Words left unspoken
Sorry, guys (again). I got dumped with three essays and a project, and I got kind of lazy too. Just to warn you, this chapter is awful, I don't mean the content, but I had a really hard time trying to write it and it's come out mechanical. So flame away, but please add in helpful comments so I can re-write it better.
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Also the poll for which story I should start writing next is so far:
Three years of surviving you: 3
In the absence of sight: 3
The tale of two Gippal: 2
So please keep voting!
Milki.E: glad you liked the fight, lol, I thought it might be more realistic for it to happen. I couldn't resist the love bite bit, I thought it would be a very Gippal like thing to give her them and then not tell her.
Back of Beyond: a) don't worry, they make up!
b) yes it does, but I'm not saying what.
c) thank you!
Flametongue: lol, I am obsessed with the coupling, ask anyone. Glad you like it! Sorry this chapter isn't great though.
Mistress Delavaire: no worries, but don't put your fic down like that! Whoa! 33 chapters! Lol, I'm going to have to get an afternoon free to read that, but I will. Not sure I deserve the plushie, you'll see when you read the chapter
Wannabe-Pansgirl96: lol, that is the one I have written the most of so far. Looks good for it in the voting at least so maybe!
Kairiyuna14: This one you might not like, sorry.
Tanya Takaishi: has done that to me too! its so annoying. Lol, I couldn't picture Gippal and Rikku argument free, it's too strange. Lol, he is a mushy man really isn't he? Lol, I turned Gippal soft! I though him having waited after everything that happened to unrealistic, plus it wouldn't fit in with his 'living for he moment' idea. This chapter is mostly Gippal's past, but it's badly written, I had no inspiration for most of it except near the end, but even that it mechanical. Any advise would be appreciated! I really need to rewrite it.
Master thief: Thank you! Lol, I had forgotten his name and looked in the strategy guide for it but it wasn't said. So thank you so much!
Mushimars: I'm honoured to be on you list, lol. Keep up with your story, its going great so far!
Angry Girl: I agree 100 with you! They put in so many hints about them two it was obvious they should be together. Glad you're enjoying it, don't let this chapter make you give up, I'll improve it once I figure out how.
Rikkukins: lol, who wouldn't like a story with two gippals in? cookie! I love cookies! Toaster! I LOVE TOAST! Lol, thank you!
Violet121: lol, glad you like the name, I like that name too, the only set title I have for those would be fics. Hope this chapter won't stop you reading, I promise the next one will be better.
Princess of Sorrow: Yay! I told you I would do it today! I can I be a 6 on the scale now? Lol, although it is a bad chapter so I'll probably go up to 9. lol, I loved that game in chapter 13, it was so funny and so clever! I just looked and saw you've updated with two more chapters! Whoa! How do you do it so fast? Lol, I'm going to read then once I've posted this up.
To remember me by
I refuse to feel guilty over this. It wasn't my fault, I mean with those clothes you wear you could have easily been some kind of stripper.
…Yeah I know; I'm an idiot. Stupid stupid Gippal I messed up big time again. I can only hope you didn't cry over this, I would never mean to hurt you, I just…I have serious trust issues. But then again I think all us Al Bhed do. Figures, in order to be trustworthy I have to be completely honest about everything! But you're just so…well, innocent, how would you still want me after you find out where I've been?
Plus that whole issue was freaking me out a little. Yeah I know I'm no virgin, but that doesn't mean I want to rush anything with you…I want this to be different, special. I don't want you to think of my past experience, feel like I love you less just because I didn't wait. It's not true. Maybe if I explain why first before telling you the exact number, you'll understand more. I mean…it's not that many when you think about it…just cough more than you. But you did accept the fact that I used to travel with a killer, so this should be a hell of a lot easier to deal with.
…But I know it isn't because I had a choice in this issue of women. I wasn't under threat of death; I could have said no but I didn't. I just needed to forget you, to live in the moment…oh fayth I can't lose you over this Rikku! My Kuey, please don't say cough past mistakes will mean you finally give up on me. I love you too much for that to happen now.
I should go to your room right now. It's the middle of the night, you're probably asleep, but I should go anyway. But I'm too stupid and stubborn for that, and you're too proud to beg with me. But then again you do have to admit that I have told you a lot about me now. It might not be in detail, but its stuff I've barely let anyone else know. What have I heard about you? Nothing. There's plenty of stuff I don't know about you. Why did you want to go on that salvage mission? Why did you stay with Yuna even when she refused to give up her pilgrimage? Were you scared when you faced Sin? Where you thinking about the good of your people while you fought? What was it like after? Why did you never look for me? What did you do before the Gullwings? Why didn't you come to the Faction opening? What's Mount Gagazet like? Did you even care when I got shot?
I know I'm being selfish, but tough. I want to know about you too! Did you used to have a crush on Tidus or something? I don't like the way you're always smiling near him. And why do you like poking Wakka's belly so much?...This is driving me insane, I should have just taken the potion and slept for twelve hours. But I've only got three doses left.
Great, guess I'll have to dwell on this for another eight hours.
Baralai had woken early, around six, and once he realised it was impossible to fall back asleep he decided to be polite and prepare breakfast for the rest of the group. Paine still slept on in their room and although he would have rather spent his time watching her, his courteous nature wouldn't allow him to.
"It's about time someone woke up." Gippal grumbled, startling the young praetor.
"Didn't you get any sleep last night?" He asked as he sat on the table, a plate was instantly shoved in front of him. Gippal cooked?
"Nah, I don't have many sleeping potions left, didn't want to risk it." Baralai nodded in agreement while he cautiously poked at the food.
"I heard raised voices last night. Are you and Rikku okay?"
"She's mad at me." He mumbled, watching with a smirk as Baralai tried a bit of the food and spat it out again. "I was trying to make an apology breakfast."
"Well if you are attempting to poison her I think you've done it perfectly." Baralai choked out. "Here let me teach you while you explain the mess you've gotten yourself this time."
The guado named Landon unlocked the room gloomily. Lord Jsycal had given orders to bring the small Al Bhed to him for 'negotiations' and as much as he wanted to go against orders he couldn't. He didn't want to risk his family's lives on the account of one Al Bhed.
"Stop being an idiot, it's just an Al Bhed." The other guard told him as he shoved past. Landon growled slightly, he really hated him. "Hey! Where's it gone?"
Landon frowned and quickly entered, gazing around the empty room. For a moment he allowed a small smile to cross his lips before mimicking the other guard's anger.
"Check the boxes Landon, I'll check in the corridor." Landon nodded, praying silently to Yevon that the boy wouldn't be found; that he would be given the chance to live beyond today. He began searching the boxes mechanically, a feeling of dread growing in his stomach…until he opened one chest and found the Al Bhed there, holding a knife to Landon's throat. He swallowed nervously, looking into the boy's eyes.
"I want to help." He whispered cautiously and slowly to the boy. "Stay in the box and wait until we leave, escape then." The boy didn't say anything, just gazed into his eyes questioningly. "I doubt you want to kill me and I don't want to see someone so young suffer under Lord Jsycal." The boy hesitated, but nodded slightly.
"Name." He demanded.
"Landon." This seemed to convince the boy as he removed the threatening knife and squished back into the chest, allowing Landon to close it loosely.
"Not here." Landon told the guard as he came back into the room. "Maybe he's gone after Lord Jsycal!"
"Quickly, we must warn him!" They left the room quickly, the door left wide open. Landon took a moment to glance back but then remained focused on his task. The young Al Bhed was on his own now.
Gippal knocked on the door quietly, trying to balance the breakfast tray in his left hand as he did so.
"Kuey open up, I have breakfast in bed for you." No answer. He sighed heavily, placing the breakfast on the floor while taking a hairclip out of his pocket. The sight of it made him shudder with grief, remembering who had given it to him so long ago.
"E's cunno." (I'm sorry) He whispered to it, preparing to bend it but stopping. He couldn't. It was all he had to prove what the Gaudo named Landon had once done for him.
"It's unlocked." A voice behind him smirked, Gippal turned to see Paine watching him before she made her way downstairs. He frowned, wiping away tears on his face. How embarrassing. Sighing to himself he began to quietly open the door, picking up the tray before entering.
"Kuey?" He asked cautiously, seeing she was still asleep. He smiled at how peaceful she looked and set the tray down while he sat on the bed carefully. "E's cunno." (I'm sorry) He whispered gently. "E's zicd yvnyet uv muucehk oui." (I'm just afraid of loosing you.) No response was given as he kissed her lightly on the forehead. He sighed again and began to exit the room, but stopped at the door. "Four."
"Huh?" Rikku mumbled; sitting bolt upright with the bed cover wrapped around her protectively. Gippal blinked in surprise, trying not to get distracting by the thought of what lay underneath the cover...
"The first was after I got shot; when I recovered I got kind of depressed and did some stupid things, that being the worse." He began quietly while sitting down on the end of the bed. "The second one was on my seventeenth birthday; I got drunk and did another stupid thing. The third was another drunken mistake on my eighteenth." Rikku was silent, shuffling closer to him with an unreadable look on her face.
"What about the fourth?"
"Well…she was the only one who I knew at all, the one I felt something for. But it could never to be; everything was against us." Rikku frowned then, jealousy beginning to boil through her veins.
"What's her name?" She half growled.
"…Dona."
"FRYD! Ruf tyna cra! E's kuhhy..." (WHAT! How dare she! I'm gonna…) She paused with her would be threats and angry jumping on the bed when she realised Gippal was laughing!
"Oui'a ymfyoc kuut vun y myikr Kuey." (You'e always good for a laugh Kuey) He told her between breaths. Rikku sank back on the bed and took up a mastered sulk position. "I was just kidding! Her name is Rikku."
"You haven't slept with me yet." Rikku pointed out, silently kicking herself for adding the yet part.
"I know that, I'm not saying it to rush anything either. I…I just want to make it clear that they will only ever be four, and that fourth is you."
"If it didn't sound so pervy it would almost be sweet." Rikku muttered, noticing the breakfast for the first time.
"If you want me to have less pervy thoughts I suggest you put some clothes on." Gippal smirked, Rikku turned crimson, realising she had been jumping about earlier in nothing but a bra and thong. She gave him a punch on the arm before quickly slipping on her skirt. "Am I forgiven then?" Rikku paused a moment and then smiled, giving him a long kiss as her answer.
"Maybe." She teased. "It depends how good this breakfast is." She whispered in his ear. "And then I just might tell you everything I've been doing these past two years."
The young Gippal waited five minutes before climbing out of the chest and leaving the room. He decided to head straight, like the guards had. He begged silently that no monsters would be down here, he wasn't up to fights right now. He ended up wandering the passageways for ten whole minutes while running from battles before he finally saw the passage leading out, except…
"What do you mean it got out?" Lord Jsycal bellowed as he strode down the passage. Gippal quickly ran back into a room that seemed to be some forgotten bedroom. "How could it get out of a locked room? You should have killed it outside instead of bringing it in!" The voice faded down the corridor and Gippal quickly sprinted to the passage exit, breathing a sigh of relief.
The room he entered was big and fancy, almost like Bevelle decorations looked like. There was a fat, drunken man at the table, head down as he muttered away to himself. Gippal froze for a moment but noticed the big door, his only escape, on the other side of the large room.
"Oi you!" The drunken man suddenly yelled at him. "New shlave are yous? Take thisss tray up to, erm, young Seymour. He's in, oh my head!"
"He's in your head sir?" Gippal asked, trying to act stupid.
"No! He's upstairsss in his fathers room, working."
"Yes sir." Gippal said shakily, if the sphere was here it must be in that room. "Which room is that sir? Being new…"
"Just turn right at top of stairsss." He grumbled before placing his head on the table again. "And don't takes we days, I wants more drinks when you get back." Gippal just nodded as he picked up the tray and quickly moved out through the door before the man changed his mind.
No guards were around so Gippal began eating the food on the tray, too hungry to feel guilty. Now he could either leave or look for the sphere…
"Where's my dinner?" A childish scream echoed through the house, causing Gippal to almost choke. He sighed and grabbed the half empty tray, carefully making his way up the right stairs. "Finally!" Seymour burst as Gippal entered the room, he didn't even bother to look up from the desk he was at. "Bring it over here." Gippal shakily placed the tray down, and realised too late he should have got his new dagger out ready. "What the?" Seymour fumed, finally looking up. "You don't work here! And you ate my…argh!" He yelled with fury, preparing a fire spell." Guards! Guar…" He didn't get to finish his spell or sentence as Gippal pulled out the first thing in his pocket and whacked the older boy over the head with it…which was a hard task due to the fact he had to jump up.
Seymour fell to the ground unconscious while Gippal blinked at the blank sphere in his hand. But hearing the guards charging up the stairs made him dropped it beside Seymour, where it unknowingly began recording…
Yuna and Tidus were the last to wake up, entering the big hall at almost ten in the morning. Everyone was there, and Yuna noted that Gippal and Rikku were sat together, her neck expertly applied with cover make up as she chatted to him about life as a Gullwing.
"Only you could eat two breakfasts and look so great." She heard Gippal mutter when Rikku paused her talking to shove food in her mouth.
"Well, Baralai is a good cook." Rikku said as defence while she waved at her cousin. "Paine is so lucky to be marrying a guy that's actually useful."
"Are you saying I'm not useful?"
"Yep." She grinned as she stuffed more food in her mouth. Gippal just shrugged, too tired to argue.
"When do we set off?" Paine grumbled darkly.
"Well, I actually wanted to visit the farplane now that the guados have stabilized it." Yuna admitted.
"…I want to go there too." Rikku said quietly, causing Gippal to choke on his drink.
"Oh, I thought you didn't like it there."
"I don't but…I just need to go there, you know?"
"You don't have to go there to remember her Kuey." Gippal told her quietly.
"…I'm starting to forget her face Gippal, I-I need to remember her face. Don't you want to see your mother again?"
"Not when it's just a bunch of pyreflies."
"Well I do and it won't take too long, Yunie's going anyway so…"
"Okay, okay, you don't need my permission." Gippal said uneasily, suddenly seeming very quiet. No one talked again for a long time, just ate the delicious food.
"Tromell." Baralai suddenly spoke up. "I was wondering if you have any sleeping potions in that store house of yours. Gippal's running out." Gippal didn't dare look up from his food.
"I'm afraid not, but I do have something of his left behind twelve years ago." This got everyone's attention from their breakfast as Tromell held out a battered looking sphere to Gippal. "It has a recording on it, must have happened when you dropped it I imagine."
"You kept it?" Gippal asked, hesitantly taking it from the chuckling Guado.
"It's not everyday a six year old Al Bhed manages to break into the house of Lord Jsycal, trick the guards, knock his son unconscious, befriend a guard, steal Jsycal's valuable sphere and get out alive!" Everyone stared at him then and Gippal just shrugged, trying to look less uneasy than he actually was.
"You make it sounds different from what it was." Gippal muttered.
"I wanna see!" Rikku yelled, grabbing the sphere and placing it the centre of the table before turning it on.
The sphere was on the ground, only showing part of Seymour's sleeping face to its right side. To the left a leg could be seen.
"Cred." A small voice muttered; the figure bent down, showing his face to the sphere while he pulled out a dagger from his boot.
"Oh Fayth it is you!" Rikku burst.
"What's with the hair?" Paine asked. "Hadn't you heard of trimming? Or even a brush?" Gippal laughed nervously, running a hand through his hair.
"Stay back!" Gippal yelled as the two guards entered. His feet were in a battle stance where as the ones in the distance where unprepared. A cold laugh could be heard.
"The little Al Bhed thinks he can take us!" One voice spoke, still laughing.
"He did defeat Seymour." A second voice said.
"That's not hard. Our orders are to kill it." One set of feet moved closer and after a brief struggle a yelp of pain was heard coming from Gippal. The sphere was picked up by his attacker, pointing it at the boy now on the floor. "This is what happens to creatures who mess with Guados."
The Guado with the sphere laughed, swinging the view to the Guado guard at the door, watching the scene with horror.
"Don't even try looking for help kid, Landon won't save you, he's clever enough to know you don't matter."
"Turn it off." Gippal commanded tonelessly, but no one heard him.
The sphere swung back to Gippal who was now staring up defiantly at the unknown guard. A smile formed on his face as he rose to his feet.
"Bring it." He said, trying to spit on the Guado…but splashing the sphere screen in the process.
"Ew." Rikku complained.
For a moment nothing seemed to happen, then a cry was heard and the sphere fell once more, except this time it was tilted slightly upwards so Gippal's face could be seem and up to the level of Landon's neck. In his hand was a bloody sword and on Gippal's face was a look of amazed shock.
"E lyh'd dyga drec." (I can't take this.) Gippal muttered before bolting from the room. Rikku stood to follow but stopped with Tromell's voice.
"Wait, you must see the rest before you can understand."
"But…he was your friend." The young Gippal finally managed to say.
"He was never my friend and I won't allow you to be killed for no reason."
"But…"
"What's your name?"
"G-gippal. But you'll be killed!"
"Not killed Gippal, I'll just serve some time in Bevelle's prison, but it will be worth it."
"I'm just an Al Bhed, you shouldn't have thrown your life away because of me!"
"What's done is done and now you must go or it will have been for nothing."
"I-I can't. I n-need the sphere of Home, I can't let them attack it!" Landon sighed, turned around and used the dagger to open a nearby chest. He took out a sphere, handing it over to Gippal.
"He only has one copy, now go."
"You come too!" Gippal said stubbornly, his arms folded and his stance non-budging. Landon chuckled and kneeled down, it was now possible for them to view his kind face.
"We'll meet again young one. Here," He said, pulling out a hairclip from his pocket and forcing it into Gippal's hand. "To remember me by."
"You wear hair clips?" Gippal snorted.
"It's my daughters." This wiped the smile from Gippal's face and he grunted something too quiet to hear. After a moment he began rummaging about in his own pockets until he pulled out a nicely painted, but empty, potion bottle.
"Remember me with this then." He said quietly. "I'm sure your daughter can put many hair clips in it." Landon chuckled again, suddenly pulling Gippal into a brief hug. "I will come back." With that Gippal turned and ran from the room, leaving Landon alone, clutching the bottle sadly.
"Good luck little Gippal, you will always be in my prayers." He sighed and glanced at the sphere, moving towards it and turning it off just as more Guado guards came storming into the room.
Rikku blinked slightly for a few moments before she grabbed the sphere, running from the room. She had to find Gippal.