Chapter 14 – Escape

She escaped.

It wasn't the fact that she escaped that hurt me.

It was the fact she had left me again.

I know it was a childish thing to think that way, that she had only done this to me alone.

There's a more serious side to it all.

It's not like she decided to disappear into the ether again.

She put herself back into the forefront.

Aligned herself to the one person I hated the most.

Arvin Sloane.

She made me life hard again.

Making me always look over my shoulder.

To deal with my fellow agents.

The ones just getting over finding about her and me.

They had another source of ammunition.

I was the traitors daughter, the escaped terrorists child.

I knew some of them were suspecting me.

That I help her plan it. That I arranged the extraction.

That I was still a double agent.

That I worked for the C.I.A and my mother.

Vaughn and Dixon tried so hard to help me through it,

But they have no idea how to cope with it.

My father didn't get it.

I was truly all alone in it.

There was one thing I couldn't work out.

How come I didn't see any signs.

Sydney stands and stares at her mother working intently over the Rambaldi manuscript. Her mother obsession with it clearly in her eyes.

With out warning she turns her head and steps up to the glass. A faint smile on her face. Reserved only for her daughter.

"Dad says you're going to Panama." Sydney says

Irina doesn't say anything to her. Only nods to confirm it.

"Do you think there's a chance you'll get Sloane?" Sydney asks

" I wanted to see you because... it's going to be dangerous, setting this trap. I hope it goes well but there's no guarantee. So whatever happens, there's something I need you to know. Sydney, I love you." Irina said, avoiding Sydney's original question but getting out what she needed to appease herself.

" Mom"

" You don't have to say anything. I'm pretty sure I haven't earned very much, and that's okay. This was just something I needed to say." She says as well. The emotion in her voice.

"Mom, you're coming back." She said, never doubting that her mother wouldn't return.

"I hope so." She whispered slightly

Irina reaches up and places her hand on the glass. Sydney seeing Irina's intention follows suit as well. This was the closet they could come to touching. A beaming smile on both of their faces. But the moment was over soon enough. Irina drops her hand and walks away.

The escape left me with many questions.

How did she get away?

How did my father not release what she was going to do?

How did she contact Sloane

How did she remove her tracker?

Did she plan this all along?

Turn up, help the C.I.A but also help Sloane bring down SD-6.

But the relationship we had just started to build had started to crumble.


Maybe beyond repair.

But I'll still have to face her.

I'm the one who would be sent to try and recapture her.

I'd be the one in the position where I might have to shoot her.

She may be the enemy again.

But there is an emotional contingent which will always affect what I do.

But where does true loyalty lie?

Is it with my mother who brought me into the world or the C.I.A?