much bigger then that. So whenever you figure out what that is come here and talk to me. And I will try to help you get past that and I will see if you're ready to leave. Monica you look so healthy and you're doing so well and you're progressing much faster then the girls here. I think it's possible for you to leave in 2 weeks.. but I think you need to work on that." He leaned back in his chair.

"So I'm eating and getting better but I can't leave because I'm not expressing myself!"

"Monica your emotions are a huge part of this. Sure you could be eating and look healthy but when you leave here something could happen and you can have a relapse."

"It's not like I'm on drugs."

"No you're not but a relapse is possible. Monica you are going to deal with this for the rest of your life. It's an ongoing battle."

Monica sighed. "If you think you know what cause all this why don't you tell me so I know?"

"Because you have to figure it out on your own."

"Then you're no help. I don't even understand the point of coming here!" Monica glared at him.

"I know you want to get out and see your kids but I think it will help."

Monica crossed her arms and sighed.

"Any more questions?"

"Yea." Monica said in a pissed off tone. "What the hell is that a picture of?" Monica said walking over to the picture that you had to really look at to see what was in it.

"What do you think it is?"

"If I knew I wouldn't have asked."

"I'll let you figure that one out too." He smirked.

"I hate you." Monica muttered.

"Excuse me?"

"Nothing."

"Erica no!" Chandler screamed as he ran up the stairs in Ross and Rachel's house. Erica was about to slide down the rail. "Erica don't you dare!"

"But daddy it's a slide!" She giggled.

"Do you want to break your arm like Jack?" Chandler picked Erica up and walked down the stairs. He put her down onto the sofa. "Erica never do that again."

"You're mean daddy!" She screamed giving him a very angry face and crossed arms. "I HATE YOU!"

Chandler felt his heart sink. He had never heard those words out of her mouth. He had never seen her look so mad. It was the one thing he feared about becoming a father. "Sweetie I just don't want you to get hurt."

"You yelled at me!" She glared at him.

"Honey I'm sorry." He said kneeling down on the floor and played with her fingers.

"Dinner's ready." Ross said coming in from the kitchen.

"Alright." Chandler nodded. "Come on honey lets get some dinner."

"NO!"

"Erica you need to eat."

"I don't want to eat!" She screamed even louder.

"Erica you have to."

"Go away! I want mommy!" She said pushing Chandler's shoulder. "I WANT MOMMY!"

Chandler ran his fingers through his hair and looked up. He found Rachel standing behind the couch.

"I'll take care of it." She said coming around the couch. She sat down and started stroking Erica's hair.

"Alright." Chandler got up and walked towards the kitchen. Where he found Jack, Ross, Emma, and Deacon sitting at the kitchen table. He sat down and sighed.

"It's ok man. She didn't mean it." Ross said trying to feed a carrot to Deacon.

"Yea she did."

"She's 5 she doesn't even know what it means."

"Ross do you think you can watch the twins for a while? I have to go somewhere."

"Sure.. but where are you going?"

"I have a few things to pick up at the office since I didn't finish them today."

"Oh.. sure. You gonna eat first?"

"No I'm not really hungry. I'll eat later." Chandler got up. "I'll see you guys later."

"Where are you going daddy?" Jack asked as he watched his dad walk towards the door.

"I gotta go to work and get something."

"Bye daddy."

"Bye." Chandler smiled and walked out.

"Monica you have a visitor" Anne said coming into the living room where Monica was sitting and talking to the other girls.

"A visitor?" Monica got up and followed Anne a little confused. She wasn't aware that she was allowed to have visitors. She saw Chandler standing by the door and her mouth dropped. "Oh my god!" She screamed and threw her arms around him. "What are you doing here?"

"Came to see you." He smiled and kissed her cheek. "These are for you." He handed her a bouquet of lillies.

"They're beautiful." Monica smiled. "Thank you so much."

"Can we go outside and talk?" Chandler asked Anne.

"Don't be too long."

"Alright." Chandler smiled taking Monica's hand and leading her outside to a bench.

"It's beautiful tonight." She smiled.

"Yes it is."

"I can't believe you're here. It seems like forever since I've seen you. It' been like 3 weeks."

"I know. "

"So how are the kids?"

"Miss you like crazy."

"Really?"

"Yea. Jack actually broke his arm." Chandler said trying to sound really casual.

Monica's eyes widened. "WHAT!" She screamed.

"He's ok.. he just has a crack in his arm."

"OH MY GOD! JUST A CRACK! My son shouldn't have a single crack in his body!" She screamed even louder. "He's ok? I've been gone 3 weeks and my baby has a broken arm!"

"He actually broke it a week after you left."

"How?"

"At school, during recess, he and a couple of his friends were playing monkey in the middle... on the monkey bars."

"Oh my god. This is what happens when I leave my children. I have to get out of here."

"Monica no. They're fine. Don't worry about it. I just wanted to let you know what happened. I have it all under control."

"Ok.." Monica nodded. "How's Erica? She have a broken leg?"

"No... but she does hate me."

"What? Why?"

"I yelled at her."

"Oh. She doesn't hate you."

"Oh yes she does." He laughed. "She clearly said that earlier today."

Monica smiled and rubbed his arm. "She's probably over it by now."

Chandler shrugged.

"Are you sure Jack's ok?"

"I'm positive." He smiled. "He actually really likes his sling."

"I can't believe he broke his arm. He's only 5."

"He was going to break it sometime. "

Monica gave Chandler a look.

"Well I meant.. you know.. now he knows not to do that again."

Monica smiled. They talked for about 15 more minutes before Monica had to go in. They had a very nice talk. They talked about what had happened in the 3 weeks Monica was gone.

Monica stepped out of the elevator and walked towards Chandler's office. It had been about 2 weeks since he had told her about the affair. She tried to avoid him as much as she could. She really wasn't sure of how to deal with it all. She wanted to forgive him because she loved him and she wanted to stay with him because of the kids. She knew he was very sorry. Chandler had gotten his promotion and for the first time she was going to see his brand new office. She smiled at his new assistant. "Hi. Is Chandler here?"

"Yes he is." She said returning the friendly smile. "He's inside working."

"Thank you." Monica smiled and walked into his office. "Hi."

"Monica." He said shocked to see her. "What um.. what are you doing here?"

"I wanted to have lunch with you." She smiled.

"Yeah?"

She nodded and sat down in the chair across from him. "I want to.."

"Hey Chandler I got your sandwich."

Monica turned around to find a gorgeous woman holding a big bag. She was tall, had brown hair and blue eyes. She was incredibly skinny and just beautiful. It was Nicole. All the men who worked there were all interested in her. She knew Chandler thought she was gorgeous but she never thought he'd fool around with her.

"Thanks... thanks Nic."

"Hi Monica." She smiled and set the bag down. "What are you doing here?"

"I don't know." Monica got up. "I better get going. I told Rachel I wouldn't be too long." Monica looked at Chandler. "I'll see you later."

"Monica wait."

"What?"

"Nicole I need to talk to Monica."

"Alright." She nodded and left the room.

Monica looked at him hurt. "What do you want to talk about?"

"I'm sorry honey." He said getting up and walking around his desk.

"It's ok. I'll make a sandwich at home."

"No. Monica please stay."

"I don't think we should be together anymore." She sighed. She couldn't make their relationhip work. Seeing Nicole really hurt. She couldn't compete against her. She was beautiful, skinny, gorgeous. "I thought we could.. but I don't think we can anymore." She looked down for a while and then looked up to find tears streaming down his cheeks.

"Why?" He whispered. "I love you. I'm not sleeping with her. It was just that one time I swear. We're working on a project together. I tried to get out of it but I couldn't. Monica I love you so much. Please believe me." He whispered. "I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm so so so sorry. I'll do anything. I'm so sorry. I love you more than anything." He hugged her tightly. "Please. Please don't leave me. I need you."

"I'm sorry but I'm so hungry." Nicole said running into the office and grabbing a sandwich from the bag and running out.

Monica pulled away and sighed. "Do you have any feelings for her?"

"No." He said shaking his head. "None. None at all. Only you. "

"Why did you sleep with her?"

"It was accidental."

"How do you accidentally sleep with someone?"

"It just happened. We were working on a project and we were in her office."

"You're attracted to her aren't you?"

"No."

"You're a liar."

"I'm not."

"Chandler I know you're attracted to her."

"I think she's pretty. But I wouldn't sleep with her again. You're the only person I want Mon."

Monica's eyes shot open. She knew why she was there. Why she stopped eating.

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