A Warrior's Path
Chapter Two: Worry and Pain
James' POV
Sure, I've changed a lot in the past month or so. Sure I'm angry all the time. But don't I have a good enough reason. I had just finished polishing my weapons and arming my self when the Prefects began arriving. I saw
Lily walk in, and she looked worried. Probably about me… I mean, I did have weapons in my possession. Oh yeah, and I was wearing battle robes. I still love her… my stomach still flops when I see her. I shake myself mentally.
"Ok, I'll go over the requirements, and what you will be up against as prefects. Then Lily, here will go over patrolling and such. Okay, many of you have heard of the new threat: Voldemort." Many flinched at the name. "Okay, now, don't finch at his name, it's just a name. However in light of recent events, I have been asked to teach you all ways to defend yourselves in anyway possible. This means with swords," Summoned one "Daggers" Summoned another "Bow and Arrows," summoned mine "Physically, and Magically. You must be ready, aware at all times. I expect you to come to the Great Hall every Tuesday at 7:00 pm, right after dinner, for training." I said into their incredulous faces, "Any questions, please contact me in the Head Dorms." I abruptly sat down.
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Lily's POV
It's almost unbelievable how much James has changed. He's angry. I almost liked him at the end of the year too… ah well. I just spoke to Sirius, Remus, and Peter, who insisted I "meet with them." Apparently they needed my help in 'getting their friend back' show him some sense, soften him up. I saw how worried they were, and had just come from meeting James…. We are ALL worried about him. I'll have to talk to him later.
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It had been a few hours, it was around 10:00 PM when I tried to talk to him in the Head Boy's room. It appeared that he was playing guitar…..
I was completely horrified.
This was what he was singing:
Cut
my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No
breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
This is my last resort
Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my
last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if
I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would
it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances
are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I'm contemplating
suicide
Cuz I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish
somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my
mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
I never
realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was
empty within
Hungry
Feeding on chaos
And living in
sin
Downward spiral where do I begin
It all started when I lost
my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching
to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions
and devils
Cuz I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish
somebody would tell me in fine
Losing my sight
Losing my
mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's
alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm
crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I can't go on living this way
Cut my life into pieces
This is my
last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if
I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If
I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation
outta sight
And I'm contemplating suicide
Cuz I'm
losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm
fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell
me I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm
running and I'm crying
I can't go on living this way
Can't
go on
Living this way
Nothing's alright
That was when I noticed the knife in his hands. "Goodbye, Lily, Goodbye Sirius, goodbye World." He whispered. Before I had known what I was doing, I jumped in front of the blade, and yelled, "JAMES!"
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Gryffindor Tower
Sirius' POV
I was going up to bed, when I heard the yell that chilled me to the bone: "JAMES!" I realized that it was coming from the Heads' Dorms. I raced through the passage I knew led there. I noticed the blood seeping from James's room. I flung open the door just in time to see Lily fall to the ground… blood was coming from a cut in her side. I also arrived in time to see my best friend stab himself in the chest. He was about to slice up his lungs, when I jumped in. I took the knife out his chest right before he collapsed from pain. I yelled as loudly as I could:
"DUMBLEDORE!" I knew that this call would immediately find the man next to the source of the call. He looked at James and Lily in disbelief… then said "Sirius, go get Madame Pomphry." I rushed out into the hall. I must have woken up half the castle, so many people were out. I took every shortcut I could. I found Pomphry outside the infirmary.
"You called for Dumbledore?"
"Yes, c'mon."
I led her back to the Head Dorm, where I saw the Headmaster had moved James and Lily to the sofa in their Common Room. I was relieved to see that both of them were breathing—though shallowly.
While the nurse went about bandaging up their wounds Dumbledore summoned me over.
"What happened?" he asks me.
"I dunno…. I think that James was going to attempt suicide. Perhaps he tried once, Lily tried to stop him… and he then thought that he had killed her too."
"… so he couldn't bear to live without her and decided to 'join' her in 'death'." The Headmaster finished.
"Er, yeah."