My god. I'm so sorry I haven't updated in such a long time! But when you have family and a writers block it's hard to think! I would like to thank all of you who have reviewed! I didn't think you would like those voodoo dolls so much...How about I give you all some Rei plushie...yeah let's do that.

Disclamier: I've said it once I've said it a thousand times, I don't own the goddamn show!

Kai walked around the house looking for Rei. 'Where is he? I didn't think I upset him that much.' He thought.

Kai opened the door to his and Rei's room to see him sleeping. Kai was puzzled. Rei looked fine the last time he saw him.

Kai entered the room shutting the door behind him. He approached the futon and went to his knees. He gently shook Rei back into consciousness.

Rei groaned softly and opened his eyes. His eyes widened when he was looking into a pair of crimson orbs.

He sat up quickly almost banging Kai in the head. He was staring straight ahead his pupil's were slits, and he was breathing heavily, 'Please let my encounter with Rai just be a dream.' He thought.

Kai looked at Rei, concern in his eyes, "Rei are you alright?" He asked. Rei stiffened his hands unconsciously clenching into fists. He turned his head towards him and nodded his head stiffly. Kai didn't believe him for a second and so he shifted Rei so that he was side ways in his lap.

Rei tensed when he felt Kai's arms around him. He started to tremble, and breathing shakily.

Kai was puzzled. He wasn't sure if Rei was scared of him or he had a nightmare. "Rei?" He said gently, "Are you okay?"

Rei didn't-couldn't answer him. How could he? He just found out his so-called koi was going to betray him in the end, and he threw himself to him like a whore.

Kai rubbed his back in a soothing manner, which only caused Rei to stiffen more. Now Kai was getting really worried. He could tell that Rei was scared of him, but he didn't know why.

Kai's hand drifted to Rei's face as he cupped the cheek and titled his head up to make eye contact. When he saw Rei's eyes he knew he had to ask the question, "Rei…what's wrong with you?" He asked.

Rei looked into Kai's eyes and saw a number of emotions from the usually emotionless teen. He saw concern, panic, sadness, and an emotion he now thinks is fake…love.

Rei had to ask Kai about his Grandfather sooner or later, but right now he was too scared of the truth. He knew right now that his mind was too unstable now. He would wait until his mind got back into working order before popping the question.

"Nothing…I'm fine." He mumbled nuzzling the side of his neck. If he didn't play along Kai would be suspicious.

Kai narrowed his eyes, "No you're not. Why are you afraid of me?" He asked sternly.

Rei didn't answer him, but proceeded to take off his scarf and plant kisses onto his neck. Kai shuddered slightly and pushed Rei away from his neck, "Stop that Rei! And answer my question." He demanded.

"I'm not afraid of you Kai. I just had a nightmare that's all." He answered making his voice sound as honest as possible.

Kai still didn't believe him but didn't push it. He instead nodded his head and started to stroke Rei's hair.

Rei made no sign that he was enjoying or hating the comfort Kai was giving him. All he did was lay in his lap staring at the wall.

Kai then stood up but not before setting Rei onto the ground and walked towards the door.

Rei sat in the room staring at nothing in particular, "Nothing will be the same again. No matter what." He muttered.

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Kai walked down the hallway with a troubled expression on his face. 'Why was he so afraid of me? What did I do?' He thought.

"Hello Mr. Hiwatari." Came a sudden voice from behind.

Kai turned quickly to see someone he never met before, "Who are you?" He questioned his voice cold.

"The names Rai, and I have a message for you from your Grandfather." He replied. Kai's eyes went cold as he glared at him. He didn't know who this Rai person was but if he was involved with his Grandfather it couldn't be good.

"What is it?" He asked his voice still cold. Rai chuckled, "He wants to congratulate you for tricking the tora-youkai into believing you loved him." He said.

Kai felt his eyes widen, 'My Grandfather actually thought that I would go along with his stupid plan. I'm not a pawn in your chess game anymore!' He thought glaring at Rai.

Kai turned his back to him and started to walk away but not before saying, "Who says I'm working for him. I don't recall ever tricking this tora-youkai."

Rai watched him leave his face contorting with anger, 'That little bastard. He's just lucky I don't have orders to kill him.' He thought walking into the woods.

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Rei sat on the futon staring at the wall before he got up again. He stumbled into the bathroom.

Rei didn't know how long he had been unconscious for, but now that he was awake he had to get rid of the blood on the floor.

Rei turned the hot water on and a rag and started to scrub the blood away. After taking off the blood as best as he could he turned his attention to his wrist. Now that he thought about it why did he cut his wrist? His wrist was an obvious place and out in the open. But he was a wreck he just wanted to end the pain. Next time he would cut somewhere else.

Rei started to shiver and he wrapped his arms around himself. Why did fate always have to make his life miserable? Every time it looked like his life was going up something had to happen to bring it back down. Reminding him that he wasn't supposed to be happy. He was everyone's toy.

Rei closed his eyes hearing footsteps approach the room. Rei walked out of the bathroom and sat on the futon looking at the sheets.

He heard the door open and turned his head to see who it was. His eyes widened in shock. There in the door way was not Kai…it was Angel.

"Angel…?" He muttered. Angel looked at him with watery eyes, "Rei…why did you do it…?" She whispered.

Rei looked at her confused but then clued in on what she was talking about. His wrist he didn't re-wrap it after he took the bandages off.

Rei stared at her then lowered his eyes ashamed. Angel took a shaky step forward, "Please answer me Rei." She said gently.

Rei felt his eyes fill with tears, "I…I just wanted…to escape the pain…" He choked out. Angel stared at him her own eyes filling up with tears, "Oh Rei…" She mumbled.

Rei's shoulder's started to shake with sobs. Rei screwed his eyes shut tightly trying to hold in the tears, but they still escaped. Rei was startled when he felt small arms wrap around him. Angel was hugging his head to her chest, her head resting on top of his, her eyes shut, "Let it all out Rei…" She mumbled into his hair.

Rei didn't react at first then he pressed his head into the fabric of her shirt and started to sob. Angel held him close and started to stroke his hair, "That's it…let it all out." She whispered soothing.

Rei sobbed into her for a while but the crying turned into choppy hiccups, and pretty soon Rei was exhausted.

Angel gently pulled away from her, "You feel better now?" She asked her voice hushed. Rei nodded his head down. Angel smiled and gently wiped away the tears, "That's good. I wouldn't want you hurt Kitten." She said for a second sounding older than she should.

Rei snapped his head up so fast it would've flew off, "What did you call me?" He asked his eyes wide.

Angel blinked innocently at him, "I called you by your name Rei." She said her voice was normal for a five year old.

Rei looked at her his eyebrows scrunched together. Angel just smiled got up and walked towards the door, "Bye-bye Rei." She said with a little wave. Rei stared at the shut door, 'I could've sworn she called me kitten.' He thought sadly.

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Rei sat down on his new bed. It had been a week since his father was killed and him and his mom ran away from there home. They were now living in a small town next to the mountains. Rei didn't like the town. All the kids made fun of him because he looked like a cat and say he cheater whenever he won a beyblade match.

Rei and his mother lived at the edge of town near the forest. He usual went into the to train. Rei lifted his head when he heard a knock on the door, "Come in." He said.

Nagiko opened the door and walked inside. "Hey kitten, what do you want for supper?" She asked.

Rei shook his head, "I don't know." He said quietly. Nagiko notice something wrong with him so she went over and sat down beside him wrapping her arms around him, "Is something wrong Rei?" She asked gently.

Rei nodded his head, "I don't like this place Mama. Everyone's mean to me." He whispered.

She nodded her head and brought his head in to her chest, and rested hers on top of his. "Oh Rei…I know you don't like this place, but we have to live here." She said gently.

Rei nodded his head but tears were running down his face. He buried his head into the fabric of her shirt and started to cry. She stroke his hair and rubbed his back, "Shhh…shhh…its okay. Let it all out." She whispered.

Rei's sobs calm down into choppy hiccups, which left him exhausted, "You feeling better?" She asked. Rei nodded his head, "Good. I wouldn't want you hurt Kitten." She said wiping away his tears. Rei sniffed and hugged her, "Thank you Mama." He said.

Nagiko smiled, "Your welcome."

"I want pizza Mama." He said. She smiled at him and nodded, "Ok just wait here okay." She said. Rei nodded his head watching her leave his room. He turned his attention to the window and looking out into the night sky, "I miss Papa." He whispered.

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Rei shook his head trying to get rid of the memory. He sighed sadly and laid down.

He was drifting off when the door to his room slammed open. He bolted up right staring at the door.

"Rei we need to talk."

Well that all. Oh which one of you want to read the lemon I wrote for chapter 18? Just e-mail me at MoonLightFight and I'll send it to you okay!

Till next time!

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