"Dream as if you'll live forever; Live as if you'll die today."
I opened my eyes to the moon light shining through my window. I sighed sitting up. There was a cold spot where I knew that damn brat would have slept if I hadn't made him stay with Tohma.
'He needs someone else with him anyway. I think I'm unstable too. I mean, I feel like crying now.' I looked toward my window. Then at the clock. The green florescent numbers said it was twelve forty three. I had only so far gotten two hours of sleep.
I sighed as I started to get up. I pulled on my robe as I decided to go and smoke outside. Then that damn brats voice echoed in my head," Yuki! Smoking is going to only kill you!"
I smirked, a part of me wanted to be dead. I had killed the only man I'd ever really loved with my own two hands. Tohma was there to comfort me at that time. I was a mess, he stopped me from killing myself countless times, and yet… Shuichi was the one to save him… ironic I guess.
I stepped outside the door and walked down the wood floor halls, the wood covered surface creaked as I walked, when I made it to the outside hall I noticed that Shuichi was sitting there. I guess he heard me coming or something because he greeted me without even turning around. How he knew it was me…I'll never know but all the same I greeted him in return," Konbanwa." I said shortly.
"Out to smoke I guess?" he asked me.
"Yah you guessed that too?" I said pulling out a stick and lighting it up, putting it between my lips.
"You never go outside for any other reason." He sounded like he was upset still, and for some reason I felt concerned about it.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"I dunno." He said in return.
"Start knowing! I'm trying to talk to you!" I raised my voice a bit not yelling, I didn't want to wake up the temple," And I thought I said to stay with Tohma…!" I felt fear well up inside," Did he kill himself!"
"Wha?" Shuichi looking at me like I was the walking dead," No! he's just asleep so I came outside! That's all!"
I smirked. We were kinda yelling at each other but trying to be a quiet as possible about it," You damn brat! You had me thinking he did!"
"I'm so sorry to disappoint!" he said in a loud whisper.
"You are really…"
"Let me guess stupid?" Shuichi said.
"No… entertaining." I placed the word just as how I found him at the time.
"Entertaining?" he repeated me," Why?"
"I don't know." I paused," I guess I just think its funny you're trying to yell without waking up the whole temple."
"Well whatever." He said.
"What's eating you?" I asked, I was really bugged that he hadn't latched on to me once since I told him Mika was dead.
"Well," he dragged it out," I feel really bad for Tohma-kun, I mean he lot the one he loved and now he's all alone."
His reasons for it were sincere enough but I didn't buy it. He was acting normal (-ish) at funeral talking with Ryuichi but now… now he was really (to me) weird. He hadn't done anything remotely close to hyper for days," Stop acting like a normal person." I said plainly.
"Huh?" he looked up at me.
"Stop acting like a normal person." I repeated.
"What's that supposed to mean?" he asked me pouting; I smirked. I had to admit he looked cute when he did that.
"You're supposed to latch onto me every time I walk into a room and your supposed to bounce of walls. Be hyper, do something that'll drive me to insanity already." I said truthfully.
"But…I…" he started.
"If you don't I'll kick you out the second we get home." I said… 'That should make him do something like his normal self.' I thought.
While I thought he had quickly stood up and was now cutting the blood circulation to my arm off," No, no, no, no! don't do that!" he said loudly.
"Shhh. You idiot! You'll wake up the temple." I hissed as I tried to move my arm to get some blood flowing.
"Sorry!" He said letting my arm free.
I sighed as I put a hand on his head," Listen Shuichi," I didn't really know what to say so I just said whatever came to mind," I'm just… worried about you… yes I am worried," I added seeing the disbelief in his look," I want you to know that you can act anyway you want. I don't care just… be yourself."
"I'll try!" he said, then latched his arms around my waist.
I was a bit shocked but then made him look at me, I too his chin and kissed him. He soon returned the kiss after a bit more of talking after we broke he headed back to the room he and Tohma were staying in. I knew that Tohma really did need someone other then me all the time so I put out my cigarette and made my way back to my room.
I walked by the room that had been Mika's when we were kids I could still remember Tohma, Mika and, I goofing around playing games like all children do.
When I got to the hall way where my room was I made sure to kick Tatsuha out of there. He was lurking around looking for a chance to get to Ryuichi. I knew it, it what's called… brothers instinct.
When I got rid of him and told Ryuichi to lock his door and window and not to let Tatsuha in even if he was dieing I went back to bed. I glanced at my clock one more time it said now it was two thirty seven. I then turned to face the wall falling asleep.
The sun was now shining through the window as I opened my eyes slowly. The light burned so I closed them again and pulled the blanket over my head,' Shuichi'll wake me up.' I thought as I went back to sleep.
Sure enough minutes later someone entered my room, then the person jumped on my bed, but it wasn't one person it was two.
"Wake up Eiri!" it was Ryuichi.
"La Li Ho!" Shuichi squeaked after him.
I had a lot of thoughts before I sat up and pushed them both off me and lied back down. They'd have to work harder to wake me up then that.
"Yuki!" Shuichi said trying to steal my blanket.
"Come on Eiri-Chan!" Ryuichi cried as he copied Shuichi.
I let go of the blanket and they both fell to the floor, I sat up and watched them try to get out. I suddenly heard a sound as if a tree broke and then both of the hyper singers yelped in pain.
" Ow!" Shuichi said as he slowly pulled the blanket off his and Ryuichi's head.
"Ahh!" Ryuichi said as he held his head tightly.
"Yuki! That was mean!" Shuichi pouted, I just sometimes kill that boy but at others… I smirked.
"Well I'm presuming you came to get me because there's food?" I guess.
Both the singers stood up and said," You bet!" Shuichi then jumped over to me and started to pull on my arm," Come on! Cigarettes and beer aren't food!"
"I'm coming you pain!" I said I then paused," So you're normal?"
"Huh?" Shuichi looked at me like I was stupid," Oh!" he banged his fist in his hand," Yep!" he poked the side of his head.
"Good," I said standing up at long last," Lets go." I looked at the doorway to see Tohma standing there staring at Shuichi then he looked me and smiled one of those smiles you see on him all the time.
" Ohayo, Eiri-kun." He said to me.
"Hey." I said in return then he Shuichi, Ryuichi and I all made our way down the hall. We at in… well it sure as hell wasn't silence, Shuichi and Ryuichi were jabbering away about that stupid looking pink bunny and about tours.
Shuichi has yet to go on tour but, with the way Tohma jumped in on that conversation I could only assume that he'd be going on one really soon,' Now that I think about it if Shuichi went on tour it'd be too quiet at the house… knowing me now… I'd probably ask to go with.'
It was about noon when we got in the car to leave. Tatsuha was disappointed to watch us go mainly because we were taking Ryuichi with us.
It was a oddly silent ride home, Shuichi was in the back with Tohma and Ryuichi was sitting up front next to me. the quiet was too much for me so I flipped on the radio. At the same time one of the radio personalities was talking about one of Shuichi's songs.
/" Now well be playing Rage Beat which this week soared to top of the charts setting it at number one, beating Sakuma Ryuichi, and the other members of Nittle Gasper and leaving him in the dust. Good job Bad Luck!"/
When the song started to play I looked back to see the look on Shuichi's face, and then looked at Ryuichi, both of them were shocked. Tohma though was the first to talk," Congratulations."
"We made number one!" Shuichi said as he started to bounce around in the back, Ryuichi then turned to his and said his own congratulations.
"Yay!" he hugged Tohma quickly then Ryuichi and then me, causing me to swerve.
"Shuichi!" I yelled as I crashed into a light post. The air bags all deployed but my head hit the radio turning it off. When I pulled back I held my head. I looked over to Ryuichi who was trying to get his face out of the air back I then looked to the back Tohma was there but," Where the hell is Shuichi!" I looked to see if he was below the seat, when I didn't find him I looked to the windshield and felt the blood drain from my face," Shuichi!"
"Oh my god!" Tohma said as he kicked the door open, my door was stuck so I kicked out the rest of the windshield and climbed out.
We both ran over to a limp Shuichi who was so still I thought he might have been dead untill he moved glass rolling off his body," I'm sorry Eiri…I got to hyper and ruined your car." Was the first thing he said when he looked me in the face.
"I don't care about that right now! Are you okay? Is anything broken?" I said as I knelt down and grabbed either side of his shoulders.
"I don't…ahh!" Shuichi said grabbing his arm tightly.
"What's wrong?" I asked quickly.
"I think his arm may be broken." Tohma said looking closely at it.
"Damn." I said as I pulled out my cell and pushed 911.
The ambulance soon arrived and took Shuichi and Ryuichi to the hospital. Ryuichi had a minor concussion and Shuichi had to have his arm in a cast.
About an hour later Shuichi and I walked into my house, we'd taken a taxi to get there. He went to the living room and I stared after him,' He thinks I'm mad… I am but… it… well it was his fault…' I thought to myself going to my room to sleep.
I lied there for about an hour and went no sleep came I called for Shuichi," Yes?" he asked as he slowly opened the door.
"Come in here." I said.
He slowly came in, it was almost like a dog afraid of getting hit with a newspaper," Want is it you want Eiri?"
"I know you'll think I'm sick or something but…" I looked him over," Come here and sleep with me. I want you in here too."
"Yuki?" Shuichi asked as he stopped.
"Come here!" I snapped.
"Coming!" He said as he jumped into the bed with me," Better?"
"Much." I said as I wrapped my arms around him and brought him down on top of me," Now… Lets see what you can do with that broken arm."
He giggled," Yuki you have such a dirty mind."
I smirked as I kissed him full on the mouth," Come on."
TBC
Ok everyone! Note to you all! I do not do lemons! So this is a safe fix! It talks about the "dirty" but I would never write one full on! I find it really sick! So there! well I finally figured out that this is going to be a three different POV story. Starting with Shuichi, then Yuki and ending with Tohma! Yay! Now this will be a TohmaxShuichi the next chapter! So hold on! Kk?
Ja Ne!
Kaiyuku-San