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The night was still and calm; all was peaceful around the small dell. The calm was broken by the hoof beats of horses. Out of the darkness came three horses galloping swiftly over the countryside of Gondor as the moved with speed away from the White City and its inhabitants.
Elladan pulled his horse to a stop and patted the stallion's neck. "We should stop, we have been travelling for hours and the horses are tired. Plus we could all do with a rest. If we stop now we can save time and be safe enough not to need a night watch, we could all sleep at once."
Legolas dismounted from Arod, patting him and thanking him for carrying his precious cargo so smoothly. Legolas hated the thought and feeling of being jostled, especially now, what with this new life budding within him. The blond Prince had not spoken a word since their departure and as the twins started to make camp, he just sat on the ground staring into the newly made fire.
The twins looked across at each other and exchanging knowing glances they moved over to Legolas and sank down to the ground on either side of him and wrapped their arms around the trembling form. Legolas blinked the all too frequent tears from his eyes and with a low sigh he rested his head back against Elrohir's shoulder.
"I promise that you will get through this, Legolas it will get better. You have to give Aragorn some time. He is a man and it takes forever for him to see things that are right in front of his eyes. He will see how amazingly special you are, just give him time."
Legolas nodded and closed his eyes. "And if he does not?"
"Then Elrohir, your brothers and I will go and knock some sense into him. That is if Adar does not beat us to it!"
Legolas gave a small laugh and smile. "I fear Ada's reaction to all this. He will probably never speak to me again, I left his grandchildren behind."
The twin's were reminded, yet again, of Legolas' youth by the use of the term Ada. Most Elves stopped calling their parents by the familiar names of Ada and Nana when they came of age, but Legolas had not. But then he was only a few years out of his majority, even if he was a parent himself.
"It will all be well; your Ada will love you no matter what. Now get some sleep, Leafie we have a long journey ahead of us and he will not thank us if you arrive either ill or exhausted." With that the Prince and his companions all fell into a restless sleep full of dark dreams.
Aragorn gave a loud groan as he awoke to the sound of two twin two year olds crying out for their Nana. He rolled over to prod said Nana and wake him up, but the King was greeted by a cold empty space where the warm body of the Prince Consort should have been.
It was then that memory hit him with a jolt. The bed was cold, Legolas really had left and he had let him go. Not only that he had struck Legolas. Something he had never ever thought he would be able to do.
He could not prevent another louder groan leave him as he pushed himself out of the warm bed and did his best to comfort his children who had both suffered from scary nightmares and all they really wanted was a hug.
Finally after they had both settled down he sat on the edge of the bed looking around the room. It had been designed with Legolas in mind. There were pale greens of differing shades on the walls and lots of light with plants every where. He made a mental note to redecorate, a nice bright blue or calming brown, anything but green.
He settled back down on his bed and quickly fell asleep. He dreamt of all the times that he and Legolas had argued in the past, they had always made up after wards, happily. This one would not be so easily mended, even if he had wanted to. Nausea rolled within him at that thought. The thought of the long years without his love seemed to stretch interminably ahead of him.
The next morning Aragorn emerged from his chamber with a twin under each arm and bags under each eye. He met Eowyn and Faramir who carried Boromir, on their way down to the morning meal. Faramir handed him an envelope as Eowyn took one child and Faramir then took the other, None of the family spoke to the King and the King knew then that it would be a long time before he was forgive.
Aragorn's point of view
Damn it, why should I be the one looking for forgiveness? Legolas left me not the other way around. Why does the entire world seem to be on his side? I am the King of this country and not one person has even asked me for my part in this. No one has even asked how I am.
Why do I feel so sick? What could be causing…. Legolas, it has to be, our bond. But why would Legolas be feeling nauseous, an Elf cannot get sick. He must be very upset to be feeling sick. Ai, Valar no, he would not, not again. I need to speak with Ada, it may be necessary to warn Thranduil to watch Legolas for signs of anorexia.
As much as I hate to admit it this is no longer my responsibility, my own actions have seen to that
Return to normal view point.
Looking at the envelope in his hand he turned and walked back into his chambers. Sitting on the bed he looked at his name written in the elegant hand of his husband, with sigh he opened the missive.
Dearest Estel,
I have some things that I need to tell you but speaking with you face to face would have been impossible. Firstly, please do not turn our children against me. I love them so very much and it is hard to be apart from them, but I truly believe that this is something that I must do for both of us.
You have changed so much from the Estel that I fell in love with. Back then you would have walked over hot coals to get to me or risked death to save me from harm. Now you simply ignore me or turn away from me and I fear that your love has turned to hate and resentment.
I have left something's in the draw beside your bed for both you and the children, I beg of you to give it to them. We will meet again one day but whether that is as a married couple or simply as friends, I care not. I do not wish to loose you from my life, you are far too important to me. For as long as I can remember you have been there and I can only hope that you always will be.
With all the love that I posses within me,
Legolas Telcontar Thranduillion
Aragorn felt a single tear slip down his cheek and it fell onto the centre of the parchment. Reaching over the bed he opened the drawer and withdrew a small velvet package from the cupboard that had served as Legolas' bedside table. It was a deep royal blue and he tentatively opened it. As soon as the drawstring fell away three items spilled out onto the bed.
He felt his heart catch in his throat. With shaking fingers he picked them up. In his hand he held the Mithril wedding ring and the matching engagement ring that he had given Legolas along with the Greenleaf necklace he had gifted Legolas on their first wedding anniversary.
There were items still left in the pouch and he gently shook it. Into his hands fell two bracelets. One had the name Summer Blossom engraved on it along with two delicate flowers on either side. The other bracelet was engraved with Valiant Star with two pointed stars in either side. Both were made of Mithril. They were obviously the twins birthday presents that Legolas had not had the chance to give to them.
Aragorn gently closed his hands over all five items, eyes closed and tears flowing down his face. If anything his feeling of nausea had increased as he read the letter from his beloved. Legolas was so right and yet so wrong. He could never turn their children against him; it had been spite and anger talking when he had denied Legolas the chance of taking the twins with him. He regretted it now, but it was too late to change what he had done.
He could understand why Legolas thought that he hated and resented him, but he had also never been farther from the truth. He could never really hate him and what did he have to be resentful about his husband? Even know he would walk into the depths of Mordor to save the Prince, he would just have to bury that feeling along with the love that threatened to send him crashing into depression.
Why did I have to care for you?
When I should have known to stay away
Oh, why was I there for you?
I don't know how I lost my touch
I never believed that I could want
Some bodies love so much
Time can shake me loose from the blue
But who would know that I'd be this low?
Shaking you.
I don't know who I'm rooting for
I just let my arrows go
And hope that I know what I'm shooting for
Don't say that you'll be there for me
If you care for me
You'll be gone
'Cause I don't have the strength to be this strong
Tell me what to do?
Could it take me this long?
Shaking you
Now I'm waiting to hit the ground
'Cause I'm pleading my love for you
In corner's that I can't get around
Time can shake me loose from the blue
But who would know that I'd be this low?
Shaking you
Legolas sat and stirred the remains of their pitiful fire. The twins lay either side of the Prince, sleeping still. Elladan was murmuring in his sleep and Legolas was listening to him mumble about Orcs and arrows. Trying to get some respite from his thoughts, the Prince stood and walked slowly around the clearing feeling a mixture of overwhelming sorrow fill his heart and nausea beginning to roll in his stomach. He missed his children and friends. But mostly he missed his Soul Mate and felt nothing but a black empty pit without him.
It threatened to consume him and send him crashing to his knees. Was this what it was like to fade? He could vaguely recall the feeling from when he had been an Elfling and almost gone to join his Nana; luckily he had been able to fight it. But that had been with Estel's help. Now that was gone. If it had not been for the bright spark of life within him he would have given in to it, let himself be taken by the emptiness. Either that or take the easy route and take the next ship to the West. That would serve Aragorn right. But he could not do that to his baby.
The nausea seemed to increase and he feared that he would loose the little contents his stomach contained. Legolas tried to take deep breathes through his mouth just as Estel had taught him during his first pregnancy. It did not help and he shakily reached out for the small tree that was nearest to him for support.
Legolas was vaguely aware of the trees distress in the clearing, but the buzzing that came from no where claimed his attention completely.
He was not aware of Elladan waking up behind him, his own dark dreams disturbing his rest.
Elladan sighed as he sought the warmth of his twin and his eyes began to glaze over only to spring open as he realised that there was someone very important missing. He sat up quickly, glancing frantically around their impromptu camp. Relaxing as he caught sight of Legolas over by the trees. He had to smile as he watched the Prince reach out for the tree; trust Legolas he always had to have comfort from the trees around him.
He settled back to watch his brother in law, pleased that Legolas was able to get some comfort no matter what the source. It was when he realised that Legolas' hand was shaking and that he was wavering like a wind tossed leaf that the sense of wrongness that had in actual fact woken him, reared once more and he was on his feet in an instant.
"Legolas, Mellon-nin are you alright?" As he reached the obviously distressed Prince he heard a low moan and before he could touch him Legolas sank to his knees. "Legolas, what?"
He could only watch in horror as Legolas pitched forward, unconscious to all around him. "Legolas!! Elrohir, wake up I need help with Legolas he is ill!! Elrohir!!"
Elladan continued to call as he careful turned the ashen Prince over and covered him with his cloak. He looked up as his twin reached his side, worry and fear clear in his grey eyes.
To be continued
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