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s.b: Sorry, I make a lot of typos. Can't catch them all I guess. I only look over the chapter twice before putting it online. It would be cool if this really happened in the real books, but I don't think it will. But you never know! Yeah, I remember the first book with Quirrel. Glad you like the story. Thanks for reviewing!

joey: -coughs- Harry's parents are alive, because this is slightly an AU. The things I write will never really happen in the series more likely than not. I wrote this pretty much for my own amusement and for others as well that may want to read it. Not sure how long it took. I was writing during spring break and during algebra and health class during the school year... still writing the majority of the story now. The present was pretty lame... but I have a plan for it later in the story that I may stick to. Thanks for reviewing!

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Author's Note: Yay! Another chapter down. I have no clue what will be happening next though. My outline can only help me write so much. Late updates may be happening. Sorry everyone! On a happier note, 13 reviews last chapter! Whoohooo! Thanks so much to all my readers! Yay, I got Internet Explorer working long enough to add my bold/itallics/underlining! Hope it works next chapter... itallics are going to be useful for what I'm typing on my word processor right now.

Chapter 8: Sirius Sorrow

Harry awoke drenched in a cold sweat. He had just relived Sirius' death again in his dreams. He glanced at the clock which read 11:14. He put his hands to his forehead; his scar was burning terribly. Tears began to form in his eyes, but he tried madly to stop them. 'I miss you so much, Sirius! Why did I have to be so stupid? I wish you were still here with me right now. I wouldn't have to suffer these dreams so much if you were.' Harry thought. Tears fell down his cheek.

He looked to the corner of his room and noticed a pocket knife laying on his floor. He wondered where it had came from for a moment, but then had a crazy idea pop through his head. For some strange reason, it seemed like such a good idea to him at the moment.

He jumped off the bed and walked to the corner, picking up the knife. He withdrew the blade and without thinking, slashed his right wrist. Blood stared to flow out onto his floor and robes. Then, he picked up the knife with his bleeding hand and slashed his left wrist. More blood continued to flow out; then Harry fell onto his floor unconscious.

----Downstairs----

"James, I'm going to bed now," said Lily.

"Alright, I'll be up soon. I'm just gonna go say goodnight to Harry."

James and Lily walked up the stairs. Lily turned into their bedroom as James opened Harry's door and walked in. The lights were out and Harry wasn't in his bed, so James became very worried. Suddenly, James spotted Harry lying in the corner. He ran over and gasped as he saw Harry was bleeding like mad.

"Oh my God! Lily, come in here right now!" James yelled.

Lily ran in, "James, what is-" she stopped in the middle of her sentence and screamed running over to the bleeding, unconscious Harry. "W-What h-h-happened?!" she shrieked.

"I think he slashed his wrists, Lily. Suicide attempt I suppose." James said quietly. "I walked in and found him like this."

Lily's eyes widened, "Is he still alive?"

"I feel a pulse still, but it's weak." said James. "I need you to apparate him to Hogsmede and take him to Hogwarts. Madam Pomfrey can help him. If we take him to Saint Mungo's, it may get out to the public, and we can't let that happen. I'll notify the Order. I think he can still make it if you hurry!"

Lily nodded, tears going down her face. She picked up Harry's body and apparated him out of the room.

Harry awoke the next afternoon in the hospital wing of Hogwarts. He looked around the room and saw Lupin, Tonks, Ron, Hermione, Lily, James and even Dumbledore. They all looked as if they hadn't slept yet.

"Wha-what's going on? Why am I here?" Harry asked weakly.

James and Lily jumped out of their chairs. Everyone else turned to look at Harry.

"Thank God you're awake!" exclaimed James hugging Harry.

"Oh Harry! We were so worried!" said Lily.

"What are you talking about? What happened?" Harry asked again.

"You don't remember?" asked Lily.

"No."

"You slashed your wrists last night." said James grimly. "I came in your room and you were lying on the floor unconscious, so we brought you here."

Harry just stared at James as if he were crazy. He didn't remember trying to do any such thing. Then again, he didn't really remember anything from after he woke up from having another Sirius nightmare. At that moment, Madam Pomfrey walked in.

"Why didn't any of you tell me he was awake!" she scolded.

She went to her office and came back carrying a bubbling maroon potion. She handed it to Harry.

"Drink this. It will help you get your blood back." she said firmly.

Harry took a sip of the potion and spit it out all over the floor immediately. He had never tasted anything that bad before. "Sorry!" Harry said apologetically.

Madam Pomfrey took out her wand, pointed it at the floor and said, "Scourgify!"

Remus laughed, "C'mon Harry, it can't be much worse than Wolfsbane."

Harry grinned, "Well, I wouldn't know. It is worse than Skele-Gro!"

"You're going to have to drink that whole potion if you even want to think about leaving this hospital wing, Mr. Potter." Madam Pomfrey said.

Harry frowned and poured the potion down in one big gulp. He felt like he was going to throw up.

"Look, it wasn't so hard." James smirked.

"Easy for you to say." Harry muttered.

Dumbledore got up and said, "James may I have a word with you? Privately?"

James nodded, got up, and followed Dumbledore out into the hallway. They walked into a nearby empty classroom.

"What is it, sir?" James asked.

"Harry." he said. "Has he been acting... different lately?"

"Other than having some major mood swings? No." said James.

"You're sure?" Dumbledore asked.

"Yes." said James.

Dumbledore sighed, "This is so unlike Harry."

James agreed.

There was silence for a moment before Dumbledore said, "There is defiantly something bothering Harry, and until we find out what it is, I suggest you keep a good watch on him."

James nodded, "I'll try my hardest."

Dumbledore looked deep in thought for a moment. "Have you thought about my offer last month yet?"

"Yes," said James. "and I'll gladly accept it."

They walked back into the room. Tonks was busy entertaining the room with different hair styles.

"Umm... Can I talk to Harry alone?" James asked.

"Oh, yes, of course!" said Tonks leaving.

The rest of the visitors left and James sat down in the chair beside Harry's bed. Both were silent for a moment. Harry wasn't sure if James was angry at him, disappointed in him or just mad at himself for not finding Harry sooner. Finally James spoke.

"Why?" James asked simply.

Harry just looked at him for a moment. He was pretty confused himself.

"Why did you do it, Harry?" James asked again. "Was it something I did?"

Harry looked at him a moment, thinking about the question. "I-I don't know."

"Do you remember anything?" James asked.

Harry shook his head. "Just waking up from another nightmare. Then I woke up and I was here."

"What did you dream?" James asked, thinking it may have something to do with why Harry had attempted suicide.

"Sirius' death." Harry whispered.

James buried his head in his hands and sighed, "I should have known."

"What?"

"I'm a terrible parent! I didn't even thing about the fact that you may still be grieving Sirius' death."

"I am not 'Grieving Sirius' death'! I don't even remember doing that last night! Listen carefully, because I'm not going to say this again, okay? You're NOT a bad parent. Just because you aren't always there doesn't make you terrible. Being there always just makes you annoying, so deal with it. You can't be there for me every time I do something, so don't try so hard to."

James looked a bit taken aback, "Promise me you'll stay out of trouble then?"

"I couldn't keep that promise. Trouble always finds me."

"Promise me you'll try to then?"

"I could try I suppose." said Harry.

"Good enough I guess." replied James.

There was a long silence.

"So... umm... Do you want something to eat?" James asked.

"Not hungry." said Harry.

"Are you sure? Madam Pomfrey is going to make you eat something anyway you know. It wont be anything good."

"Fine," said Harry giving in.

"What do you want?"

"I don't really care."

"Alright," said James. "I'll pick then."

James left the room and came back a few minutes later. He set down a tray with chicken noodle soup and a roll next to Harry.

"I'm a vegetarian you know." said Harry.

"No, you aren't. You just ate meat the other day."

"I was seeing how gullible you were." said Harry. "Guess you aren't easy to lie to. I'll keep that in mind for the future maybe."

"No, you're just a bad liar." said James.

"Whatever," said Harry looking at the soup. "I'm really not hungry."

Madam Pomfrey walked in the check on them. She smiled approvingly at Harry and James.

"Good, you're eating. I was about to get you another potion, but I guess you wont need it." she said. "Everything feel okay?"

"Yes," said Harry.

"Just let me know if you feel any pain." she said leaving the room.

Harry, not wanting Madam Pomfrey to get him another maroon potion, ate his soup. Halfway through his soup, he decided to convince James to leave.

"I know you're hungry." said Harry. "You should go eat something."

"You're sure you'll be okay for a few minutes?" James asked.

"Yes, I'll be fine." said Harry.

"Okay, but only for a few minutes." James said partly to himself.

Harry finished his soup a little after James left and set it aside. He suddenly felt very exhausted and drifted off into sleep.

Very short chapter. I'll try to make the next chapter longer. Lame dream as well. So sorry about last chapter's cliffy! This whole chapter will make more sense after you read the next chapter, which I hope to have up very soon. Chapter 10 however... it's going to take a bit for me to write it. I just got into fanart as well... so I'm going to have to fit this in with my fanart obsession. At the same time though, I've given up Neopets, so I'll have more time for this. Let's just say I'll get this fic updated as soon as I can.

Okay, I don't think British people say words like 'Whatever' but just work with me there... I'm not British. Also, sorry if anyone is offended by the vegetarian comment.

Semi-important question: Will anyone kill me, quit reading this fanfic, lose their mind, ect. if I put a small Harry/Hermione relationship in here? I'm a little curious... I originally planned it as part of the plot and really don't want to change it.

Please review and if you have any questions or notice any problems with anything let me know. Thanks!