Wednesday

November 15th

Facing My Fears

"Madison, where's Madison she's not in the room!" Bobby was looking all over upstairs.

"I don't know Bobby, calm down knowing my sister she's probably downstairs making breakfast." Nikki reassured him.

Bobby and Nikki came down the stairs looking for me.

"I don't think I left the TV on last night." Nikki walked into the living room.

There I was sprawled out on the couch snoring. The both laughed; I made their day for sure.

"Madison, Madison, why don't you go up-stairs and sleep in the bed." Nikki shook me lightly.

"Huh, what get your fucking hands off me." I sat up to see my sister with a concerned look on her face. "Oh my god I'm sorry Nikki."

"What happened last night?" Bobby looked at me.

"I couldn't sleep."

"Bobby I need toilet paper!" Yelled Jack from upstairs.

"Jack it's under the sink!" Bobby yelled back.

"Guys." Nikki looked at me and laughed.

After breakfast I took Nikki to the side, I needed to talk to her about something important.

"What's up?"

"Ok, I think I'm going to call dad." I waited for her reaction.

"Why would you want to call that asshole?"

"He's the only one that I know can get me for sure out of this mess."

"What are you going to tell him Madison, that since he left us 10 years ago that our lives went the wrong way. We got caught up with the wrong people and now we need his help because of it. Bullshit Madison he doesn't care about us, that's why he left in the first place."

"You don't know that Nikki."

"Come on Madison use your brain I have been in worst relationships then you have, I had you and my other friends to help me through them. Why aren't you letting us help you! Why do you feel that you need to bring another outsider into this. Just because dad is an FBI agent doesn't mean anything, he'll just bring us all in on some stupid charges."

"Nikki I didn't even want to drag anyone in to this mess. I've been dealing with it ever since I was 18; I've run out of options I don't know what to do any more. I just want to end it, I try everything and you know what it all comes back and bites me in the ass. History repeats itself if you didn't notice. I'm just like Aunt Karen, in two years I'll be…"

"Don't even say it! You are going to get out of this, I know you will. You're stronger than Aunt Karen ever was! Believe me you will get over it, were all here to help you."

"Then why do I feel that it's not enough." I started to cry. My sister came and hugged me. I knew that if I didn't let them in to help, I would find myself alone.

Later that day I gathered everyone up into the living room. I had to face my fear and let them help me through this.

"Ok, I have to tell you everything in order for you to help me. First off when I was 12 my father left my family. Nikki and I were the two oldest and it hit us the hardest. I couldn't take it finally when I was 18 I moved out and went to Brooklyn. There I met this guy Johnny, I thought he was great. I went to work for him as a stripper. I thought that hey it was good money; it was the worst job ever. Johnny fancied me a little too much and started to mix business and pleasure. He was so jealous if any other man looked at me; he decided to move my job to being what I call his bitch. I would call people for him, run errands, and set up meetings.

Then one day Johnny was gone and Chris came into the picture. We moved her to Detroit, Chris bought me the apartment I live in now. It was all good at first till things got worse. He abused me a lot and one night I couldn't take any more. I stabbed him and called the cops. He was sent to jail and I got off with nothing.

Then that's when I went to work for Tony. Little did I know that he was linked to Johnny, but Tony was a good to me and told me that he wouldn't say anything to Johnny. It went pretty well for about a year and a half. That's when Bobby showed up, and then Chris came back. Then the person that I feared the most came back." I had to stop as I wiped the tears from my eyes.

"Now I realized that you are trying to help me and I am willing to let you. I did not mean to drag you into this situation, but you are the closet thing to what I wanted my family to be."

"We need a plan Bobby." Angel looked up at me.

"Yeah what is the plan Bobby?" Sofi looked over to him.

"I don't know, I'll think of one. Just give me some time." Bobby got up and left the room.

That night at dinner, Bobby announced that we were going bowling. I didn't know what to think, I didn't think it was safe but he told me to trust him.

After dinner we piled into two cars and drove to the bowling alley. When we got there everything seemed to be fine.

We went inside and paid the guy for two lanes. We decided to play guys against girls. It was fun; Sofi was a pretty good bowler surprisingly for a drama queen. We played two games and then switched the teams.

I was on a team with Bobby and Angel. Nikki, Sofi, and Jack were on the other team. Of course the first game we kicked ass, but then in the second game the other team creamed us.

As I returned my shoes I watched Bobby and Angel go up to a man. He was a big tall probably 400 pounds, he had a tattoo on his neck, and then tattoos up and down his arms. If I ever met him some where I probably would be scared shitless.

"Madison, come here." Angel called me over to him and Bobby. "This is Bill; he's going to help us with our plan."

"Nice to meet you Bill, I'm Madison." I stuck out my hand. He delicately took my hand and shook it.

"You too, Bobby over here tells me that you're having some trouble with Johnny Nicastro. Don't worry, will get him his money and take care of him for you. Believe me after this you will never see him again."

"Thanks, Bill." I smiled; he made me feel pretty good.

"Alright Bill will see you around." Bobby slapped his hand and walked away.

When we got back to the house, Jerry's car was parked outside. Bobby had a concerned look on his face.

"Stay here, don't move." Bobby got out of the car and pulled out his gun. He walked inside the house; it made me wonder why he was so suspicious about Jerry's car being there.

Finally after sitting in the car for what felt like ever, Bobby came out. "Come everything's alright."

I walked in and saw Jerry sitting on the couch.

"Hey Jerry," I waved to him.

"Hi Madison," He sounded depressed.

"What's with him?" I asked.

"Camille and him had a fight; he's just staying her till it blows over. Come on, we'll talk upstairs." Bobby grabbed my hand, and I followed him up the stairs.

I looked over towards Jack room as I waited for Bobby to open his door. Nikki and him were sitting on his bed. He was playing his guitar and singing about her. It was cute, I was so glad to see my sister so happy.

"So what's up?" I asked.

Bobby looked at me and smiled. I smiled back, I wasn't really getting why he was acting weird.

"So…" I tried to make conversation but he didn't say anything.

Finally I took a deep breath and walked up to him. I threw my arms around him and kissed him. He pulled me closer, and pressed my breasts against his chest. Ugh it was such a great moment.

He released me and led me towards the bed. I laid down and allowed him to crawl on top of me. It was great; I haven't had such an intimate moment in a long time.

Things started to get a little more heavy and before I knew it I felt that oh so familiar bulge pressing against hip. I couldn't help but to smile, I was such heavenly bliss.

As I began to take off my shirt there was a knock at the door. Bobby stopped kissing me and yelled, "What!"

We heard some laughter and then the sound of running footsteps down the hall.

Bobby looked down at me, I started laughing. He smiled, and kissed me again.

I took of my shirt and unhooked me bra. Bobby took off his shirt and went to move back on top of me. I resisted and tugged on his pants.

"Come on I'll take off mine too." I laughed.

"You're such a tease." Bobby unhooked his pants and slid them off. I did the same, and threw them on to the floor.

Bobby crawled back on top and we started all over again.

It was by far the greatest night that I ever had with a man in my life.