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Chapter Three: I'm Not Afraid to Lose it All

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"I still can't believe he said that…"

Sadie flashed a sympathetic look towards her younger sister. She walked closer to her and sat down next to her on the couch.

"Guys are dogs, Jude." Sadie touched her sister's red hair. "One second you think they love you…and the next they are running out of your party to find your best friend."

"Thanks Sadie."

"Sorry," Sadie frowned. "I didn't mean to upset you."

"Touring is a lot of hard work." Jude said, randomly. "It's sad that I already hate being back."

"Don't say that." Sadie responded. "I love being back and being able to see you."

Jude forced a smile. She didn't want her sister to feel bad. Sadie was actually the only she felt like talking to.

"Thanks Sadie." Jude smiled again. "I'm going to go for a walk, okay?"

"Alright." Sadie stood up after Jude. She headed towards the kitchen. "See you later."

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Jude walked out the front door and down the stairs. She stopped and looked up at Jamie's window. She picked up a rock and held it tightly in her palm. She dropped the rock on the ground and walked off.

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"Hey Jude."

Jude looked up from her notebook.

"Oh, hi Georgia." Jude nodded. "My head is flooding with thoughts. I'm just writing them down…"

"Writing a master piece?" Georgia asked. "Keep it up."

Georgia smiled at Jude right before she walked off. Jude looked back down. She was drawing a blank.

How can I not write anything? With all of these emotions something needs to come out. Something is missing…no someone is missing.

Jude threw her notebook down and stood up. She walked over to her guitar and picked it up.

"…You never lied to me not once
Its not your fault that I cant trust
Its in my past, its in my path and I can't go there
Making a mess out of this game
To see it all go up in flames
So tired of being ruthless and wreckless…"

Jude stopped singing when she saw Tommy.

"Don't let me interrupt." Tommy insisted. "Keep singing."

Jude put down her guitar and stood up. She went to walk away when Tommy grabbed her arm.

"Let go!" Jude pulled away, forcefully.

"Whoa! Jude." Tommy walked behind her. "Why are you mad at me? Please stop."

"I'm just feeling a little hurt Tommy." Jude stopped. The tears welled up in her blue eyes. She turned around and faced Tommy. "I told you I can't do anything right."

"What are you talking about Jude?" Tommy asked, now worrying about her. "Jude?"

"I asked you before." Jude began. "Why am I so easy to give up?"

Tommy shook his head; he didn't understand what she meant.

"Even Jamie." The tears rolled down her cheeks. "Gone…just like that. Yet I still can't figure it out. I can't figure out what I'm doing wrong."

"I told you already." Tommy said. "You can't ask me that."

"Well you must see it though." Jude replied. "You must see the huge flaw I have that scares everyone away!"

"You're perfect Jude." Tommy said, sternly. He relaxed. "Don't get me all worked up again. You know what happened last time."

Jude leaned towards Tommy.

He quickly pulled far from her reach.

"Jude." Tommy looked around; there were a few people here and there. "I'll catch you around."

"I don't think so." Jude walked to her guitar and picked it up. She tossed her notebook in the trash barrel.

As Jude walked away, Tommy followed her. "Wait."

Jude stopped one more time to face Tommy.

"I can't do this anymore." Jude announced. "I know it's my dream. But I think I need to either give it up or take a break. A long break from this and everything that has to do with it."

Tommy helplessly watched her walk away.

"Your eyes…" Tommy sang. "Are holding up the sky."

Jude stopped.

"Your eyes…" Tommy continued. "Make me weak I don't know why."

Jude turned around.

"Your eyes make me scared to tell the truth."

Jude began to walk towards him.

"I thought my heart was bullet proof."

She stopped right in front of him.

"But I'm dancing on the roof." Jude chimed in. "And everybody knows……I'm into you."